One is the language of words and the other is the language of silence.

Very few people i can talk to with the language of silence.

Still, with the language of silence i can talk to the whole universe.
With the language of silence i can talk with the plants, the animals, the stars, the moon, the birds.
Yet there are very few humans whom i can talk to with silence.

To talk to another human being i use words.
Words are a kind of art.
They are a creation made by humans.
A creation consisting of a bunch of symbols in order for us to point things out. We want to point out a car, we say "look, thats a car". We want to point out a flower, we say "look, there is a flower". Word is the human communication that we have created so that we can point things out and so that we can function in the world, the outside world.

But silence is a more deeper language.

With silence you penetrate and connect with the being in deeper levels. It consists more of feelings. It is a deeper communication that silence brings. Words can only point to that which is. They can not actually give you, explain to you, express to you, reveal to you, in total truth, what is. Silence can do this.

The evolution of consciousness is introducing this language to humanity.

Humanity knew the langugue of silence but humanity got really mixed up and really got puzzled with words, in words, in the laguage of words, in the language of the mind. And my feeling is that this confusion and this lost that humanity got itself into, for a period of time, was neccesary in order for us to come back home.
Now the consciousness is moving with its flow.

It is so amazing to see how much humanity lost touch with its nature.

I know the language of silence because i have spended much time in silence. And not just that outside of me things are totally silent but inside of me also. Inside of me there exists a silence that i have really gonne deep within because ever since i was born into this body that goes by the name Esteban, i have felt that silence within me, and at a certain point in life, i started to get confused. But there was always this silence within me that was above and louder than everything else.

Outside of me there exists the world that we see today and humanity is just so lost and confused in words that i was losing myself too. Because the whole humanity is lost and i am here walking around the world, notecing that people dont know this language of silence. And it is only humanity that lost touch with it. And now how to connect everyone else with their nature? how to communicate this silence to others?

Everybody has to come back to themselves, everybody has to stop the outside world for a bit and spend some time with themselves in silence. Just in peace.

It seems like humans are on auto-pilot.

We come here into existence, into the world, and from the moment of birth and up, is like we are just following society, we are just following what people tell us, what our parents tell us. We just go on that track that they give us and why are we not following our hearts? why are we not doing what we want to do? we are so afraid to explore. We are so afraid to discover truth for ourselves and we are just relying on the information that is allready here. We go on believing everything we hear, everything that is said to us. And whats up with the purpose of life? Whats up with the movement of the universe?

The humans are trying to have control over everything .

The humans are trying to make life how they want it to be. The governments and the religions have done this for so long and have used lies to prevail. They keep saying, "this is what you have to do, this is what you have to become, you have to struggle, you have to fight, compete" and then they say "this is what will happen if you dont follow, this is the reward and this is the punishment". And we grow so much fear that we follow. It is so sad and silly.

And here i am seeing that this is all just a wonderful playground.

That the planet Earth is a playground for the consciousness to explore, to discover, to evolve, and to play and have fun, and to create.

To create beauty on planet Earth.
And yet we have and are still creating such ugly things.

Nuclear weapons and wars? Private territories and divisions of race? Polluting and destroying nature?


Each one of us has to become a leader of ones self.


How to give you the experience of silence?
It can not be done.

You have to experience it yourself.

You have to experience silence because when you experience silence you will know things without a doubt.

You will know the truth about everything.

And so you have to become a master of yourself to get to that point in which there is not a single doubt about any-thing.

You know it all.

I speak the language of words, yes to communicate with other humans, and to get things done, create things, have fun. But i mostly use the language of words to try and talk about the language of silence. To try and point to the language of silence.

And i encourage people to practice silence, to practice meditation.

To explore and study themselves as deeply as possible.


The university will not reveal to you the universe.

Life and self-study will!

We are consciousness, and only consciousness.

The consciousness that is somehow bound to the body, is conscious of everything.

Thoughts are like people moving around in the market place. Thoughts are everywhere and when we give our attention to thoughts, when our consciousness looks at thoughts, which are everywhere to be seen, which are all around us, we experience thinking.

It is very important that we understand that we are consciousness and only consiousness.

This way we can free ourselves from the prison that we are in but yet don't know we are in. Humanity is enslaved thanks to the mind. Not just because the mind exists, but because of the believes that we carry in the mind, which are believes that keep us limited. We believe things that are not truly true, and this keeps us in a kind of prison.

When we are born in a body, we are free and we are just consciousness, purely conscious.

As we grow, all the information that is already here in the world is ingested into our mind. As we continue to grow, and as all this information continues to grow in our mind, we start to forget that we are just pure consciousness. By the time we are teenagers, and by the time we start to become adults, we have totally forgotten that we are just consciousness and we live our lives in a little box because we limit ourselves with the believes that are inevitably conditioned upon us. We believe that we are this body and we are not this body. When i say we, i am talking about the consciousness, the pure consciousness.

And the problem is not only that we believe we are this body, but we grow the habit to think compulsively.

Anything in this world can become a habit, and for the mayority of humanity , thinking has become a habit.

So what happens?
The pure consciousness that you are is never pure, is never silent, is never fully conscious because first of all, we are taught to believe that we are the body-mind, and second of all, we grow the habit to always think by always having to judge ourselves to see if what  we are doing is right or wrong, to see if we are to be punished or if we are to be rewarded. And this supports and strengthens the believe that we are the thinker, that we are the body.

When we don't allow spaces of no-thought, of no-thinking, we forget that we are an empty sky.  

My effort on leaving behind all these words is to wake up as many people as possible.

People are missing a great opportunity.

People stay living in a little room when they can be living in a huge palace.

All that has to do be done is to find a little distance between thoughts, between feelings, between everything and always remain a watching presence. Now, we are always this watching presence, we are always consciousness even if we are unconscious about it. Even if we are unconscious about the fact that we are consciousness , we remain consciousness. For example, all animals are consciousness, they are awareness, but they are unaware of this. Their body limits them because it lacks intelligence. They are not fully and totally free and they can not be either. But at the same time they don't have to be. By nature they  don't have to be intelligent, they are fine just how they are and they are in the process of one day becoming conscious like we are, like the humans are. Still, there are many humans who remain unconscious of the fact that they are consciousness and only consciousness. Without shape, without form. Just consciousness, awareness, everywhere. This whole universe is consciousness and when this consciousness is merged to a body, the body is simply a contact point of the consciousness.

At some point, when the body of a baby is being developed in the mothers womb, a little spec of consciousness enters and binds to the body of the baby and this happens because through the human body, through a human experience, the consciousness is capable of becoming aware of itself and this realization is possible in any one life time, in any one human experience. But, it has not been so. It has taken many many life-times and many many people have not yet realized this. People can't even believe that they had a life before this life and that they can have a life after this life as well. People can't even conceive this. But it is true. People have been going life after life, obviously and naturally not remembering the past life, but going life after life not going beyond life. Not going beyond the human or atleast not even understanding, discovering, learning , what life is, what the human is. People remain ignorant and afraid because of the conditioning that they receive.

All conditions prevent the being from trascending their lives and consciousness because in our true nature we are totally unconditioned- free-beings. Any condition that is imposed on us goes against our very nature and anything that goes against nature is bound to have problems.  

And so my reason for saying these things that i have discovered to be true in me, is to help people remember or to atleast give people a new idea that there is the possibility of something more, of something greater than life, something with no limitations, something with no death, something that can not get sick, that can not feel pain, something of pure joy and peace , of pure love.

Every single human being is searching for this something, every single human being is searching for themselves. And they are searching because they remember. They have been themselves before. They are themselves right now. They are consciousness right now, but there are so many things in the mind that they forgot and they dont know. And when they hear something that is true, when something is said that points to that consciousness, automatically something is felt inside, something is triggered.

This whole search for truth or for enlightenment is a search for our own selfs.

It is a remembering process that happens.

Go into this search as empty as possible.

The less conditions you carry , the less knowledge you carry, the more simple and humble you are, the easier it is to remember who you are, because it does not take knowledge to know that you are consciousness, that you are awareness, it simply takes consciousness and awareness.

So it is important to be aware of everything, of every single thought that comes in and out. Be aware of the believes that you believe and the believes that you don't believe.

I don't know if there are people who for some reason are not ready to awaken, even though they can, even though every single human being can awaken, but,  there are people who have put too much into their believes, too much faith, and who can not even concieve the idea of dropping these believes, these investments. Now, the funny thing is, that even all these people who are unaware, are consciousness themselves. And it makes sense that these people who are unconscious , are here in the world so that other people can wake up, so that other people can learn from them, so that other people can see their unconsciousness, can see their behaviors, and use them towards their journey, towards their enlightenment, towards their shift of consciousness.  

"We are itself the consciousness presenting itself as human nature" - Mooji.

We , the consciousness, invisible consciousness that can not be seen nor touched, which one day was before Earth was created, that consciousness that is everywhere like space, over time has manifested itself in the world of form, in the world of matter and eventually through the movement of what appears to be time, manifested itself as a human being.

