This world we are living
This world where we exist
This roller coaster world
This world..... this world is scrary place.

And I wish I can tell you these:

Opening up to each other is one of the bestest way to keep a relationship strong.
I want you to tell me everything, how's your day going, if you're annoyed, if you're tired, if you wanna sleep with me, if you want me to be there at 12am or 3am. If you can't sleep at night, if you need a shoulder to lean on and a shirt to cry on, if you wanna talk about life and how you love coffee so much, talk about how your vape means a lot to you, if you want to shop, if you want to kiss me, if you wanna go somewhere, if you wanna have star gazing, paintball or even boxing, tell me how much you love basketball so much and how good you are in cooking. Tell me about your past, your life. Tell me your dream house, how many kids you want to have, your dream wedding and who's going to be your best man. I'm your best friend, girlfriend, sister, workmate and buddy in everything. Tell me everything you want me to know, what you wanna do or your plans, I will listen, I will stay with you even if you tell me how bad you are, I will be who I am as your gf even with your flaws and imperfections. I will always be here for you, I don't mind staying silent the whole time you talk, as long as you tell me you enjoyed my company. You know, I'm sure you know you mean everything to me. And how thankful I an to God, for giving me the happiness I deserve, YOU.

How come looking at you hurts every inch of me?
How come the thought of you means losing myself?
How come being with you means I'm  ready to take every sacrifices?
How come calling you my love gives me a little heartbreak?
How come looking at all the people you used to like, who likes you and went out with became my insecurity?
How come your words gives shiver to my soul?
How come my negative thoughts gives me nothing but doubts?
How come trust doesn't exist anymore?
How come falling inlove with you means nothing but a very beautiful mistake?
How come the thought of losing you kills  every piece of my soul?
How come I can't live without you?

Sad truth is, we expect too much from someone.

We expect them to be like those guys on instagram.
We expect them to treat us like babies
We expect them to love us with all their hearts
We expect them to take care of us like how we take care of them
We expect too much, and that's what hurts the most.
We expect a lot from people even though we know in the end we will only end up hurting ourselves
Even though in the first place we know we shouldn't.

But that's just how life and love works, if you expect too much, you get hurt and you always get disappointed.

That's how it works, we need to deal and get used to it.

Maybe, they're right. Maybe, I was wrong. Maybe loving you is like explaining to everyone what water taste like. Maybe, being in love with you is a trap. But with all the maybe's, in this roller coaster world, you are the only thing that's right.