Palembang, 27 Maret 2017

Aku lupa bagaimana rasanya jatuh cinta
Jatuh cinta pada seorang Pria

Palembang, 29 September 2010


Thanks Grand Ma for taking care of me
Thanks for the time you've spent just for me
Thanks for many advises you said
Thanks for everything in my short 15th/18th years
I Love You Grand Ma

And sorry for what I've done wrong
Sorry I made mistakes many time
Sorry I'm still a little girl in the room
Sorry for hard to say I Love You
Sorry for hurt that you've got
Cause I just don't know what to do

Wish, I could give you the bestest
To make you proud and smile for me
We know nothing is impossible
And I believing my self, Someday
I'll give you everything you need
Love Ya Grand Ma...

(Now you are not around anymore
You are the shining star above
Your body so fragile now
But your soul is lives in our hearts
Sorry for made you cry
Sorry if your husband, your children and your grandchildren made you sad before you leave
Sorry is the last thing that we could do
But we'll never stop to say "I LOVE YOU"

Rest In Peace Nana

Palembang, 27 Maret 2017

aku menyendiri,
bukan karena ku tak memiliki teman
tetapi aku mundur perlahan dari pertemanan

aku mengunci diri di kamar,
bukan karena aku tak memiliki tempat tuk dituju
tetapi aku berharap kelak ada yang menemukanku

aku menenggelamkan jiwa ke relung alam sadar paling dalam,
bukan untuk berlari dari kenyataan
tetapi untuk menemukan jawaban

Palembang, 19 April 2012

A long ago ...
I see beautiful person on screen
Friendly smile, hazel green eyed
As I saw you since that day, I want to see you any longer
Everyday, I see you, with or without turn on the screen
I paced back and forth and smiling
It was felt like I lose my brain
I can't think anything, anyone but you
I went home from school to turn on the screen, to see you
You are the shadow whom I hug when night fall
And you are the first thought in the morning when I woke
Happily I declared to the world, that I am falling for you


Right now ...
I wanna cry, remember those faces
Face of you and her are spinning around my head
I can't forget that smiles for the rest of my life
As I paced back and forth all this time, I couldn't understood
How can I falling for you?
You are someone I don't know anything about
You are like a strangers came to my life, forcibly grabbed my heart, without you knowing it
How dare I save this love only for you? Without sharing with others?


In another day I could see
She look so beautiful in White, pink roses are in her hands
As you looking in her eyes so deep, she smiling on you
People thinking that you both are matching bride, and hoping all best for you both
Somewhere far far away I only can see the bride standing in front of you
She thank God for a man she had now


For forever and all the questions
When can I claim you as mine?
When can I say that I'm exist because of you?
When can I say that I'm where you belong?
When can I listen the vow you made for me?
When can I stop this hurt feelings?
I wanna cry but I couldn't
I wanna smile but I'm so hurt
I wanna laugh but it's so painful
I stop doing anything, I'm not focus
Too busy with this feelings

I lose my faith.
When I see the world is larger than I imagine.
Live in this world so wild.
And never thought about good things but lies.
Pretending to be a good person is really we are.
And even the right thing truly done by us.
I could run from the reality behind.
But I couldn't hide from tomorrow will comes.
Acting so wrong to a person.
An apology is just not enough.
Only an anger left in hearts.

I lose my faith.
When I grew up and found how strange life is.
Good people, bad people seems no different.
Cheat and lie has never been failed.
Boys, girls, no this is not about gender.
Expensive, cheap, no this is not about the price.
Good, wrong, bad, this is about the truth.

I shouldn't have lose my faith.
If I don't want to live so wrong.
I shouldn't have never ever lose my faith.
If I still alive, I'll always remember that I live in the strangest world on planet.
God will never leave me alone.

Palembang,19 Januari 2014

Life is so short
Life is so hard
So when you fell down
Do not ever give up
Trying hard to stand again
If you believe in Allah SWT
You will got it easily
Life must goes on and on
And on
Struggle for a better life

"Be strong, me"

Palembang, 2 Juni 2013

Bukankah hidup itu sulit?
Sulit untuk melupakan,
sulit tuk memaafkan

Bukankah hidup itu sulit?
Sulit untuk memulai,
Sulit tuk menilai

You are the STAR.
I can only see you from far.
I can only call you from deep inside.
I can only feel you in my heart.
I can only admire you...
But
I can't have you in my life.

Semalam aku terjun dari ketinggian 13.000 kaki dari permukaan laut
Menembus awan dan menantang angin
Lalu aku terjatuh ke dalam samudera, jatuh sangat keras
Aku menangis, tapi mati rasa

Pagi ini aku menyelami segitiga bermuda
Tak tahu arah
Tersesat
Aku menangis, tapi tak bersuara

Happy Birthday to me!

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