It is an invisible yet conscious phenomena that has managed to make a form out of atoms and elements, managed to make a form out of itself, out of elements of itself, and managed to create the world that we can see today. And seeing the vastness of the universe, we can see the many possibilities that exist, the many possibilities of consciousness to keep growing, to keep creating, to keep expanding, to keep evolving.  

One day i am not going to be able to express myself through Esteban, yet i will be expressing myself through other bodies, with other names. And i have been expressing myself through other bodies also, like for example one of my favorite man, Osho, Bhagwan. Osho is I. Osho is the same consciousness that is in Esteban, expressing. Now, we look different in the outside, our voices are different, our accents are different, but it is the same consciousness trying to express the same thing. Once we know that we are this limitless consciousness, we can start focusing on creating things. But right now what is important is that everybody realizes that we are this consciousness, because if not everybody knows this, then we can not create, we can not work to our full potential. Once we know who we are, once we know WHAT we are, we will know exactly what we have to do, what we can do, and we would do it with a quality that has not existed before. A quality of super consciousness, a godly quality. So before we focus on the outside world we have to focus on the inside world first. Before we can create beauty outside we have to create beauty inside, because the outside world is a reflection of the inside world.

If the inside world is not pure, is not balanced, then the outside world will not be pure, will not be balanced.

If inside of us there is tension, anxiety, fear, hate, anger, violence; this is what will be expressed outside of us. If inside of us there is love, wisdom, peace, joy, beauty; then outside of us there will be all of this as-well.

The problem is not whether we are thinking negatively or positively, the problem is that we are thinking unconsciously.

That we think negative or positive thoughts does not matter as long as we know that we are thinking. And not because we are the thinker but because thoughts are passing through the mind and here the consciousness that we are , "thinks". But it does not think as in it is doing something, it simply sees the thoughts. The consciousness does not even move, does not even blink, does not have eyes like these eyes. The consciousness just is, and the consciousness sees thoughts moving, occuring.

The problem is not that the consciousness is seeing negative thoughts, the problem is that if the consciousness is seeing negative thoughts, it believes the negative thoughts.

You forget that you are the awareness that watches thoughts, totally separate from the thoughts.

You are simply giving attention to the thoughts.

Like i said before, thoughts are moving all around you. You can not see or grab them because they are so subtle in their manifestation, yet they ARE energy in movement, they exist but in different frequencies of existence. And they are everywhere.

When we experience thoughts, what ever category of thoughts, it is because we are giving our attention to those thoughts. Every single thought is available to us. The mind is not just your mind, my mind; The mind is one universal facility, available to all.

And so, the problem is not that you are thinking negativily.

The problem is that you are thinking unconsciously.

Become more conscious of your thinking. Become conscious of thoughts. If the thoughts are negative, watch them. If the thoughts are positive, watch them. But don't judge them as negative or positive, dont judge the thinking. If negative thoughts are percieved, don't start saying to yourself  "oh why am im always thinking negatively? ;( " because this IS another thought and you are not watching it. Usually THIS is the thought that is not watched.

You watch a thought, for example, you watch a negative thought. This negative thought brings out negative emotions because thoughts are the cause of emotions. Emotions are energies-in-motion. You watch your thinking, you watch the negative thought and then you say, "oh this thought is bad, why am i thinking these thoughts? I should not be thinking this way, what is wrong with me?" that right there is a thought also and you are thinking, believing, that it is you!

Any judgement is a form of thought.

Anything that consists of words or symbols and even images are thoughts. It is all mind and the problem is that there are thoughts that are not being watched, observed, and this is keeping you unconscious and troubled.

There are many thoughts that we are not aware of.

For example, we watch a negative thought , we percieve a negative thought, but then the next thought that talks about that negative thought, we don't see because we think, believe, that we are the one who talks instead of remaining the watching consciousness that we are.

We are not the one who talks because we don't even have a mouth to talk through. We are simply and only consciousness. We use the human body as an instrument to talk and express ourselves but we remain the conscious awareness.

Those thoughts that are not being watched are keeping us from going deeper into life.

These unobserved thoughts are keeping us traped in the mind.

So if you ever ask yourself the question, what is life?
What is my purpose in life?
What should i do?
What should i not do?
If you are not out of the mind, you will not get the true answer because the mind is limited to these questions.

The mind will only give you that which has already been given. It will not give you originality.

Simply try this out:

When ever you are experiencing thinking, let the thoughts be, don't judge them as negative or positive thoughts, as good or bad thoughts, just watch them. If you do judge them and you say "*** why am i thinking that?! " watch that, watch that judgement. Keep watching, just simply watching, purely aware of every single thought, keep watching and you will start to feel a distance, a silence, a space.

See how long you can go from thought to no-thought to thought.
See how long you can remain in a silent gap between thoughts.
Watch your thoughts, watch your thinking and see how the watchingness slowly expands.
See how the silent gaps become longer.
And see the peace that these silent gaps bring.

The reason for the existence of the universe is for us to see what we really are.

Through out time we have been experiencing every single aspect of the universe, of life.

It is neccessary for us to go out and get lost in the world in order for us to come back home.


Life is the game of games.

Life is a play of consciousness.


When we begin the whole journey of life as consciousness, we must go unconscious.

And our goal is to return to consciousness.


It is very important that we are as aware as possible when we are experiencing everything and anything from life and the universe.

Every lesson of life has to be learned and understood before we can go beyond life.


In order for us to know that which is unlimited and immortal in us, we have to first see that which is limited and mortal.

If we never experience unconsciousness, we will never know what consciousness is.

Every single one of us is a spec of consciousness finding its way back to its source.

At some point we are bound to get tired of life.

Because although life is beautiful, life also contains uncomfortable and unpleasant experiences.

Like for example, being sick.

Although life is beautiful, we are bound to get tired of it.

We are bound to get tired of sicknesses, diseases, old age and death.

We are bound to search for that which has no death, which does not get sick, which does not get old.


When every single aspect of life has been experienced, we are bound to search for the eternal.

We are bound to search for God.


There are mysteries that can be known and there are mysteries that can not be known.

Those mysteries that can be known bring us peace and those mysteries that can not be known keep us in peace.


When ever an experience or a situation is there for you to experience, it is important that you put the mind aside and that you don't look for the answer in your mind.

For example, if you are ill or very sick, you might desperately start thinking why this has happened to you, for what reason must you go through this.

If you want to know why such uncomfortable things are, you have to put the mind in silence and allow silence to answer you.

If you don't silence your mind, you will keep asking why but you will never get an answer that satisfies you.

You will go back to healthiness but you will not know why sickness was.

Therefor, next time you get sick, again you will ask the same questions and if you don't allow the answer to be revealed by the sickness itself, again you will miss the lesson.


A sickness is suppose to remind you of that which can not get sick.

A sickness is suppose to teach you the balancement that must be kept in order for you to stay healthy.

A sickness is simply just another teaching of life.

You have to allow the sickness to teach you and allow yourself to learn.

And in order for you to learn from the sickness, you have to remain open to the sickness.

Don't condemn the sickness thinking "this should not be" .

Instead, see what it was that got you sick.

See what it is that will make you healthy again.


Everything that this world contains, good or bad, is supposed to be a teaching for you.


So it is important that you remain an openness in all moments during all situations.

Don't close yourself with believes.

Remember that the mind is not the master.

Remember that the mind is a servant of the master.

You, consciousness, are the master.

Heaven and Hell don't really exist.

Heaven and Hell are Both states of Mind.

Humanity created this believe that when "you" die, you either go to heaven or you go to hell;
But this believe is simply a creation of the religious intent to control people while they are alive.

They say that if you don't do this and that, if you don't behave in this way or that, then the punishment will be hell.
But that if you bahave this way and that, then you will be rewarded with heaven.

Both heaven and hell have kept humanity in a kind of prison,
because they have created  fear  in you while you are alive.

There is the fear of going to hell and the fear of not going to heaven.

Only the person who does not Believe is free of fear.

To this person, heaven and hell have no power over;
Because he knows his Self and therefor knows that Mind is simply a very complicated tool that helps the Self function in the world of form.

Which is why:
Heaven and hell can only disturb the one who has not gone beyond Mind.
Heaven and hell can only disturb the one who is still IN the Mind.

And of course:
The ones who are still in the Mind can not make sense of what it means to NOT be in the Mind.
Because everything that they see, including this statement, is seen from the point of view of the Mind -
and from the point of view of the Mind one can not see the Mind because it IS the Mind that is looking.

So:
In order to see the Mind, one has to look from the point of view of Pure Conscious Awareness ( Real Self ),
which in other words is the point of view of God.

Heaven and hell have been a device that a part of humanity have used in order to control another part of humanity.

Both the governments and the religions have been teaming up on this intention of controlling others.


When a person dies, if he or she has not lived a conscious life and therefor has not attained the Goal of Life, he or she will simply be born to live another life.

Death does not bring heaven nor hell.

