Happiness
For me it's a different definition
Happiness is a rose
Red, full of life
Happiness is warm blankets
Watching the snow fall slowly
Happiness is tea and books
Stories of elves and magic lands
Happiness is a summer evening
Riding in the car with my dad
Happiness is a hug from my nephew
His bright blue eyes sparkling
Happiness is a song
One that I can sing over and over
Happiness is a ladybug
Crawling on my finger
Happiness is little things
Happiness is what I make it
Happiness is the world

Secrets floating
Floating through the wind
Sitting on the tips of our tongues
Ringing in our ears
Secrets so eager to be told
Don't tell anyone
Don't say anything
One person
Another person
Another secret
Rumors made from secrets
Secrets are never secrets
Real secrets are never told
But forever held in the mind
Stuck until it kills us

We long for everything we can't have
We wish for everything to be better
We want more than we could ever have
Nobody is ever satisfied

Children are starving
People are killing
Kidnapping
Stealing

Everything could be worse
Everything we know could cease to exist
Everything we own could be taken away
Yet we're still not satisfied

Why is it that nobody appreciates
Why is it that people aren't thankful
Thankful for the little things
Thankful for a family, or a house

You have more than some will ever have
You have more than some dream of
You have what some people want
You have what some people need

Everybody wants more
Everybody is greedy
Everybody dreams for more
Everybody is envious

I wish someone would notice
Notice the good in me, instead of the bad
I wish someone would notice
Notice who I truly am
I wish someone would notice
The way I smile or the way I laugh
I wish someone would notice
Notice how lonely I am
I wish someone would notice
Notice how broken I am
I wish someone would notice
Notice the demons I face
I wish someone would notice
Notice my actions
I wish anyone would notice
Notice me.

I haven't slept
Not once
The exhaustion comes
I want to sleep
I close my eyes
Sleep doesn't come
My mind is running wild
I try to just breathe
Don't think I tell myself
Just breathe
Sleep doesn't come
I lie there for hours
Lie there with my eyes closed
Hoping, praying I can sleep tonight
But sleep just doesn't come

I'm tired of this
I'm tired of trying
I'm tired of crying
I'm tired of begging

The days become long
Writing becomes hard
I can't get out of bed
I can think

I'm too tired
Too tired to smile
Too tired to laugh
Too tired to care

I tried
I really did
but nothing I do
Is ever enough

When will anyone ever realize
That I'm just so **** tired

I was only seven; barely alive
Frizzy haired, freckle faced
Innocent and pure
Loving and Caring

You held my hand
You braided my hair
You held me when I cried
You made me smile

I can still smell your perfume
I can still hear your laugh
I can still feel your warmth
I can still feel your arms around me

You were ripped from my life
When I needed you most
You were there one day
You were gone the next

I miss you a lot
I miss your hugs
I miss your laugh
I miss your smile

I don't regret meeting you
I don't regret loving you
I only regret one thing
I didn't get to say goodbye

I run
It's the only thing I know how to do
I run
Because I hurt too many people to stay
I run
Because there's nothing here for me
I run
Because you're better off without me
I run
Because I can't stand to see the disappointment
I run
Because I know how much shame I bring to you
I run
I just run
I run from everyone
I run from everything
I try to tell myself I'm better off alone
That way I can't hurt anyone
But the more I run
The more I hurt people
I'm just destructive
I ruin things
I ruin things and I run
I just run
Because it's the only thing
I know how to do

Every scar
Every cut
Every bruise
Every tear

Every time I cry
Every time I'm angry
Every time I'm confused
Every time I'm miserable

People look
People see
People notice
Nobody says anything

I'm okay
I'm fine
I'm miserable
I'm depressed

I don't know why
I don't know at all
I just want this to stop
I feel out of control

I try finding a reason
Any reason at all
Any reason why I'm doing this to myself
A million reasons why

I can't tell anyone
I can't talk to anyone
They won't understand
I don't understand

It comes and it goes
I'm happy and I'm sad
I'm just waiting a little longer
For it to go away this time

Do you see that man
Holding the child's hand
Do you see the woman
Reading the book
Do you see the teenage girl
Texting away on her phone
The man is not the child's father
But you don't know that
The woman is dying
But you don't know that
The teenage girl is pregnant
But you don't know that
We watch and we think we see
We assume and we judge
We don't know anything
Yet we all act like we do

I am a book
I hold many stories
I am a new book
Filled with old stories
Stories of adventure
Stories of pain and sorrow
I'm clean and shiny on the outside
I'm ***** and dusty on the inside
I hold secrets and rumors
I hold rhymes and riddles
I hold quotes and sayings
I am a book only very few read
The book sitting on big oak bookshelf
I am a new book
Surrounded by old books
Waiting for the next person
The next person who will try and open me

We encounter things everyday
Things that make us question'
Question who we are
Question our thoughts

Can I do better than this?
Am I really trying hard enough?
Am I doing a good job?
Am I a good person?

We ask ourselves questions
We try to figure out things
Things not even others can figure out
Yet we keep asking these questions

So who are you?
Who are you, really?
Ask yourself this
It may not be what you want to hear

Who are you?
Who am I?
The great question
That may never be answered.

Time is a murderer
Time is a killer
Taking and taking and never giving
Time takes us
Takes our youth
Inhaling it every second
Time goes all too fast
When we need it slow
Time goes all to slow
When we need it fast
Time makes the decisions
Life is measured in time
Time of birth
Time of death
Time is always there
Always dwelling, looming
Until one day
Time envelopes us whole
How long can you wait
How long can you hide
Time is precious
Some waste it
Some **** it
Everyone fears it
We never have enough
Never have enough time

I love you
But you don't love me
I need you
But you don't need me

I hug you
You push me away
I smile
You never smile back

Where were you
All those times I needed you
Where were you
All those time I fell

These secrets
The ones I hide beneath my sleeves
They're because of you
Always because of you

I love you
Why
Why do I love you
If all you ever do is push me away

I care
Why
Why do I care
If you never even cared about me?

Tonight is the night
I say goodbye
The night that I live
And at the same time die

The stars are waiting
My hands are shaking
The angels are dead
The fear's all in my head

It's all the same
Cause I'm the girl with no name
I'm holding the pills
I keep getting chills

Nobody cries
Everybody dies
I'm committing a crime
So I know it's time

As I leave the world
I know I'm free
I know I was lost
and no one will remember me

Because the little girl
Who hides in her room
Was always in the dark
Stuck in her tomb

With tears on her pillow
And razors under the bed
Had too many monsters
Stuck in her head

The angels weep
For the little lost soul
Who took her own life
Because life took it's toll

(Disclaimer, this is inspired. Please don't worry.)

A strange man, you don't know him
He smiles at you, though you don't smile back
He looks at you, you look away
He walks, you walk away
You can't tell the truth
Who'd believe you anyway
He's a bad man, a dangerous man
You can't sleep at night
You're not safe during the day
You're not safe from the stares
You're not safe from the looks
You can't let it show
how you really feel inside
You just want to go
Go anywhere but home
Home isn't safe, nor is the road
You can't get away, you'll never get away
You want to feel happy, you want to feel safe
Nobody understands, even if they say they do
You hate who you're turning into
You hate who you are
All because of the bad man
The same bad man who keeps you up at night
The same bad man who made you feel this way
The same bad mad who you never even knew
Everything that happened was put on you
You,re just a kid, you deserve to have fun
But he came into your life
He enveloped you in his darkness
You're suffocating