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114 · Aug 2019
Are You Out There?
Lulu Aug 2019
You said you wouldn’t let drugs become a problem
Here you are snorting lines like nothing matters
Letting these drugs eat away at your brain and nose
Clenched jaw, sweaty hands, bad temper
Who even are you anymore
I just want my friend back, who you were before the drugs.. before the fall...before this mess
Where did you go
114 · May 2022
eyes don't lie
Lulu May 2022
I saw your face yesterday
I barley recognized who you've become
Hallowed out jaw and forced smile
That wasn't who you were around me
Your soul has been ****** from your veins
The very veins that are pumping the drugs through
Your dead eyes spoke volume
Eyes don't lie
113 · Mar 2022
come and go
Lulu Mar 2022
you are back again
what is the point?
you come just as fast as you leave
do I deserve this?
112 · Nov 2020
Why me?
Lulu Nov 2020
They take all parts of you until there’s nothing left
Stuck with the memories of the trauma
Do I grab the gun or the bottle
So tainted from others hands
Thoughts are drowning me
110 · Jun 2021
Untitled
Lulu Jun 2021
heart is shattered in millions of pieces
which piece are you going to follow
if you follow at all
hatred filling your veins
without your consent
but it wouldn't be the first time
109 · Apr 2020
Love?
Lulu Apr 2020
Forced love
I said no
You took what you wanted anyway
Someone help
You said it was deserved
Blood and crying eyes
108 · Jun 2021
Beautiful
Lulu Jun 2021
Sun, moon, and all the stars that’s what you are to me
I am wholeheartedly in love with who you were, who you are, and who you’ll become
Love comes unexpectedly
Sing me to sleep, my darling
108 · Jul 2019
Disaster
Lulu Jul 2019
Whiskey breath down the back of my spine
Bruised hand following my tailbone
Chapped lips on my neck
Blood covered thighs and aching insides
Who was I now... nobody
Words spoke to imply intimidation
Intoxicated by your lies
Penetrated by betrayal
106 · Nov 2021
what happened
Lulu Nov 2021
my right hand, my go to
why did you have to go too
told you everything
now you're gone, leaving
my best friend
now I play pretend
105 · Apr 2020
It’s time
Lulu Apr 2020
Lost in your mind
Waves of sadness crash down
Droopy eyes and drugged
Why try to be alive
******* crazy
Boozed beauty
104 · Apr 2020
Untitled
Lulu Apr 2020
Lost in time
Days pass
Nothing to remember
Zombified walk through
Drugged out minds
***** bodies
Lulu Apr 2020
YOU broke me
with your lies
your schemes
wasted time
forced behavior
fake love
your drugs
your *****
102 · Jun 2021
Aware
Lulu Jun 2021
They will:
Leave
Hurt
Yell
Play Victim
but when it is you
when does it matter?
100 · Sep 2021
How..
Lulu Sep 2021
how did we get here
paying bills and losing homes
losing children and our minds
itching for a new life
another death another tear
choked up on pride too afraid to swallow it
98 · Mar 2020
Who Are You Now
Lulu Mar 2020
After pills
After liquor
After trauma
After ***
After drugs
After hurt
After love
After death
95 · Feb 2020
February
Lulu Feb 2020
The month of your known PTSD.
The month your life changed forever.
Never forget the hands that bruised.
The “man” who will never be sorry.
Protect yourself during this time.
This month is hard.
94 · Mar 2020
Brain Reality
Lulu Mar 2020
Opening of the mind during experiments
Forever woke about mass happiness
Waves of vibrations through your body
Becoming completely zen with your inner self
93 · Feb 2020
The Past
Lulu Feb 2020
It’s what we dwell on
It’s what we cannot forget
Something we’re trying to live down
Breaks us down and buries the good
The past isn’t always what it seems
It’s either the beautiful yet sad
Or it’s the ugly and damaging
Pick
92 · Feb 2020
Untitled
Lulu Feb 2020
It’s all a part of your mental
Who you are & who you become
So be strong and kick *** through life
Sometimes we fall down but we all have wings
92 · Apr 2020
Lost Soul
Lulu Apr 2020
We mutilate to feel something
We cry to heal something
Struggling to breathe over the thought of you with someone else
Bleeding to deal with the lies and insecurities
Brain like scrambled eggs in the hot sun
Skeleton shapes and clanking bones
Is it enough yet
78 · Jun 2021
snakes in the grass
Lulu Jun 2021
you may have left me
the memories didn't
I still care for you
I shouldn't still hurt
it wasn't anything to you
you said you were back for good

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