In fact:
Heaven and hell are and can only be while alive.
They are ideas and therefor can only be thought about..

We have said:
For one to go to hell, one has to sin.
And for one to go to heaven, one has to not sin.

If while alive a person has sinned, these being severe sins, like for example those of ******, that person will not go to hell because there is no hell in Truth. In Truth, that person will simply be born again either in an animals body or in a humans body with some kind of misfurtune, such as disabilities and abnormal conditions.
For example, if you have really committed a crime that goes against nature in one life-time, then the consequences of the next life-time can and will be one of many. A person can be born blind, deaf, mute, ect. A person can be born without a body part or with a physical or mental illness/disease.

If a person has not committed any horrible crimes during life-time that go against nature and has been a good person, he will not go to heaven either because there is no heaven in Truth. In Truth, you can be good or bad, but if you have not attained the Goal of Life, which is to become conscious of your Real Self, of who you Truly are, whether you have been good or bad does not make much difference - you will again be born into another body and according to the karma that you carry, which builds from the actions of the present life, will be chosen the circumstances of your next life.

But you will not go to any heaven or any hell because these both are simply creations of the fantasies and imagination of the Human Mind.

Now, heaven and hell still have power over some people because these are the people who are still not aware of their Real Self.

In other words:
Not every-body has gone beyond the Mind, trascended the Mind, into the Ultimate Realization of the Self.

So simply for the joy of expressing myself i say that Both Heaven and Hell are not real but just states of Mind.
Just ideas - believes - thoughts.

The Real Goal of Life is not to go to heaven and not go to hell, the Real Goal of Life is to attain Self-Realization.
Which in other words is to discover, or better said, to re-discover,  your True Self.
To know the Truth of your Self.

To those who do not know,
heaven then is just a hope that keeps one feeling safe in ones own ignorance of death and Truth.


To be born in this world right now one has no other choice but to recieve all the information that has been created by humanity.

And because there is so much information, there will come a point in every-ones life in which he or she will forget what is true and what is not true.

If that person does not have the courage to go in search of Truth, then he or she will simply believe and hope that there is a heaven and therefor there is safety guranteed after death.

This desire to be safe after death exists because of the ignorance of ones own life.

Because one does not know their Real Self, one does not know what is to happen when the body can no longer sustain life.

And the only reason why all false ideas have prevailed is because you have not prevailed in discovering your own Truth.

You have been possessed by the ideas that have been imposed on the Mind, and you have not been able to re-gain control.

You have believed in what ever believes and ideas you have heard and you have lost connection with Truth.

In order to re-gain connection with Truth, you have to go beyond all believes, beyond heaven and hell.

And in order to go beyond all believes, you have to silence the Mind;
Because as long as the Mind is compulsively bringing believes and ideas to your Self, you will remain un-connected with Truth.

As long as there exists ANY question within you, you have not known Truth.

The Goal of Life is to get rid of all questions;
And remember that all questions are of the Mind.

Only the Mind can question and only the Self can have the True answer.

Remember:
The Real answer to all questions is NOT of the Mind but of the Self.

All answers of the Mind are false and these will only bring more questions.

Remember:
Your True Self is not the Mind;
The Mind is only a part of your Self.

The Mind, when in search of Truth, will ask all the questions that it can ask and the final question will be:

Who Am I?

"Who Am I?" is the question that begins the journey towards your True Self.

First Mind will ask:
"What is all of this outside of me?"

Then,
When Mind has questioned everything outside of you,
the deepest question will finally come:

Who Am I?

And remember:
Only when Mind has questioned all that it can question will it question Itself,
and here you begin to move closer to your Self.

Enlightenment, Nirvana, is when Mind has asked the final question, Who Am I?
and You have answered:

I Am God.

And when you have answered the final answer, I Am God, it will not be Mind answering.

In fact:
This answer will not really be answered;
It will be known.


"Who Am I?" will be the last question because you will now be looking at the Mind from and AS the Self, instead of looking from the Mind, believing Mind to be the Self.

Here you will come to know that you are That which is watching the question happen in the Mind,
and in this moment you will know that you ARE the answer, simply because you are the Silence that answers the question, not with words, but with Knowing.

Remember this:
If the answer is to be the Real answer, the answer will not consist of any words or symbols;
If the answer is to be the Real answer, the answer will be your own Self-Realization.

And so:
The question "Who Am I?" can only be answered by You because it will take you directly to Your Self.

The question will take you from Mind - to - Pure Consciousness, Pure Awareness, Pure Silence, God.


This process of Self-Realization goes through the huge maze that the Mind is, to explore and question the whole universe, to finally get out of the maze, knowing everything that can and has to be known.

The Mind has labeled the whole universe and though the Self/God can be labeled and talked about, It can not fully/totally be expressed with words;
It can only be fully/totally known by Being It.


The question "Who Am I?" will be the final question.

Real Peace and Bliss are attained when the answer to this question is known by You and when there is no other question left in You.

Consciousness is evolving and the humans of old generations,
the elders,
the old people right now who carry the old mind,
are looking at the new generations shocked,
terrified,
confused,
because the old mind is very conditioned,
very strict,
with many rules and believes that were forced to be followed,
and now the new generations are coming so fresh,
and are being allowed more freedom,
are being allowed lifestyles with less conditions,
and the old mind,
the grandparents,
can not believe what is going on.

And it is that consciousness,
who we truly are within the body,
is finding its way into expression.

The punishments are decreasing.

And it is becoming more possible for us to be who we are,
instead of being pressured into following a fixed lifestyle.

By and by,
generation after generations,
it will become more clear to us that all believes of the past have been false,
have not been able to stop sufferings,
and instead,
have kept us from flowering into our full potential.


A rose flower that is forced to become a sunflower,
or a lion that is forced to become a kitty,
will live miserably,
simply because it is against their nature.

A rose will be a rose and a lion will be a lion.


Humans have been forced to become followers when by nature they are kings and queens in their total freedom.

It is the inevitable education provided by the societies that ingest the old conditioned mind into every single human being since birth.

And it is the inevitable,
ever-lasting,
moment of eternity that will prove to us that a false reality has persisted in the world due to false ideas,
and that there is truly nothing to believe in.

That past and future are not real but simply available in the mind for useful and helpful circumstances.

And that this present moment is real,
and that it is in this present moment that EVERY-THING happens.

It is in this present moment that we experience thoughts of past and future,
it is in this present moment that life inside and outside of us happens,
and it is this present moment that has been before and will continue to be after.

And that because we are the awareness of EVERY-THING,
it is in this present moment that we will discover that we ARE this present moment.



In this present moment:

LOVE: When we see that we are all one and the same.

PEACE: When mind has become silent and communication with nature can be.

JOY: As we understand that there is nothing that we MUST do and that being is enough.

HAPPINESS: As we sing and dance together with the whole of existence.

ECSTASY: As we watch our breath and realize that life and its mysteries are happening like magic.

WISDOM: As we go beyond body and mind, beyond believes, into the realm of Knowing.

When awareness is total,
you can watch the breath go in and out in its own will.

The whole body becomes light,
as if it isn't even there.

Yet you can feel the gravitational pull.

The breath goes so deep that you almost feel as if you are going through an infinite free-fall.

The mind rushes for an answer that can explain what is happening.

But the free-fall continues.
It does not end.
It is who you are.

You can see that there is no answer.
You laugh that there is no answer.
You understand that you are the answer..

The heart goes beating.
The lungs go breathing.
And you go on watching.

And mind still goes on wondering..
"So there is no death?"

There is only the now.

See it.

Be it.

Don't hold on to anything.
let go of everything.

Watch Life happen right in front of your eyes.

Can you see Life happening in you?
Can you see how beautiful she is?

Watch how she travels with the wind.
Watch how she shines in the stars.

And the mind still can't find an answer..

See the fear turn into love.

See the love and how it overwhelms.

Leaves you speechless without a word..

And it leaves you wanting to spread the word..

Awareness: What are you doing?





Unawareness: Many things.





Awareness: You are not doing what you are suppose to do.





Unawareness: What am i "suppose" to do?





Awareness: Nothing at all...





Unawareness: Then what could be my purpose in life?





Awareness: To simply Be.





Unawareness: Be? be what?





Awareness: What you are.





Unawareness: A human? I'm suppose to be a human? Am i not a human already?





Awareness: Ah. I see now. You are still Unaware.

To the world i say: Goodbye.
Beautiful and meaningless world.

To the eternal i say: Hello.
Peaceful and all-loving existence.

To the people i speak truth.
To the people i give my love.

How to remain desire-less,
When your greatest desire is to help others?

How can i speak truth,
when their ears only listen to lies?

Yet, it is silence that speaks the truth.
But how can people listen to the voice of silence when there are a hundred other voices in their mind saying;
"i am the truth, follow me! "

It is only when one becomes mind-less that one will KNOW the truth.

Lost and confused,
are the people.
Where is your purpose to be seen?
You all seem purposeless; Lost.

