i guess we’ve picked up on each others bad habits dysfunctional sadness that drives us to madness blissful chaos —who could blame us happy is a thing we no longer know how to be only wounds and scars for each other to treat when at our best we’re an organized mess neither brave enough to leave this inhabitable nest and though leaving each other might be the right thing to do it gives us nothing familiar to fall back to and to that i say —lets plan leave some other day
. . . If only words could come out of her mouth she could salvage this that went so south If only meaningful thoughts could be formed she fears she's coming off as bored But it isn't that— Her brain and mouth are trying Really trying to work together She's on the verge of crying right at the threshold Her mind she wishes to unfold but fear is blocking the way She only needs one thing to say . . . But the moment has passed And the silence still lasts and now she tries desperately not to fill it
-shout out to all my painfully missed opportunities
The night was incredible. The dress looked perfect. The smiles were radiant. The laughter was booming.
And the memories would be forever.
The incredible night wasn’t so if you looked too closely. The perfect dress had sequins coming loose at the threads. The radiant smiles couldn’t hide pained eyes. The booming laughter was forced.
Stretch tall, breath in, grow strong. To live like a tree is hard when my heart feels to weak. My trunk does not straighten, my leaves do not open, I starve myself of the nourishing light. I wither, shrink, and die
We’ve grown and changed and there are only shadows of what once was. When life gets too heavy I return to those familiar shadows. Not fitting perfectly, but comfortable enough; reminded of the good. If I stay too long the seasons change and the once relaxing shade turns to biting cold. Embittering me with each icy memory. It is then I know my time is up, I must return to the present, until the next too heavy day.
They each hid the truth Thinking letting it out would bring endless consequence When the real pain came from holing it in It weighed on their hearts, ate at and their conscious, crushed their spirits A house of broken cowards Each slowly suffocating Dying from their self contained flames
It rang through my chest And settled deep in my heart My shields weren't up to numb me from the start I was unprepared for your choice of her over me A pain deep down I couldn't let you see