Like the lives that only live for the love they haven't found
A single soul is searching for peace in the hell of lies
Like the fire burning in the pit of insanity's home
A single life is barely controlled by the bounds of being alone

Like dreams that only dreamed of the dark called death
A single shadowed dance gave life to her last breath
Like the sun setting fire to the earth when it leaves
A single brightened glance gave her peace when she last breathed

There are lives that only live for the love they haven't found  
But still their broken hearts are too shy to make a sound.
There are fears that only frighten when the soul is bound
And only a single fear could always make her drown

There are dreams that only dream of the dark called death
But only a single tear will echo her life long debt
There are songs only sung when one draws their last breath
And then a single weeping child is all that is left

If I can stop one heart from breaking
I shall not live in vain.
For the heart asks pleasure first
And then excuse from pain.

I like a look of agony because I know its true.
It says I am nobody, who are you?
Its says I am a poor torn heart,
A tattered heart.

Poor little heart! Did they forget thee?
Proud little heart! Did they forsake thee?
Frail little heart! I will not break thee.

Not with a club the heart is broken,
Nor with a stone-
Its love that deals one imperial thunderbolt
That scalps your naked soul

Body twist, watch me close
Heartbeat thump,  don't let me go
Pressed together, move with me
Sway in rhythm, not an inch between

Hard benethe, but gentle fingers
Trace my body, the feeling lingers
Grinding harder, make me wet
Pick me up, no hesitation left

Face only a breath away
A kiss is all I have left to say
Body heaving, do what you must
Blood coursing, on fire with lust

Time stopped, she saw his touch
Heart broken, she left in a rush
Her tears falling, stealling the passion
Please don't touch me temptation

Bodies swaying
Music pounding
His body pressed to mine
I knew it was wrong
I had a girl
But I couldn't seem to stop
I couldn't stand
He sat down next to me
Leaning up against him
Muscles tensing at my touch
I look up
His face was so close
A mere 2 inches
He took my breath away
He laughed
And it was perfect
Soft yet deep
My heart was beating so fast
I looked up again
Our lips almost met
And then she came
But this time
When she kissed me
She didn't take my breath away

He laughs with his friends
Just joking around
I can't take my eyes off him
Occationally our eyes meet
But I quickly lower my eyes
Afraid he will see my longing
I wonder if he really sees me
I wonder if he would care.
At night I imagine
What it would be like to hold him
What do his lips feel like
But of course just like since 8th grade
My dreams are just dreams
Across the room is farther
Than across the world
And thats the closest I will be to him

A picture is worth a thousand words
All captured in her smile
Words whispered in love
And the words shouted when she left

Your picture is still on my wall
The one of our first kiss
Everything was so perfect
How could I forget

Your words in the letters you gave me
Are safely hidden away
But even if they were lost
Your words would still be here

A picture's worth a thousand words
A thousand broken hearts
A thousand lost dreams
A thousand words I wish I had said before you left

Sapphire horizon along the dark green trees
Diamonds in the sky above the world, above me
The music of night, the rustle of leaves
A chill in the air a bite in the breeze

Tendrils of a cold shadow creep across the sky
Warning the innocent creatures, its time to hide
A wisp of wind whispers, silence has fallen
The warmth that was there has been stolen

Darkness gathers till there’s no light in the sky
The brilliant stars of before seem to be a lie
The clouds lie ominous, too close to the ground
The cold rays of the moon aren't to be found

A storm on the wind coming fast to the hills
Bringing lightning and rain with a power that kills
Echoing off the mountain to the valley below
The rumble of thunder signals the coming blow

A tremor of the tempest spreads through the night
The wind whirls stronger daring me to fight
I wait in silence for the first strike to land
Rage of the light turns the mountains into sand

My feeble cries are lost in a surge of sound
The wind is screaming, the thunder too loud
The rain is pouring down like my ****** red tears
Heart wrenching tears I've been crying for years

The wind is wailing songs of forgotten souls
From the tallest steeple the death bell tolls
In this nightmare no waking, I fear I can't escape
The light in the distance may come too late

The thunder is pounding against my breaking core
Fighting to stand but I can stand no more
Excruciating cries formed from never ending lies
Join the pandemonium in the tormented skies

Power all around me, force me to my knees
Burn me, **** me, cut me, when no one seems to see
My salty tears sear the wounds I bear
Mind and body shattered there's no rainbow here

No sun is shining on my beaten brow
No love is given to my broken heart now
I'm barely breathing, my heart is slow
I'm falling to blackness,
                         I don't have to though.