Too many mind.
You are lost in thought...
Unable to listen to the voice of your nature.
Silent voice that shows you the way.

Like the ants,
Who live and serve their purpose.
Who have no mind, no thought.
Who are instinctually guided from within.

We humans have a purpose to serve.
A very important purpose here on Earth.
Like the white cells in our body,
We stand for the harmony of the planet.

There is harmony in our nature; There is peace.
And this peace we must express to the world.
The mind is an important and powerful tool;
But humans have come to believe " we are the mind"

We go far beyond the mind
To a level the mind cannot understand.
The universe is a huge organism;
Moved by the same force that moves us.

There is nothing the mind says that we "must" do.
We are not here to do anything.
We are here to simply Be.
There is already a divine intelligence taking care of everything.

Humans are the leaders and supreme protectors of the planet.
To live a human experience is a gift.

Our purpose is to live in a state of peace.
Fully aware that we are all connected.
Fully aware that it is in our nature to love.
That the only thing we must do is to live in the present moment;
Following that silent voice from within that tells us:
Be happy, Be peace, Be love --- Just Be.

La verdad es que: el amor , la paz , la felizidad , no te la puede dar nadie. Nada afuera de ti mismo te lo dara.
Si tu realisaras lo que en realidad tu eres, te darias cuenta de esto imediatamente.

El amor mas grande que tu le puedes dar a un pajarito es soltarlo a el aire. Dejarlo en su naturaleza. Dejarlo volar si eso es lo que quiere. Si el pajarito vuelve , con una erida en la patita, ayudalo. Tu mismo corazon te pedira que le des amor.
Cuando el pajarito se recupere, no pares de darle amor. Dejalo que vuele. Ser libre es parte de su naturaleza. Dejalo ser feliz.


Si tu realisaras lo que en realidad tu eres, te darias cuenta que lo que trae felicidad no es solamente recivir amor. Te darias cuenta que dar amor es lo que en realidad te da felicidad. Dar amor es parte de tu naturaleza. Dentro de ti , bien dentro de ti, en tu essencia, tu eres amor.

Si tu dejas tu felicidad en las manos de otra persona o en algo de tu exterior , tu felicidad siempre va a depender en algo fuera de ti.  Perderas tu propia libertad. Constantemente tu felicidad cambiara de niveles y no seras tu la que estara en control. Otra persona sera responsable por tu felicidad, y esa responsabilidad se la as dado tu misma. Ya no eres una palomita libre. No siempre podras volar cuando tu quieras. No siempre podras ser feliz cuando tu quieras. Aveces tendras cadenas amarradas a tus patitas. Las cadenas seran tu dependencia.


Una paloma solo necesita su libertad para ser feliz.
Una persona también.

The evolution of the universe, the evolution of life, has been in existence for a long time. Life has been expressing itself in thousands of forms threw out time. It can be said that from no-thing, everything came to be. From tiny bacteria to huge whales to all of the animals to all of nature to the human being; it has been an on-going evolution.

There is a formless and invisible force of energy inside everything that is alive, and in fact, this energy is what gives life to all form. It is what keeps the whole body alive and in motion. It keeps the heart beating and the lungs breathing. Again: that energy has been around since the beginning of time, and in time, it has expressed itself in many ways. That energy is now at its peak. It's highest and most intelligent expression is the human being. Why? Because the human being is capable of becoming aware of what he/she ( better said ; of what IT ) truly is. The energy that i am speaking about can also be referred to as life , or consciousness. Life has become conscious of itself.

If we were to be a dog, we would not be aware of our own being. Yes we would follow our nature, but our nature would be the only thing we would know. We would live in peace, we would live in joy, in love, and we would express it to the world. Problems that exist in the life of humans ( or better said; in the human mind ), would not exist if we were to be dogs or any other animal. Our life would be simple and our purpose would be clearly known and firmly fulfilled, since the path of our nature would be the only path we would follow.

The human being clearly does not follow the way of its nature. Instead, it follows the information that is given by others and it has been doing so for a long time.

Serious is the case, now that any new born human is incapable of escaping this information, this knowledge. It is here in the world, it has been in the world for some time, and it will continue to exist in the world unless humans begin to see beyond the information, threw the information, into their own nature. Into their inner silence. Ultimately re-discovering the truth about themselves. The truth that only the individual can come to know. Only the individual can fully  understand. Only the individual is able to search deep inside himself and find the answer to all his/her questions. This understanding will not come to you from the outside world. This understanding will arise from within you as you allow and accept the present moment to be. It will become more clear to you as you become more and more aware of everything that is happening in this moment.

Humanity developed a dis-ease in the mind. The dis-ease consists of lies that were created by humans and that were subtlety and slowly imposed on other humans. Rulers and religions started to mix truth with lies. These distortions of truth molded into belief systems.  

The belief systems grew strong. People were forced to join side with these beliefs. There was deadly punishments for those who went against the churches, against the governments. This went on for a long time. Governments and religions brought fear into the world, into the human mind. The human mind lost its purity, it became un-pure, polluted.

At some point in time, the whole of humanity was lost and confused. The truth was so twisted that people forgot what was really true and what was really not true. People grew up believing in so many things. So many religions came about, each declaring a certain truth. A child no longer grew up believing in himself. The world demanded that he/she believed and followed a given path. Everyone became a follower. The human race was in an unconscious state of being. Unconscious because they lost awareness of reality. People would follow, fight, and protect their believes not really knowing why. People sacrificed their freedom for security.

Traditions then came into existence. People became like robots. People became accustomed. People would come into the world and the world already expected a certain lifestyle to be followed. Years of conditioning separated humanity from the whole of existence, the universe. Humanity was fighting for power and control. They went against themselves in the name of their beliefs, in the name of their "gods", and in the name of their "truths".

Life suddenly lost meaning. People were coming into a world of suffering. People were now not only slaves to authority, people were now slaves to their conditioning, to their beliefs. Happiness and joy had to be struggled for. Love and peace had to be earned, had to be worshipped. There was the fear of sin. There was the fear of not being accepted by God. Humans created God in their own image. Their whole life-time was being judged and the judgment was coming from no God, the judgment was coming from their own minds, their own judgments, their own believes.

After many years of conditioning on the human being and on the human mind, conditioning did not need to be reinforced by anybody anymore. The conditioning was already placed and memorized in the mind of the individual. The individual knew what was "right" and "wrong" , knew what "should be" and what "shouldn't be", so the punishments and the rewards were given by the individual himself.  

This was the state of darkness and unawareness that humanity got itself so deeply in. And this is the state of unawareness that humanity is getting out of. Humanity needed to go threw this state of unconsciousness so that it could then become conscious of it and never repeat it again.

The whole dis-ease was in the mind. That whole "reality" was in the mind. It was a virtual reality, an illusion. That reality was kept alive threw compulsive thinking, non-stop thinking. Mind did not rest, and mind was full of lies. Mind gave a label to everything and divided everything. Mind created a symbol, a word for everything it could get its hands on. But mind cannot get its hands on reality, on life, on truth. Because everything is equal in its essence. A dog can be called a horse and it would not change a thing about it. Words  are just an  agreement of symbols put together in order to differentiate things. What you call the flower makes no difference to the flower, the flower will continue to be what it is.

Humanity once again is attaining to the state of consciousness. Humanity is seeing more clearly, there is less dust in its vision. There are fewer beliefs in the mind, so humanity is seeing things as they truly are, threw the labels. It is becoming less superficial, going deeper into the being.

Humanity is destined to awaken once again. If we do not awake in this lifetime, we will awake in the next. It will be a waste of life, but if you are not aware of life as it truly is, you will not be aware of what death truly is either

El sufrimiento existe porque existen las mentiras.

Donde existen las mentiras?
En tu mente.

Las mentiras solo pueden existir en la mente,
porque todo lo que no existe en la mente,
es verdad.

La mente es futuro y pasado.

Cuando no hay mente,
solamente hay,
el presente.

El presente ES la realidad.

La gente no vive en la realidad,
porque la gente vive,
en la mente.

La mente es una realidad virtual.
Porque el trabajo de la mente es darte una realidad virtual.
Esa es nuestra arma.

El ser humano con la ayuda de la mente tiene la capacidad de hacer cosas que el resto de la naturaleza no puede hacer.

Pero,
la gente humana es esclava de la mente.

La gente humana no vive en el presente.
Porque sus mentes estan tan ocupadas,
TAN ocupadas...

A todo minuto esta esa voz de la mente diciendote: Que tienes que hacer --- que se te a olvidado---que tienes por terminar.

La mente no te deja vivir en el presente.

La mente a tomado control de ti,
y,
si tu no empiezas a tomar control de tu mente,
a medida de que vas creciendo,
a medida de que tus anos van pasando,
sera mas difícil de tomar control.

No todo el mundo va a lograr obtener su libertad.
Porque hay gente que ya a puesto tanta fe en sus creencias que han acumulado tanto miedo.

Piensan y creen tantas mentiras que le tienen miedo a sus propias mentiras.

