You can call me a *****
But im still not a witch
Watching as you see
Me walking down the street
With my hands on my board
And on my man
Watching the world go by
So ill say again go for it
Cat call
Call me anything you may
But ill stand tall
With my head up
As i walk on by.

Im sad
Upset
Mad
Depressed
       You ask why
Why becase
Im in foster care
Meaning i go by there rules
    Even tho i did nothing wrong
Why do i get puneshed
When its my mom who did the wrong
Iv been the good kid
Iv done my part
So why
Im almost 18 here in september
But will i get to be like the rest
No most likely not
Itll be diffrent
I want to go camping
Can i
Probibly not
Im done with this
Foster kid crap
I wanna be normal

I lay here
  In your shirt
Realizing
     Iv fallen hard for you
Thinking of what we've done
     And the outcomes
That could be
      Good thing i have that collection
I started a while back
     Tiny clothing and blankets
Saved in a box
     Now ill wait for the miunthly arrival
  The stuff the shade if red
But will it come I'm really undure.

This might sound rude
    But right now im not in the mood
Listening to little kids as a mother sings her babys to sleep
     Talking to my boy as hes sayen hes about to leave
   Im just sayen im not in the best mood
My body isent funtioning in the way id like
And id rather not be sober on this ok night
   Id rather be doing something
    Somthing other then miss you
My father
    Your name
Well thats easy its chad
Your postion
Was a father
A husband
A listener
A provider
And the best part of chad
You made the choice to love and take care of me when you dident have to
    You wer a great dad
And i miss you dearly
You were the best person iv ever known
    My hart longs for you
        Chad
I had just started calling you dad
The day you passed
All o wanted was for you to stay home
To ride bikes with me but insted you had to work
   You had to leave
My daddy i miss you  
I just wanna hear your voice

Society
    Its a joke
With woman walking around
  Half naked
Were did the modesty go
   When we got guys attention
Not by are body but by our mind?
      What happened to the gentlemen
Who held the door open wether it be a car or a house
      Girls....
Do you really enjoy being used
    Because last time i checked
I know i dont
    Guys....
Do you really enjoy lusting over multiple girls and I'm bi so i can say thats something i still cant get my head around
      What happened to dedication
To a society that cared
       When people helped people
When we understood a hard time
       Were did that all go  
Its as if a plug ha been pulled
     And every one brain washed
As if no one can realize that the true you
    Is better then that you walking around
    With a mask one saying yea im ok
But are  you really ok
      Or do you go home an cry yourself to sleep
  Or wonder why this has happened to you?  
        Lets fix this world
Put it back how it was were girls were covered
And guys were nice
      And were we all helped eachother
Instead of pretending like we dont exist at all
    Lets stop ignoring the problems <3
And start facing them now.

We live a life were..
   Kids are distracted from crying by phones
      A little kid knows the moms password be for he can speak
  Were kids instead of going outside
We'll they'd rather stay in,
     Playing on Facebook or Twitter
Whatever that is.
And I'll admit I spend some of my time
   On my Facebook doing nothing
But scrolling down.
Being board
     When we all could go out and bike
Or skate, or take a walk
     When instead of useing our phones
Witch is a trapped society in its own
    We could ask a stranger for directions
   We could use what god has given us
It's called speech and our hands
  Use the words you know
Or the hands to sign.
Put the phone and the laptops down
   Take in the relization
That there's a world to be descoverd
Look at the sky and listen to the birds  
   Not saying musice is bad becase I'm **** to say it's something I love
   But putting it aside the other day
I relized just how much I missed..
Just being out side.
Yea......
This is our society
We can always change it
     But not unless we want to
So instead of haveing your musice in
Or being on Facebook
Or twitter or other media sites
Go be with a Frieand
Go for a walk and talk
Like when you were 10
Playing out side on the playground
Amazing your never to old for that :)
   Don't listen to the haters
Belive in what you want and go have a good time with some Frieands
I know our parents always Say stranger danger
     But howed you get to know the kids you call friends now?
Good luck out there and smile tomorrow's a new day it isent over.

Upset, confused, annoyed yea a little you say you don't know what your doing wrong
              Can I have a flash back to a better time
       We're we got along and we didn't fight
           We're you cared to ask me what was wrong
    Now in present time I stand alone in the dark not knowing if or when I'll fall next
             When I do fall were will you be will you be with me trying to hold me up
      Probably not
So next time you ask  what your doing wrong
        Take a second and think about it
   For once awnser your self
Falling isn't so bad when your use to it
    Climbing back up is just half the battle.

My voice
   My thoughts
       My questions
     And my dreams
They all seem to be invisible
        Why you ask?
Because I can be in the middle of a room
And no one will realize I'm there
     As if I am a ghost
I am invisible
As if people never truly realize I'm alive.
   A beating hart
Blood flowing throw me
   A human, just as you
But instead of getting treated like one
  This girl right here
  Gets pushed to the ground
One stomp, two stomp, three stomp done
It's like a game to see how long I can last
   Will she breach this time
Or will she keep her head up
And continue walking.
Life is a joke for example
       Today's image of a true beautiful woman
It's a joke, thin fair skin no marks and fake *****
We're is the truth in that
Were is the truth in when we lie
  When we pretend to be someone were not?
So lady's and gentleman I highly encourage you to stand up be your self even if it means getting ignored
Don't let your self be a clown.

It's 1:11
  I still haven't gone to sleep
Thoughts going Thro my mind
As if its a ride
     As I look at the time I think
I should be asleep
    But thin the thoughts
They come right back
Like sleep you don't need that
     It's kinda cheep
They say time is $
But I say time is memory
    Looking at my little brothers
All I could think is...
That's a good age to have
Nothing to be scared of
To not see how cruel the world really is
I have to say I miss that stage
     Were I was able to be load
And make messes
Magically be put in my bed
    Or were the tooth fair was real
Santa claws too
Now it's just a thing
     I go along with
Hoping it'll last as long as it can
Because these are the good days
   We're imagination runs wild
And being you isn't hard <3

Be yourself always
~Emo kitty~