I can stand like before, not fall to my knees
I can love the storm that tried to break me
I can believe in the hope that sheds the light
And I can brave the storm winds of life

Women sit on the laps of drunken men
Each man has claimed his *****
Only one man sits alone
Nursing a bottle of Jack

His eyes downcast and shadowed
Are filled with fire and doubt
A fire that burns sharp and bitter
Much like the liquor in his mouth

Woodsmoke covers the sweet smells
Of *** and Black and Milds
As all fly higher, they care less and less
The energy becomes primal and wild

Slowly they separate in groups of two
Each pair to find a tent of their own
The clearing empties, the fire dies down
And only one man is left alone

Precariously perched pidgons
Coo with cautious curiousity
Wondering why we wander
On faltering feet rather than fly

Just  little ditty
A quiet play on words
Just little rhythms and rhymes
That are fun to be heard

A summer breeze a cricket sings
The tree's leaves rustle softly
A gentle hint of a birds coo
A melody so beautiful to me

To walk through the tall grass
Sun shining warm on my back
Bare feet making no sound
Freedom only breathes in these moments

The smell of rough earth
Mingles with the perfume of the rose
And gentle hints of crushed grass
The essense of my home

I get lost in my love
I hear a quiet melody
That turns to my own symphony
My feet move on their own
I spin, I fall, I laugh
Spirit soaring
Into the clouds

No sleep for the weary
No rest for my soul
For the nightmares come to haunt

Everything known and unknown
The love that I lost
The shadows of her past
All the fears she was hiding
I took on as my own
Now they plague my dreams

No sleep for the dreamers
No rest for the broken
For the nightmares come to haunt.

My hat over my head
When they picked the first notes
A dancing little melody
Strung over two guitars
Just a simple jig I guess

I lifted my head a little
When the first voice sang
A young country cowboy
Made my heart twitter
Just a skip I guess

I sat up in my seat
When that second voice sang
A dark country twang
I said for him,
I'd move out west

Smells intoxicating
When you open the skin
To the juicy citrus center
And what lies within
A zest on your fingers
And under your nails
Leaving you with a memory
Of the orange peels

A whisper of a memory
Of a song I use to hear
Is drifting, shifting, echoing
To invoke a single tear

A hint of that lonely melody
Of a hidden crying coo
Is sighing, dying, knowing
The end will come too soon

A breath of a last note
Of a final empty dream
Is fading, greying, leaving
Only a single silent scream

There is a place for me
Somewhere beyond my mind
Or maybe within my mind
Somewhere just for me

A place to cry
When my heart needs to most
A place to hide
From a world of pain

Somewhere to think
About the worlds mysteries
Somewhere I dont have to smile
When I'm not happy
Somewhere open
For when I'm yearning to be free

A place of beauty
A place of dreams
Somewhere there is a place
Just for me

What happened to that
Good ole fashion love story
We wrote so long ago
In tears and fears
And long blue jeans
And "babe, I love you so"

So what if you love me
I returned to you
For much to long ago
I brought a bucket for tears
A bunny for fears
And "babe, I love you too"

Lets go back
And write our story again
Ole fashion and beautiful
With smiles and laughs
And long blue jeans
And "babe, won't you marry me."

It's weird
How the one
That made me laugh
Made me cry.
The beauty
That made my true self
Come out
Made me hide
Even deeper.
The wonder
That made me feel loved
Made me feel
Hated.