Ellos creen en algo y creen que para que ellos sean felices,
para que ellos llegen a vivir en paz,
sea durante vida o despues de vida,
tienen que seguir luchando en el nombre de sus creencias.

Lo que la gente no sabe,
es que la mente vive en el pasado y en el futuro.

La mente siempre hablara de algo que tiene que pasar--- de algo que a pasado--- de algo que pasara.

Pero la mente no habla de el presente, de este momento.
NO PUEDE.

Entonces,
la gente vive su vida esperando...
ESPERANDO.

La gente espera a que ese momento de alegria eterna les llegue.

Pero,
como estan tan atrapados en su mente,
como estan tan poseados por su mente,
por sus creencias,
totalmente rechasan el presente.

Creen que vivir en el presente es una perdida de tiempo.
Creen que tienen que a toda hora estar haciendo algo.

El hacer nada para ellos, para la mente, significa : perdida de tiempo.

Entonces,
que hacen?
Siempre estan haciendo algo.
Siempre estan enfocados en obtener,
en ganar,
en LLEGAR.

Quieren llegar a la felicidad.
Quieren llegar a la paz,
a el amor,
a la verdad,
Pero estan siendo totalmente manipulados por la mentira de que la felicidad la van a obtener en algun futuro.

Totalmente separados de este momento,
de el presente.

Totalmente pre-ocupados.

La felicidad,
la paz,
el amor,
la verdad,
alegria,
SOLO se pueden experimentar en este momento.

Y este momento se vive totalmente cuando la mente esta en silencio.

Porque,
cuando la mente esta hablando,
te esta hablando o de el pasado o de el futuro,
NO de este momento.

Entonces,
para poder ser feliz,
alegre,
lleno de vida,
en paz,
lleno de amor,
la gente tiene que aprender a poner, mantener, la mente en silencio.

Y la unica forma de que la mente llege a su estado de silencio es :  OBSERVARLA .

The majority of humanity thinks and believes that the mind-body is the whole being.

The majority of people today are stuck in dreams,
in characters.



Ever since it has become clear to me that i am not this body-mind,
i can do absolutely nothing this whole lifetime and still have so much fun peacefully observing every-single-thing.

And from the very moment of realization,
aside from learning as much as possible from this body and this world,
the wanting to share this experience has been tremendously irresistible.

Life and this entire world is so nice and beautiful and fun,
but it is all temporal,
it is not for ever,
it does not last for ever.

It is absolutely clear enough to see that every-thing that lives, dies.

My question then is:

Why are we so attached to the things of this world,
and why are we taking it all so serious?

It is the goal of Life for every-one to come to experience the Truth

A life-time is enough to touch people.

In this life-time,
threw Esteban,
i can demonstrate to others how life should be according to human nature.

But threw Esteban,
only a few years will be available.

Hence in these few years,
not a day will go by in which i am not following the heart,
and the Way of nature and Life.

It is threw my enjoyment of life,
threw my exploration of life,
that my true message is revealed.

I have thought about writing books;
but there is already so many books,
each expressing truth in different and unique ways..

Jesus was killed because he wouldn't stop expressing his truth.

And ever since the time of Jesus,
there have been so many books,
so many great books,
inspiring humanity to wake up.

So wether i write just another book on Truth or not,
it is the book of my whole life that will leave a mark on eternity;
not just a few truthful words,
but a whole truthful life.

And the funny thing is,
that it is such a simple thing to do..

It simply requires that one lets go of the image that has been created in the mind about who you think you are.

In other words,
the ego.

And not only who you think you are,
but also of who you want to be,
who you are struggling to be.

And that can be a hard thing for some people,
because they have been working ******* this image.

But this individuality,
this believe that you are separate from existence,
has to dissolve.

Because the whole effort to be famous and known in the world is only satisfying the ego.

The satisfaction is of your own mind,
and it comes when you can repeatedly tell your-self:
I am this. I have done this. I have achieved this. Look at who i am. Look at what i have done!

It is a silly idea that one has to let go of,
because truth is,
that we are not separate from the universe,
we are not divided from nature and existence.

The ego wants Life to be according to its own made up plan..

Forgetting that the whole evolution of Life and consciousness has been in it's process way before humans were created.

Therefor,
separating one's self from the whole of existence is a very silly thing to do.

Because every-thing that exists,
every-thing that lives,
is all working together,
as One,
according to Nature,
in accordance to the flow of Life.

Clearly enough,
all sufferings and all negativity,
arise when this separate image appears,
and tries to create its own personal way of life.

This imaginary identity desperately demands from life and says :
"Ok no! Why are things like this? Why are they not like this??"

In its own personal ignorance,
it asks for the impossible.

Ego is greedy.

It wants to be the owner of things,
it wants to be in control of everything.

It wants to control the weather..

If it is raining,
ego complains:
"****, why is it raining??"

If you have a girlfriend/ boyfriend,
ego wants to be in control,
bringing onto you,
self created conflicts by wanting things that can not be,
that can not happen.

One needs to understand how things truly are and begin to accept their reality.

Accept the things that we can control and the things we can not control.

The things that we are responsible for and the things we are not responsible for.

You are responsible for your life,
I am responsible for my life,
We are responsible for our lives,
and that is all.

As i see it,
life is a deep study of ourselves.

A challenging opportunity to analyze the things in us that have to be fixed,
that have to be balanced.

We can not keep going with life unconscious about our un-balances,
habits,
addictions.

We have to work on the things that are not right in us.

And even though we all have different un-balances,
in the end it comes down to knowing who we are.

When i say "we",
i am not talking about the mind-body organism;
When i say "we",
i am talking about the awareness.

So when i say "we",
i am referring NOT to the one who is talking right now using words, symbols, sounds, and language,
but to the silence from which all sounds come out of and eventually return to.

That silence i refer to as awareness.

It has no shape or form.

Awareness is formless.

And once we start to see that we are that which has no form,
we can then dis-identify from that which consists of form,
and this brings total freedom.

It means freedom from the things that come and go,
freedom from all that is temporal.

One begins to enter the realm of eternity.

One begins to understand how we are eternity itself.

What is the eternal?

The eternal is that which IS without any form.

And as it is clearly seen,
everything that has form at one point turns into no-form.

What ever has a form will eventually dissolve into no-form.

What is that inside of the form that allows the form to move?

What is it that gives life to the form?

The form disappears,
but that invisible force of energy always remains.

As far as my understanding goes as of now:

Just as we are not the creators,
the designers,
of our whole body,
we do not bind our-selves to the body either,
that is a job of God.

It is God who designed the body,
we are just the awareness.

And the awareness is everywhere,
in every-thing.

But as the awareness,
right now we are experiencing ourselves threw the human body,
and in the capacity of this human experience,
we are able to know our true selfs,
coming closer to God than ever before.

And the human life-form is the only life-form that can go so far in this understanding.

All other life-forms are incapable of this understanding.

The very same awareness that we are,
that is also in plants and animals,
can not have the same experience that the human body allows.

And that is all part of the goal of life and evolution.

That is the journey of consciousness,
to come to this point of being a human,
and here by,
totally allowing the understanding of who we are.


Now this can not be understood by the mind,
hence one must go beyond mind.

Because the mind is part of the body.

It is not the whole.

By my own understanding:

We can not rely on the mind.
We can not believe the mind.
We can not believe our thoughts.
We can not believe the thoughts of others.

We can not believe in believes because believe is not truth.

Wether one believes or does not believe,
truth remains truth.

The mind is an amazing tool,
provided by the human body,
to help and serve the human being;
To  learn from the past,
and to plan for the future.

But we can not count on the mind to tell us what is true,
because mind is a huge storage room,
it is all memory;
Mind is like a computer full of data with so much information,
so much knowledge.

So much that the whole history of humanity is there.

But it is impossible to see ourselves threw the mind,
for the simple reason that WE can see the mind.

WE are aware of the mind.
WE are aware of thoughts.
WE see all images that happen in our head.

When we are thinking,
we are NOT the thinker.

This is where things went wrong.

When we started to believe that we are the thinker.

We started thinking so much,
that at some point,
not even realizing it,
we started to think and then believe,
that we are the thinker.

And this is the mind-trap that drowns us into confusions.


If your heart is speaking to you,
if something from within is pulling you,
it is going to happen.

If you are in the world,
and something does not feel right,
as if something is missing,
as if you are incomplete in some way,
and something has to be attained,
found,
you are going to find it,
as long as you stick with your feelings.

And even though it is a sucky situation,
even though it is not a totally peaceful struggle to figure out what is true and what is not true,
it will be impossible to run away from it,
because it will continue to haunt you.

It is always going to be there,
pulling you,
pulling you,
pulling you.

If you are feeling pulled into something great,
out of this world,
my advice,
is that you follow your feelings.

Forget all about this world.

Do not be concerned with what other people tell you.

Discover life on your own.

Discover truth for yourself.

Learn what you can from people.

Listen to people,
but do not believe people.

