the illusion broke, shards of glass,
when i realize how fast the time passed
time and me we both flew by
a little too high
right now
can feel the sun burn
tried to reach for a star
when i noticed
the illusion broke
shards of the sky
fell through my hands
and i, with it

this is way too much to handle
i got other problems to scramble through
other issues
but instead i lay in bed all day
craving your attention
thinking its over too
even tho i saw you yesterday
we talked all things through
scared of being left
got me paralyzed
wonder what breaking up will bring me to

pressure so heavy
my pen broke

the record spins and spins
a spiraling hellhole

the snake eats its tail
eats itself
it reveals the self
gotta pay a high toll though

to see through the soul
the door
i got the key
but cant find the keyhole

need to pay a part from me
so far as my eyes can see
no **** left
than the irony

dilated pupils
so big they cover the mirror
it shattered to pieces
i grab it
my hand bleeds
i feel it
i dont know what i feel
i dont know what i look like
leaning against the wall
i feel the world
some call it life
when that feeling stops
i know that i am not

i wouldn‘t have thought
i‘d think this about you
but I wanna just
skip this part
win the start
maybe not
feel the spark
I wanna get closer
but I‘m too close to you
can I maybe, feel more warmth?
honestly
somewhere between trust and honesty
I don‘t wanna get closed off
shut down
feel the cold

everything was already written
the book already finished
no hopes nor wishes
the road already paved
the way already walked
the clock keeps ticking and ticking
no beginning nor end
its already finished

one bullet
free from thoughts that pull it
please just let me sleep
paranoia that makes me weep
one cut, one rope, one bullet
all the things gone
that make me wanna do it