It's weird
How painful it is
That the one I loved
Left me forever

Who am I
But a nightmare
Who tries to be an angel, I am
A shadow that only
Lives alone

Who am I
But a whisper
That makes no sound, I am
An echo with no words
Of its own

Who am I
But a thorn
That wishes it were a rose, I am
A thistle in a field
Of dandelions

Who am I
But a sharp note
That could be beautiful, I am
A note a note that makes
A minor chord

Who Am I?

                 *I am Me

Red, pink, gold or blue
I know not what to do
I just think of you
And your roses too

They comfort me when I'm alone
A wonderful colorful home.
A hope for happiness never known
Till I called you my own

I had wandered through the night
Never daring to fight
But your roses filled with light
Scare away my fright

The wind whispers
To the soft supple trees
Speaking of the beauty
When the robin sings

The wind whispers
To the smooth rippling stream
Speaking of the mystery
When nature sweetly sings

Nature whispers
And it turns to radiant song
In this, a lost soul
Finds where it belongs

Beautiful yet deadly
Though you would never know
You're high above reality
The colors seem to glow

The beauty of the rose
Disguises the harming thorns
Don't tempt the fatal cost
For a moment away from scorn

Your life will fade away
No future left for you
You followed a crooked path
Now only death is in veiw

No light to return to
No breath will pass your lips
You are standing above nothing
To die, you only have to slip

The chips are down
There's no turning back
We take what we are given
Unsure how to act
A bible in one hand
Whiskey in the other
We follow our hearts
No worse than down under
Our life is too short
To worry bout the next
Your fate is your own
Your life no mortal test
In innocent assurance
You'll do the right thing
And finally walk down
That deserted, waiting street

Roses fallen
Petals strewn
Destruction yet beauty
Red stark
Against the white tile
Like blood
Fallen from my heart
Falen from my wrist
Fallen from my mind
Like tears
Fallen from my eyes
Fallen from my pain

A body fallen
Limbs strewn
Destruction yet beauty
Red stark against the snow
                    Fallin’

Where's Waldo?
I'm Waldo.
Hidden in the crowd
Silenced by the sound
I look like all the others
I speak like all the others
But even when I scream so loud
I can't be found

Where's Waldo?
I'm Waldo.
Do you see me now?
Do you hear me somehow?
I look like all the others
I speak like all the others
But even when I stand proud
I can't be found

Where's Waldo?
I'm Waldo.
Can you see my tears?
Can you hear my fears?
I look like all the others
I speak like all the others
But even when they look around
I can't be found

Where's Waldo?
I'm Waldo.
Hidden by the night.
Silenced by my fright.
I look like all the others
I speak like all the others
But even in the light
I won't be found

Dreams are crushed by a cold blank stare
She fell to the ground
Of death not even aware

She stepped in front as the bullet sped
And yet my life
Was barely spared

Broken hearted I fell to my knees
Life in turmoil
I didn't want to see

The dark red blood mixed with my tears
I heard her last breath
Confirming my fears

I stood by her as the killers came near
They took my life
My blood seared

I fell beside her as life faded from my eyes
I took her hand
As I died

Beautiful darkness encloses once more
The smallest sound echoes, my tears falling to the floor
The shadows hide me from my fear of the light
And my tears show silver in the absense of my fright

The day wears on as the sun moves across the skies
Soon the night will come to silence all the lies
I only wish the day was shorter than my loving night
I seem to only live when the moon gives me life

I'm lost in my thoughts so I son't see the shadows fade
The sun sun has crept his way to the safety that I made
I look up in fright as the light shines in my eyes
But I don't melt or burn, nor do I feel myself die

Odd I think, that it doesn't steal my soul
In fact I think its warmth has made my spirit whole
I leave the whispers that sung only shadowed words
Because when I step into the light I feel music I've never heard

A fire burns inside my soul
Searing away the pain
Your body pulled close to me
Your hands keep me there
Heat and passion fill my heart
Never letting go

But you left and took my heart
I thought it would return
The pain I kept, the love I lost
Off the edge of the world
I step

Longing to feel your love
Wanting you for myelf
Feeling your arms around me again
Your lips I long to touch

Far away my heart is happy
Very far away
So close am I to your sweet touch
But so far away...