Flow with life,
and where ever you are,
be there as the observer.


If you are with people,
just watch people.

If you are by yourself,
just watch yourself.

Keep following your feelings.

Silence is what truly says it all.
Silence is the answer to all questions.
Silence is the language of God,
total silence.

In total silence, God is heard and felt;
flowing in you, around you.

Or we can say Life,
another word for God.

For some people,
total silence is impossible.

Right when silence and peace are entering the being,
a thought will arise in the mind and distract.

For many humans today,
the mind is compulsively bringing thoughts;
therefor,
there is no silence and no communication with God.

Maybe i wont become some professional,
maybe i wont become a psychologist or a doctor,
but the love,
the peace,
and the healing that i want to give to the world can still be given wether i go to college or not.


My whole family has their eyes on me,
asking themselves and asking me:
what are you doing?
are you wasting your life?
what are you doing?
they ask me;
because they all expect something from me.

They all expect me to hop on that train,
where you compete,
qualify,
and work hard to become somebody.

"You have to succeed. You have to become somebody in life!"
is what they tell me..

What can i do about it?
I let them talk.
I listen.
And i know that i am all-ready all that i can be.

We are all all-ready all that we can be.
There is no need to struggle to be-come somebody..
We are all Kings and Queens.
We only need to truly realize it.

We are all Kings and Queens because as human beings,
we are able,
capable,
of total freedom.

When we listen to our hearts,
we know what we have to do.

In our hearts we can find the answers to our deepest questions.

We have to come to know who we really are to know what we truly have to do.

And knowing who we are not,
will reveal what we don't have to do.

Because threw years of conditioning on the human mind,
too many have come to believe that we are what we are NOT.

So to know who we really are,
it truly helps to realize who we are not.

And from my own experience,
the only way to do that is to go deep inside one's-self and begin to analyze all of one's believes.

It helps to remember:
that what we believe today,
we do not believe because we ourselves choose these believes.
We did not discover them.

What we believe today,
we believe because it was said by our parents,
that this is true and that this is what we should believe.

And those same believes were told and imposed on our parents also.

And those same believes were given to our parent's parents,
and so on..

So it is important to clearly see that we did not choose to believe what we believe today.
That these believes have been traveling from generation-to-generation.

And i talk about all believes..
From what is wrong to what is right,
to what is pretty and what is ugly,
to what should be and what should not be.

As i see it:
It is necessary that we all come out in-to the world alone,
and see if all of these believes match with the feelings of the heart.

And the way to see,
is to go deeply within,
and be completely honest with what we find.

We will have to doubt all believes,
and begin to discover,
what is real-ly true,
and what is really false.

And we are all capable of fully knowing,
without a doubt,
what is true and what is false.

In my observation of nature:

A tree does not got to any school to learn how to be a tree.

And the ants do not go to any school to learn how to be an ant,
and the ants who go in search of food do not train for this specialty,
and the ants who guard their homes,
do not go to any school to learn about guarding and security.

And the birds do not go to any school to learn how to fly,
or the fishes to learn how to swim.

It is all all-ready in them.

And the same is for humans.

Humans do not go to any school to learn how to be a human,
to learn how to be a King and a Queen and an Emperor.

But as far as history and present day are concerned,
humans go to school,
and have been going to school,
to learn how to be NOT a human,
but a robot,
and a copy,
and a follower.

We are all Kings and Queens,
protectors of Earth,
divine beings,
creators of beauty and love.

According to nature,
It is not necessary for a human being to attend any school in order to learn and come to know the secrets of life and the great mysteries of the universe.

Every human being is born with that enlightened seed,
capable of blooming into a Buddha.

It is only when we decide to follow and do what others say,
that we become afraid and forget all about that seed,
therefor not allowing it to grow.

Because we believe many lies,
fear enters the mind.

We begin to fear too many things,
specially "death".

We simply start to go with societies flow,
the flow of the law,
and we don't go with the flow of life,
the flow of nature,
the flow of love.

So what i am trying to do in writing these words,
is encouraging people to believe only in themselves.

I want to encourage people to start meditating.

Start becoming aware of everything.

And stop living your life automatically.

Become aware of every-thing,
all of your movements,
all of your actions,
all of your thoughts,
all of your habits,
your routines,
your unbalances,
addictions.

A topic on Meditation or on Truth is a very delicate topic.

Because both Meditation and Truth are experiences that will not be totally understood unless one has experienced them too.

It is almost like a drug inside of you that can be activated in any moment,
that can be tried any time.

Like any other drug,
**** for example,
once you try it and experience the high,
the effects that it gives,
you can then talk about the experience of being high.

But if you talk about it to a person that has never been high,
that person will not total-ly understand what you are talking about.

That person would have to smoke **** to understand you.

And it is the same with Truth and Meditation.

Truth can be the name of the drug that is inside of you.

Just that it is not like any other drug,
because it will not harm you in any way,
it will actually heal you.


It will heal your mind your body and your soul.

Your whole being will be healed.

And you will become fearless.

You will not fear anything in life because you will not fear death anymore.

You will understand that there is no death for the true Self.

That the only thing that dies aside from body and mind,
is the whole illusion of who you think you are,
your whole story,
your ego.

That will disappear.

So these words are simply to help people to activate that drug that is inside of them,
that seed,
that is within us,
so that we can become fear-less,
un-afraid.

And so that we can discover that which we are in search of.

Because as i see it,
we are all searching for that something.

And in my believe,
until we find this truth,
there is always going to be a feeling that something is missing in our lives.

And it make take some time to know what that something is.

It may even take many lives,
many life-times.

And one will go on learning from mistakes,
and realizing that,
"Ok, it was not this that was missing,
it was not a partner that was missing,
it was not a vacation,
it was not some car,
it was not money,
etc..."

One will go on searching and searching,
and until we find this truth of who we are,
which will reveal the truth of what this all is,
until then,
one will not feel complete.

And when one finds IT,
one will know that it has always been there,
that it is always here,
that we were simply conditioned to give our backs to it.

Once we begin to see what is true and what is false,
we begin to see that all of our believes go against IT,
they go against truth.

Ultimately,
what we are searching for is here in this moment.

Always is in this moment.

It just can not be seen if we are clinging to any-thing.

One must surrender every-thing to this moment.

Accept death.

Accept the truth that one day you will die,
and that one day your friends and family will die,
and that everything that is alive will die,
and go deep into understanding what the point of it could be.

If at one point we are all going to die,
then what is the point of it all?

Why struggle,
why work,
why stress to be a millionare,
to build a reputation,
fame,
what for?

If at some point we are going to die and it is all going to disappear?

Then what could be the point of it all?

As far as i have understood,
one needs to become very silent.

One needs to start watching one's thoughts.

So that we do not have the mind talking to us at all times,
so that we can put the mind at rest.

Because the mind contains too much borrowed knowledge,
the voices that speak in the mind is not your true voice,
it is the voices of people.

We have to pause the mind,
so that we can know what truly is true,
so that we can know the truth about our-selfs.

And the truth is,
that we are not this body and mind,
that we are not any of these experiences that we are living,
that we are somewhere else,
simply aware of it all.

We are the awareness,
we ARE awareness.

We are just watchers.

Watching us speak,
watching us think,
watching us do,
watching us feel,
watching us sleep and dream,
watching every single thing that happens or does not happen in this moment.

And that watcher,
that watching,
is eternally always here,
and always has been.

Meditate and you will know it,
and you will know real peace,
real power.

Deeply study your-self and you will know reality.

True love is true acceptance.

True love can be seen with eyes that truly see.
The eyes that truly see are those of the heart.
They see threw everything, they see threw anything.

When the heart sees, it feels too.
When a heart sees and feels another heart, there is love in communion.
No words can describe the experience better than the experience itself.

The eyes that see threw everything see threw themselves first.
Only when one sees threw oneself can one see threw everything else.

If a person is inflicting pain on another being, it is because he does not know himself yet.
Therefor, he does not know that what he does to another being, he is doing  to himself also.

If a person is inflicting love onto another being, thou the person might not be aware, he is inflicting love on to himself as-well.
Hence the feeling of great joy that comes as he gives.

Only the one that has found great love within himself is able to give it and receive it.

The one who sees threw the eyes of the mind sees but does not feel.
Hence he will not see what is real.
Only when one feels what is real will one see it also.

Though not all know it,
we all live this life not as the living being but as the awareness that is inside of the living being.

Threw the senses we experience a variety of things.
The awareness can see the material world threw the human eyes.
And threw the conscious Eye,
the awareness sees everything.
Even that which the human eyes cannot see.

The mystery questions, with out a doubt, appear to the seeker of truth:
What to see in the time of death?
What to feel in the time of death?

With the disappearance of the body,
certainly comes the disappearance of the senses.
And with the disappearance of the senses,
certainly comes the disappearance of sense-experiences.

And because this world consists of sense-experiences,
when the body disappears,
along with sense perceptions,
certainly the awareness shall be the only One remaining.

What else to do then,
than to simply be?

