How is it possible that
Just a few months ago
We'd been talking about this coming day
And all the crazy things we were going to do?

How is it possible that
Just a few months ago
You were all still here and
We could go on for hours and hours?

How is it possible that
Just a few months ago
I didn't feel this lonely?

In the library,
Or in the forest,
Or in the mountains,
Or by the lake,
Or even just crossing over the pit to visit the minors.

We could've been running,
Or just leaning by the piano in the music room,
Or sitting on a stone listening to you go
On and on and on about psychopathy and your
Amusing experiments.

We would've been worrying about this day
Together
Figuring out how everything would go,
And you'd be screaming at Frank and
Lucas would be repeating his speech three times in a row.
Mike would be sitting at the side wondering what was going on,
Hoobler would be sleeping, snoring and drooling,
Mal would be screaming his head off,
The Twins would be silently listening but never giving their comments as always.
And you would be going on forever.

But you aren't.

How is it possible that
Just a few months ago
We'd been talking about this coming day
And all the crazy things we were going to do?

How is it possible that
Just a few months ago
You were all still here and
We could go on for hours and hours?

How is it possible that
Just a few months ago
I didn't feel this lonely?

In the library,
Or in the forest,
Or in the mountains,
Or by the lake,
Or even just crossing over the pit to visit the minors.

We could've been running,
Or just leaning by the piano in the music room,
Or sitting on a stone listening to you go
On and on and on about psychopathy and your
Amusing experiments.

We would've been worrying about this day
Together
Figuring out how everything would go,
And you'd be screaming at Frank and
Lucas would be repeating his speech three times in a row.
Mike would be sitting at the side wondering what was going on,
Hoobler would be sleeping, snoring and drooling,
Mal would be screaming his head off,
The Twins would be silently listening but never giving their comments as always.
And you would be going on forever.

But you aren't.

Sometimes I pray that you managed to
Move on and that maybe, just maybe,
You ended up with her.

Do you know how much
It ***** that I can't even mourn
Because I'd just be called
Freaking **Crazy

It's raining tonight.
But you aren't here to
Watch the rain with me.

Oh help her please
For she is not warm
Even under three layers of blankets.
The fan is shut and
The window open and
She's even wearing a jacket.
But she can't stay warm
And the shivering is back,
Yet there really is no medicine.
Oh somebody help,
I don't want her to leave,
Oh please Oh please Oh please...

Sometimes I wonder
If everyone out there has
Their own Wonderland.

And I wonder,
If theirs was destroyed too.

I guess it's sad because
Next year, our ten o' clocks will be
Lonely and
Misunderstood
Again.

Stop
Stop
STOP

It's killing her!

For goodness sake,
Stop!!!

I should have stopped him
But I didn't.

I should have stopped the
Horrible flashing images,
The vivid scenarios of
The car crashing
Over and over and over
Till your body gets so
Scrunched up that
It's no longer recognisable.

But I didn't.

I should have stopped him from
Repeating those words that
Constantly haunt you in your head:
The car... the bend... it's coming...
Those words that send
Fear running down your spine and
Up your throat, they
Slowly creep out and
Stop your breathing.
Stop the beating.

But I didn't.

I should have stopped him
From getting to you tonight,
Maybe I should've stayed behind and
He could've come out again.
And maybe, I wouldn't have
Let you out that night either.

I'm so sorry that
All I do is hurt you.
Time and time again,
I should have stopped him.


But I didn't.

I don't care.
You're quitting.
Pretend you never saw them.
Forget it.
No more.
No more of this
Horrendous site and
All its dark secrets
Inside.

And I'm serious this time,
You better.

I knew.

I knew you didn't want her to
Worry.
But what have I done?
I told here!

Why did I do that?
Why didn't I stop you in
The first place?
Why did you hide?

WHY
WHY
WHY

Why do you do this to yourself?
Why bottle up everything and
Push your problems aside?

Oh mam, I know I once told you
Others before self but
You hurting isn't always
Others healing

Sometimes it is very much
The opposite

But she, but she,
She's endured so long
Oh don't you think
It's wrong wrong wrong?
For one to suffer
It's so unfair,
Especially when we
Can only care care care!
Oh what's the use of caring so,
If we can't help her
No, no, no...

Oh cheer up Mr Frank,
Give her time, she will heal,
It's all just temporary feelings like
You always say, is it not?
It'll be over soon!

Oh mam,
I wish I could talk
Like you

At least you'd know
What to say
What to do

I just watch here
Helplessly as they
Pop up, one by one

And I can do nothing
But stare

My dear brother,
I pray you know
What you're doing.
I hope you won't regret
Because

You're driving us all
**Mad

As the clocks ticks and
The hours past,
I'm grow more and more fearful.

This abnormal silence is
Disturbing

I'm just
Scared

Scared that when I go there
I wouldn't find you anywhere
Again

But this time,
It was you who left
Willingly

Don't you remember your promise?
You said you wouldn't leave
Ever again!

You promised,
You fudging promised!
You said you wouldn't leave!

As the clocks ticks and
The hours past,
I'm grow more and more fearful.

*When is it okay to break a promise?

Dear mam,

I don't know if it's a good thing
But I guess, you were right,
All the nights of
Searching
Searching
Searching,
It's paid off.
You found her.

Now what?

I don't when to ask
Am I asking too much or
Asking too little?
Am I missing something
Or am I just being annoying?
Oh boy, Oh boy...
I'm sorry missy...

If Carmie told Miss Joyce about the deal
She'd probably call her a
Shibai segi
Again

It's that time of the night
When I have to leave
And honestly tonight
I really don't want to...

If she's gone
If she's gone
We'd just move on right?
We'd just move on right?
So why not just **** her
So why not just **** her
And we leave together?
And we leave together?

Now that she's in,
Now that she's in,
Now what?
Now what?

What have you done brother!
Oh, she's going to be
So so so so worried...

But won't she
**** us, brother?
We have to consider her!

The Question now is:
The Question now is:
Do we want to let
Do we want to let
The other mam know?
The other mam know?

We'll just
Stand aside
As always and
Hope they'll never know
We're here

Hey hey hey,
What 'appened to
"Staying nice"?

Chill out, mate!
He's yer relative after all.
Gotta take care of your mate
No matter what

Now all we can do is
Sit'n wait
Hope for the best'n

Pray she don't know bout us

My dear brothers,

I deeply understand
The concern about
Everyone knowing
Everything,
Especially
The certain she

But is it possible that
She didn't know, that
She still doesn't know about
Any of us

What if we
Are
Safe and
Nothing happened?
She just scrolled through
All those words
Not knowing
A thing

She's going to tell isn't she?
She'd going to tell isn't she?
The counsellor will know...
The counsellor will know...
We'd be revealed...
We'd be revealed...
We're going to die...
We're going to die...
We're *******...
We're *******...

Here
We can truly understand
Each other's feelings,
Uncover the emotions that
Our separate personalities has
Thrown us into

Here
We will know and learn
Why each of us were
Hurled into this ball of
Seeming chaos

Here
We each contribute to
A little bit of
What she is today

Here
We will grow stronger and
Closer as a family

Here
There will be no
Differences,
We will be
Equal
The same

Here
We will have
**Freedom

A certain man has
A certain key to
A certain door to
A certain emotion

But it leads to

Uncertain reactions
Uncertain decisions
Uncertain feelings

And the only thing that will
Still stay certain is

Chaos