It takes
hate to appreciate love
absence to gratify presence
pain to embrace solace
& tears to enjoy the laughter

my bones play a beat
soft echos from the body speak
your skin plays a lie
soft secrets form an alibi.
i’m sinking now.
hold on to ground.
beneath it she moves
to softly make a sound.
-
hold on. she cries.
soft secrets and quiet lies.
taking my time
taking my time.

Her raspberry lips pressed
tightly against mine
And I wondered if she’d stay
locked like this.
Uncertainty bellows out
from a cavern within.
I am but alone now
I was alone then.

My hands are shaking
And my nerves are shot
My whole body is quaking
And my heart's in a knot.
I need a quick release,
For some dopamine to flow.
I need to make some peace
And I needed it long ago.
So now I'm just blowing smoke,
Lips wrapped around a cigarette.
I'm out here going broke
But I feel no regret.
I'm spending all I got
Burning through packs.
I'm so **** distraught
And I just can't relax
Till the nicotine kicks in
And the smoke pours out.
I keep on giving in
Cause I just can't do without.