My mind goes askew
when i think of you
where do i go
what do i know
i feel lost
in my home
my mind will roam
but it comes back
to one thing
one person
what i feel
i am certain
what i should do
i hide behind the curtain

in a world where life has no meaning, happiness becomes a goal rather than a result.
The white noise of the fan creating music in my head.
It burns, it burns, it burns, yeah
what do you love do you love do you
appetite is lost. a mind it will cost.
bridges may be burned in order for one to learn
no other will suffice
the never ending challenges were always nice
i may have seemed cruel but
it was all in good fun
i never meant any harm
then twisted was my arm
"it will get stuck like that" they say
well it did
now i struggle to find a way
through life and love
i search as far as the stars above
no candidate stands out
why must i always shout
please stay
i'll never hurt you again
i never meant to
this shall be the end
looking forward hurts
looking back is worse
the times i've lost
the times i've taken for granted
how i miss those times
i really want to change
that should count for something
child's play we still partake
take it away and i will not wake
**** the character, **** the actor
the actor is nothing without a character
will we still act together
will we ever act for each other again
that silly act where you are mine and i am yours
this game leaves too many open sores
but it's the only way to make me happy

It's a very subtle dark
the worst kind of dark
i look into this night
with eyes not adjusted to this light
or lack there of
i am fearful for my future
i hope these wounds i can suture
my mind is certain of what i want
still your feelings for what i long
should you feel back too
don't hesitate to tell
save me from this hell
please tell please tell
what i want to hear
but you will tell what i fear

Late at night
they speak to me
i feel them
i can connect
they're cold and hot
for what i am
they care not
i don't know if
anyone knows what i mean
when i find solace
in these machines

Before i thought change was coming

but now i’m not so sure

this pain i feel in my neck

the physical part of depression

in dreams i feel

that’s the only place it happens

i wake up drained

go to sleep pained

it will never end

how far can i bend

maybe i’m already broken

a token

of gratitude

or appreciation

i do not care which

if only i could get one

from that *****

that ******* *****

she’s done me right

and oh so wrong

my mind will always be strong

i don’t know what that means

but it’s the only truth i know

i consistently try

to eschew inconsistencies

someone else i need help please

i feel these dreams are premonitions

i do not know their true definition

it feels dreadful

i just….

don’t know