Is love

I miss you
I mis your eyes
You know the ones
I want to stare at forever
I miss your smile
You know the one
That I cant forget
That always made me smile
I miss your voice
You know the one
That made me swoon
That made me feel safe
That made me happy
I miss you laugh
You know the one
That made me laugh too
But most of all
                         I miss you...

I talked to her last night
As if she was here with me
I cried for her last night
As if she could see my tears

I whispered to her last night
As if she would respond
I sang to her last night
As if she could hear my song

I wrote for her last night
As if she would see those words
I said sorry to her last night
As if she had never been hurt

I dreamt of her last night
As if dreams ever come true
I loved her last night
As if she loved me too

Are you  crying little angel?
While the day turns to night.
Are you sighing little angel?
As the stars begin to light

Is your heart broken little angel?
Because love left you behind
Is your heart looking little angel?
For the love you want to find

Are you bleeding little angel?
From the cut that cut too deep
Are you weeping little angel?
When you fall to eternal sleep

Is he waiting little angel?
When you get to the golden gates
Is he smiling little angel?
When you look upon his face

Are you happy little angel?
When you get your silver wings
You are free little angel
When your soul finally sings

Is it beatiful little angel?
In that paradise above
You have found it little angel
That everlasting love

Although I cry, I am not sad
Tis merely rain falling
From a twisted tormented tempest

Although I laugh, I am not happy
Tis merely the sound
Of fate's endless humor

Although I try, I fail to succeed
Life is a chaos of questions
With the answers unseen

Although I live, my heart doesn't beat
Tis merel the sound
Of the bird's rat-ti-tat-tat

Although I sing, my voice makes not a whisper
Tis merely the wind
Singing to nature

Although I speak, I do not say
But my tears are uttering
The words dark as night

My heart mutters softly
The secrets of time
Madness and mystery
No reason or rhyme

The dawn greets me brightly
With fire in the skies
The glint of sword in hand
Reflects the world in my eyes

Fear and death lie ominous
In a vast nefarious abyss
Seeking the sinister sovereignty
Of love's fatal kiss

Crystal notes calmly cascade
Through the tragic tempest of greif
Sung by the spirit of the eagle's cry
Whispering the harmonies of belief

Blue and green
A salty sea
The waves drawn
By the moon above me

The stars reflect
Like crystals on cloth
Drops of fire
Fallen on the water

Dreams cascade
Like a waterfall, down
To rest on the shore
At the start of the dawn

I still lie awake
To watch the sun rise
The sleep in the sand
My mind in the skies

These sightless eyes, they burn with tears
The tears of forgotten souls
A once future pain, now in my heart
Sears agony untold

The shadows draw closer, closer to me
In an attempt to break my hold
My grasp on humanity, on life, on love
Grows weary cold and old

Falling slowly down to hell
The hell I created
I lose myself, my life, my love
To the one I never hated

Lost, ancient, forgotten love
Fights for what I lost
Never alone like never before
I will win no matter the cost

The waves call me softly
Like the echoes of a song I heard
The sun falls in fire
Flaming my whispered words
Goodbye is spoken slowly
To the quickly fading light
Her face is softly showing
In the shadows of the night

My eyes fill with unshed tears
As I watch the stars appear
My heart says goodbye
Yet I still wish that she was here
A scar made in an instant
As a star shoots across the sky
The blood flowing, sickening
As my mind says its last goodbye

I left her with a broken heart in tow
I said to her "no longer
Are you mine to call my own."

The fires burning bright
In the devil's haunted halls
The souls too weak to fight
His clever deadly calls

His leering smile is waiting
At the gates of hell for you
Your resolve is slowly fading
You believed the lie was true

You see the death too late
No time to run away
Turn around and face your fate
There is nothing left to say

You have become the fatal slave
Of the midnight shadow dance
The fire burns you in your grave
You gave up your final chance

Just for a minute
Could you let me see
See all the things
I wish I could see

Just for a minute
Could you let me think
That you think about me
And all I wish we could be

I just wanna know
If you ever wish
That you could hold me close
Or give me a kiss

I just wanna know
If you look at me
And see all the things
I wish we could be