No longer bound to the body,
one can only imagine how the liberating experience of detachment and complete freedom is to be.

What to think then if the mind is no more?

Certainly only those who during life-time understood and surrendered mind and body,
shall need mind and body no more.

Having realized one's true self,
having lived in one's eternal state of being,
fear of death,
along with all other fears,
are feared no more.

And having learned the Lesson of life,
the awakened one continues life,
knowing that the final good-bye to the world of form is coming closer and closer.
Preparing one's Self for lift-off.
Curiously contemplating the voyage in-to the world of no-form.

And what else can one do then, than to trust in the flow of existence?
What else can one do then, than to trust in the journey of one's Self?
What else can one do then, than to trust that the life that has been lived in total awareness,
shall then take you exactly where you are destined to be?

Happy that i follow the way of love,
Tranquil that i follow the ways of peace,
In joy that i do only that that is in alignment with the ways of nature,
In trust i remain,
steadily floating in the wings of awareness,
silently watching as the journey of consciousness happens as the will of God.

Not every one person will become a buddha in ones life-time.
The evolution of consciousness  flows in its own accord.
It is not that one person is walking the path towards awakening.
It is that the One consciousness is walking the path towards awakening.

Those who have lived long enough,
who threw many lives have finally come to their last,
who have understood the Teaching,
will not be born again on planet Earth.

Those who are still living life unaware,
who are still clinging to the things of the world of form,
who have not yet discovered the Truth and are therefor not ready to transcend,
will remain in the learning cycles of life and death.

This being said,
there is nothing to worry about, there is nothing to fear.
We are all on the same path, we are all moving towards the same place.
The whole universe moves together, as one.

Live your life with great awareness.
Keep your mind and heart open.
Every single moment is completely new.
Discover the lesson to all your moments.

Do not be afraid to ride the waves of your nature and explore the mysteries that exist within this vast universe.

Do not be afraid to ride on the wings of love and explore  the truths that exist within yourself.

By your own nature,
you are totally free.

Discover your freedom and watch as you start to grow wings!
Discover your freedom and let it take you beyond the boundaries and limitations of this world!

Drugs.
Illegal drugs.
Marijuana, *******, ecstasy, mushrooms, LSD.
All taken by the governments.
And they picked the right drugs to take away from us.

Drugs can be a very good thing as they can also be a very bad thing.

Because with drugs,
one can get closer to what is real, as,
one can get further away to what is real.

Everybody carries the freedom to explore and experiment with what ever they want.

But the governments do not want people to experiment with them-selves and with these substances.

The governments want to keep things organized in their own chosen structure so that they can control people.

And they know that drugs can actually help and be useful.

They know that drugs can be used for spiritual practices and that in these practices one can become a realized man of truth.

Every drug gives you a different effect,
a different experience,
and as you experience the effect of which ever drug,
this will bring about an opportunity to encounter reality.

Because when one sees what is NOT real,
one begins to see what IS real.

Drugs allow you,
the opportunity,
to realize that you are the observer behind the experience.



Marijuana is such an amazing substance,
such an amazing plant.

It brings upon such deep relaxation.

And when one is "high",
present is the opportunity to understand the simplicity of what is truly happening:
that the body and mind are becoming still,
your body feels lighter and more at ease.

Here,
in this state,
it could be easier to watch and recognize your true self.

Your body and mind are elevated by the effects of marijuana,
and if you become very silent and you close your eyes and you stay there,
and you start watching and experiencing,
you might just feel as if you are separate from the body and mind,
and though the body and mind feel so relaxed,
you are somewhere else,
very very still.

Trying **** can change your whole view and perspective towards life.

The simple act of doing something that is illegal,
gives you a sense of freedom.

It can amplify and support the freedom that you have.

There are other drugs,
stronger more intense drugs like ecstasy.

Here is another opportunity to experience a different feeling in the body.

Ecstasy is a little bit riskier and more harmful to the body.

It provokes an amazing feeling called ecstasy.

Though many are not aware,
we all already carry that feeling within us.

One just needs to activate it.

The pill simply skips the whole meditation and takes one straight to  ecstasy.

If you have ever tried ecstasy,
wonder and contemplate the following question:
what happens when in ecstasy...??

When one is  on ecstasy,
there is nothing more but the present moment.

You are totally IN the moment,
you are extremely happy IN the present moment,
you are feeling everything IN the present moment,
you see everything,
hear everything.

You become so utterly loving.

You start sharing your love,
and this brings even more ecstasy.

If you are highly aware and alert,
it will not take too many pills to realize that though you get this awesome feeling of ecstasy,
there is also a bad,
sometimes horrible,
side to it:
When your body doesn't feel healthy with it.



The mushroom is a very,
very,
revealing drug.

Natural to begin with,
And very revealing.

Because the mushroom is a poison,
when the poison is in you,
in a very subtle way,
you experience a slow form of death.

If one eats a sufficient amount of mushrooms,
one might just poison oneself to death.

But when one consumes just a little bit,
One goes threw this interesting experience.

The body recognizes that this is a source of poison,
and with its own intelligence,
it tries to get rid of the mushroom.

So one might **** it, or,
one might ***** it.

The point is that it is a poison.

And as one experiences this poison inside one's body,
because one is coming closer to death,
one is coming closer to life also.

In that moment,
again it happens,
that there is only THAT moment.

You do not care about anything else because you are so in-to that moment.

You feel so connected to nature and the environment,
as if you are one with it all.

And here,
once again,
another opportunity to realize that you are not the one who is experiencing the whole trip,
but that you are the one who is watching the experiencer.

And if you are watching the body-mind go threw this whole process,
you can not be the body-mind.

So it does not matter whether you die or you don't in that moment,
because in that moment you can free yourself from the idea of death.



LSD is the greatest one of them all.
Because LSD does not give  a feeling of being poisoned.

LSD enhances all senses,
one can feel ten times more,
one can see ten times better, hear, taste, etc..

All of ones senses are amplified.

And again ,
this is simply just another opportunity to realize that one is far away as the witnessing presence to what is happening to the body-mind and to the senses.

When you experiment with all these drugs,
and you realize that you are  just the watcher of it all and not the experimenter,
you will not keep experimenting with them.

Because like i said,
drugs can get you closer to the truth,
to what is real.

And once one realizes certain truths like:
one is not the body,
one is not the experiencer,
one will realize deeper truths like:
one is with no form just a watcher,
a witness.

And having gone beyond all drugs and experiences,
one will not continue using drugs,
since one is aware that they will only harm the body.

It does not matter what drug one does,
one has already known the truth about ones self.

The only new thing in a new drug,
would be the new experience,
the new feelings,
the new emotions that come about.

But when one sees that one is greater than all these things,
one realizes,
that thou the body-mind is affected by the effects of drugs,
ones true self is not affected by any-thing.

Your true self does not change at all,
it remains the same,
always,
that peaceful awareness.

If you are not aware and alert,
you will start doing drugs and you will start to get lost in them.

You will get lost in your own mind,
in your own "reality",
in your own projection of life.


I get the feeling that the governments know about the potential transformation that drugs can bring to a person.

Because of this,
they have made all these substances illegal.

Not only because of economical reasons.

But also,
so that people remain firm and steady in the manner and in the way that they want you to be.

They do not want you to experience all these extra-ordinary experiences.

They want to keep you straight in THEIR straight line.

They do not want you to go drifting in-to these realizations.

Beause you might just awaken yourself threw them and realize that you are totally free.

And how then can a fully realized individual be ruled?

The mind is like an ocean and thoughts are like waves that come and go.
You are the one sitting on the sand, peacefully watching the ocean,
the mind.

In the ocean, big waves shall come, small waves shall come.

If you decide to step into the ocean to ride some waves,
remember, you are not the ocean nor the waves.

In the mind, big thoughts shall come, small thoughts shall come.

If you decide to step into the mind and ride some thoughts,
remember, you are not the mind nor the thoughts.

Though in the surface of the ocean the water is restless and always changing,
In the deep parts of the ocean, the water is at peace and very still.

Though in the surface of the mind things are restless and always loud,
In the deep parts of the mind,  things are at peace and very silent.

Life is also like an ocean;
flowing in its own accord.

Here you are not the rider,
you are the ride.

And if Life takes you to Death,
and Death takes you to Life,
then where exactly are you going?

You are going nowhere,
but you are always now here.

Since the beginning of time,
the evolution of life has been an on-going movement.

At some point,
not even animals or plants existed.

Only planets and stars.

Eventually planet Earth came to be,
and threw out time,
different life forms started to manifest,
ultimately creating the human being as the highest life form on the planet.

The whole universe is moving in a circle, for what?

What is the purpose of it all?

Where is this on-going journey of evolution going?

All of these creations that exist in the universe,
were obviously created by some supreme creator,
which we have referred to as God.

God is the symbol that we have chosen to represent  THAT which creates.

Creates us, the humans,
along with the whole universe.

And it feels as if  we are on this journey, under His will.

