Someday it'll happen...
When you wish upon a star...
11:11...
I wish I may I wish I might...
Birthday wishes come true...right?

Each time I wish for the same thing.
I need that lovely dream that will bring Happiness and wholeness.
Be my chance, be my break.
And please don't be too long and take
My hopes away.
Run to me, dash my way,
And when you do I hope you'll stay.
Leave your mark upon my soul.
Let your wonder take its toll.
I wish I may I wish I might,
Breath life into my dream tonight.

Isn't she wonderful?
With her dark round eyes, and her painted on smile?
Wearing her heart on her sleeve like a medal she's proud of.
A medal she's earned through battles and pain,
A medal that, though tarnished, bears her name.

What lurks behind that war paint on her face?
What feelings and emotions are masked with each
Brush stroke of blush and layer of mascara?
Is this warrior woman real?
Or a figment of her own imagination,
Fearlessly showing the world that she is strong
Enough to hide herself behind a facade?

When each day she gets up and garbs her skin
Does she know that the world will see her as complete?
A being that couldn't possibly be hurting on the inside.
A person who always has a smile on her face,
And joy filling her heart.
But what happens when the doors close?
When the makeup comes off and the close shed?
Is the heart on her sleeve still stitched to her skin?
Or does she shed it like the rest of her armor?

What does a warrior look like alone in her room?

Snip goes my heartstrings,
You cut them with your lies.
I didn't think you'd be the one
To cut me down to size.
You made me feel so small and lost,
Like I was nothing, worthless, used.
You took my love and poisoned it,
My heart has been abused.
Do you feel better about yourself
Now that I feel so wrong?
Was that your goal all this while
To bleed me to make you strong?
You still don't know just what you did
To my heart, my mind, my soul.
You lifted me up, then shot me down,
Your presence took its toll.
Now it's anger that I feel
When you avoid looking my way,
Because you'll never know or care to guess
At all I have to say.

You cut off my senses.
When you embraced me, I smelt nothing through my bliss.
Now that the bliss is gone I smell your real scent; smoke and lies.
When I saw you, all I saw was happiness and maybe even love.
But now I see this pitiful person, who'd rather be false and unfaithful then be actually happy.
When you kissed me all I could taste was tenderness and something bittersweet and new.
Now, now those kisses are scarred in my memory. They truly tasted of cigarettes and manipulation.
When I heard your raspy voice, I got excited, with goosebumps all over my body.
Now those goosebumps have turned to a cold feeling of dread, because I hear you're around.
You made my senses dull, and pulled a shade over my common sense.
When I saw, heard, touched,  tasted, and smelled you, I wasn't really doing any of that.
You are a facade  of a person to the world, showing people what you think they want,
In order to get what you want.
You got me in so many ways, but thankfully not in the most important.

Breathe in, then breathe out again.
There's nothing that you could have done.
Now you know he's not the one.

Can't separate, so you can't hate.
The two are one in the same.
What you learned, you realized too late.
Now you feel different when you hear his name.

Tortured heart, and twisted mind.
The two don't go together.
To save the pieces of your shattered heart.
You have to leave him forever.

Flashes still come, from a long lost time,
When things were good and real.
But no matter how things used to be,
They can't change how you feel.

Day by day you start to feel much stronger,
You fight the visions and memories.
Another person will come along
Til then your pain will never truly ease

Don't worry about me.
I'll find my dream,
In my own time,
At my own pace.
Don't dwell on it.
I can muddle through,
Search where I want,
Find my own place.

I can figure things out,
Don't doubt me and my abilities.
It's the love for that dream that keeps me sane.
Gives me the strength to journey on.
I can handle things alone.
Don't think I can't choose.
It's my gift of balance that drives me.
Gives me the wisdom to decipher right from wrong.

Pinky Promise.
I'll stop if I think I've gone too far.
You know me,
I can see when something doesn't fit.
Cross My Heart.
I'll give it up if it isn't right.
But I have to fight,
To take the leap and go for it.

Hallelujahs have turned.
Day into endless night.
Memories have spoiled.
Rid me of your sight.

Save me from this nightmare.
This thundercloud above.
I can't escape this anguish.
Still feel the aches of love.

Sad poems flow right through me.
They're like this bad disease.
They all reek of loneliness.
Though I write them with such ease.

Perhaps I am just waiting.
For someone new to come.
But until they show their face to me.
These saddened words will numb.