And we ask ourselves what could be the point of it..
what is it all about..
what is it for?
what is the goal of life?

In one hand,
we see that many ugly and unnecessary things are happening, and have been happening for a long time.
There is much violence and suffering still being created by the human race.
We see hatred and destruction.
Is this the goal?

on the other hand,
many humans are being guided by a certain silence within themselves.
Many humans are searching for truth and peace.
We see visions of turning Earth into a real paradise.
Is this the goal?



To walk around the world in pure silence is to truly explore the world as it is.
It is to truly explore life and learn the lesson that your life holds.

To walk around the world with a fixed mind, with fixed believes, conditioned,
is to walk around the world like a slave, like a robot, like a program, like a blind man.




Todays society tells me that to be part of this world i HAVE to do this and that.

But i see this world as a huge playground.

A beautiful playground for consciousness to play, have fun, love, create beauty and continue evolving.

And yet society tells me that i have to go out, compete, struggle, qualify and work hard.

In my vision:

The only work that is real is the work of God.

And the work of God is to love and to love and to love and to keep loving and to keep having fun.

And it seems to me like more than half of humanity believes that life is not so simple,
and that things have to be struggled for,
that you have to fight,
that you HAVE to become successful,
forgetting that you are just fighting for success under the name not of who you are,
but of who you think you are.

We are not the names that  are given to us at birth,
because if we were to be those names,
that would mean that when the name,
the person,
dies,
you die.

But who are you?

Pretend that in this moment,
you come into existence.

Pretend that you were born right NOW,
who are you?

If you were born right now,
here next to me,
and i ask you, who are you?
What will you tell me,
what name will you give me?

And if you were to give me a name,
( because a name was given to you in this moment );
what would that name represent if there is no past for it?

To me,
the name is simply the accumulation of the experiences from the past that the name has gonne threw.

Pretend that there was no past.

Who would you be if there was no past?
take a moment to imagine...

If you were born in this moment here next to me,
and i ask you:
who are you?
- you would be able to tell me: I am;
you will tell me that yes, i am, i am here,
i exist;
but you will not be able to tell me your name,
you will not be able to give me a name,
because if you were born in this moment right now ,
yes you will exist,
yes you will be,
but there will be not past for you to tell me about the story of that character who carries a name.


Because from the moment of our birth we are given a name,
it is inevitable to escape a name.

And as we grow,
that name which we carry,
which we identify with,
accumulates experiences and builds what we call the "personality".

The personality is just past experiences.

The record of your past  keeps your personality alive,
the memory of your past sustains your personality,
and then some of you believe that this is who you are...

But if you were born in this moment,
or if your whole memory would be erased,
and you would be re-started in this moment,
who would you be?

That being is the true being of your-self.

That being that exists in this moment without a label is who you truly are.

Many people go on living the story of their name.

The story of their past.



Esteban has a story,
Esteban is part of this world,
Esteban contributes to the world of form,
because Esteban is the name of this body.

But it is not Esteban that lives inside this body.

Esteban only lives inside the mind.

Esteban is just a character.

Esteban will eventually die.

But that which is in Esteban,
that which expresses itself threw Esteban,  
can not die.

The story of Esteban will come to an end.

As it begun with the name Esteban,
it shall end with the name Esteban.

But the consciousness will continue to exist.



If you believe that you are your name,
you will also believe that you will die.

Because it is true that the name will die;
but because the true self has no name,
it can not die.


As i see it,
many have lived for many life-times,
and many have not been able to transcend their consciousness.

Many have not been able to move on in the journey of consciousness.

In my view:
many are stuck.



And in my believe:

Those who want to or still need to remain in the cycles of life and death,
can and will do so.  

And those who feel ready to go beyond life and death,
those who feel ready to understand the purpose of life and death,
will follow the voice of silence.

Those who are ready to understand the meaning of their lives,
will meditate.

And those who are not ready to see beyond this world,
will continue their unconscious behaviors.

Those who want to cling to sense experiences,
will continue their attachment to things.

And in this attachment to things,
they will continue suffering.


I will not struggle for anything.

I will continue to live in my simplicity.

I am so deeply in love with everything.

I am so deeply in love with my peace.

And i am just following nature.

I am just following my nature.

But it seems as if not every-body is following their nature...



I see planet Earth as a school room.

I see planet Earth as a school for consciousness to learn as much as possible and eventually graduate.

And so what we call the buddhas,
the awakened ones,
to me,
are the graduate ones.

Those will hop on-to a new journey.


This is just MY expression of life.

This is just my truth being expressed to existence.


And my recommendation to others is to always follow the heart,
and to grow the courage to put aside the believes and the sayings that are told by the outside world and begin a journey towards your-self.

Sure the outside world will still be there to distract you,
yes the mind will still be there and confuse you at times,
but little by little you will put the mind at peace, at ease,
and ground yourself more strongly in-to your awareness.


The mind will always be there because it is part your being.

It is not your whole being,
just a part of your being.

The mind is another part of the body;
just like the legs and the arms and the eyes, etc...

Become the master of your mind.

Discover peace of mind.

Discover your truths.


If you are ever looking for answers,
from my own experience,
i would tell you that they are all within you.

And that the answers that are given to you by others,
you will doubt.

But that the answers that are given to you by your inner-self,
you will not doubt.

Yes others can help you to discover your truths,
but YOU ,
are the ultimate helper.

Yes others can guide you,
but you will have to experience your own truth so that never again you have a doubt.


In the end,
i think we all know what we have to do.

We all know that the answers are inside of us.

And if we are following other people,
other peoples opinions,
if we are believing other peoples judgments,
we also know that it is not right .


My observation is:

That through life,
there are many lessons to be learned on planet Earth.

That our own lives contain many lessons.

And that of course we have to make mistakes,
and of course we WILL make mistakes,
and of course we have made mistakes,
but that of course we will understand the lesson,
and come to know what is real and what is not.


And so what is the goal of life?

Well,
you ARE life.

So what is the goal of your life?

The answer is inside of you.

And only you can come to know it!

Totally let go.

Do not even hold on to life.

Stop and be completely still.

See and feel your heart beating with out your effort.

See and feel your lungs breathing with out your effort.

Realize that you are not bound to this body-mind by your own effort.

Give up all believes.

Totally let go to the moment.

You are aware of the whole moment.

You are aware of your breath, of your heart beat.

You are aware of what surrounds you.

You are aware of every-thing as far as your eyes can see.

You are aware of the thoughts going in and out of your mind.

You are aware of this whole moment.

You are awareness itself.

Nothing can touch you.

Nothing can hurt you.

You can not be destroyed.

Neither can you be created.

You simply are , and you have always been.

You are the eternal awareness.

You have experienced the whole existence, and now you experience the human.

You are the invisible and silent awareness that is bound to the human body.

This experience of being a human is to learn something new.

Do not carry believes with you.

Do not carry lies.

Be a total witness of this experience.

Take with you, your own understanding.

Watch your breath real closely.

Go deeply into the flow of your in and out breath.

Who breathes?

Who sees the breathing?

Surrender all efforts and let the breath happen on its own.

Watch thoughts come in and out of your mind.

How do the thoughts come in and out?

Who brings thoughts to the mind?

Who sees thoughts appear and disappear in the mind?

Give very close attention to your heart beat.

Are you the one who keeps the heart beating?

Are you the one who makes the lungs bring air in and out of your system?

How is the heart beating and how are the lungs breathing?

And who is aware of these two independent happenings?

Are you in control of the heart-beat?

Try to understand,  this life is not your will.

This life will one day end.

This life is just a teaching.

To make you aware of eternity.

Look deeply into an animals eyes, who do you see, can you see yourself?

Can you feel yourself?

Can you see if thoughts appear in your mind to say something about the animal?

Look very deeply and very openly into an animals eyes.

Can you see the awareness that they are?

Can you see how alert they are of everything in the moment?

Can you see that they are awareness experiencing itself threw the animal body?

Can you see the limitations that the animal body contains?

Are they capable of high intelligence?

Look deeply into their eyes, any sign of  them thinking ? or just being?

Animals do not carry a mind.

Animals do not carry memory nor the past.

Animals carry no believes, no knowledge.

Animals carry awareness and total trust.

They do not worry about what tomorrow may bring.

They only do the moment.

They are only concerned with the present moment.

They carry no fear and no doubt.

They carry no reminders and no duties, they are totally free.

What human being is totally free?

What human being knows real peace?

What human being is not worried about what the future may bring?

What human being carries no doubt of where this life is taking you?

What human being carries no past ?

What human being is in total awareness and love of the present moment?

What human being is exploring this life with an open mind and with an open heart?

What human being takes time to fully see the totality of another human being?

What human being takes time to fully see the totality of themselves?

What human being has the will to know life on their own?

What human being has the courage to not believe anything others say, and listen closely to his/her inner-voice that is so heavily and harshly pushed away  ?

And what human being is brave enough to have the whole world against him/her,
just to Be and express the simple and real truth that is deeply inside his/her heart?