I lay here
  In your shirt
Realizing
     Iv fallen hard for you
Thinking of what we've done
     And the outcomes
That could be
      Good thing i have that collection
I started a while back
     Tiny clothing and blankets
Saved in a box
     Now ill wait for the miunthly arrival
  The stuff the shade if red
But will it come I'm really undure.

You can call me a *****
But im still not a witch
Watching as you see
Me walking down the street
With my hands on my board
And on my man
Watching the world go by
So ill say again go for it
Cat call
Call me anything you may
But ill stand tall
With my head up
As i walk on by.

Im sad
Upset
Mad
Depressed
       You ask why
Why becase
Im in foster care
Meaning i go by there rules
    Even tho i did nothing wrong
Why do i get puneshed
When its my mom who did the wrong
Iv been the good kid
Iv done my part
So why
Im almost 18 here in september
But will i get to be like the rest
No most likely not
Itll be diffrent
I want to go camping
Can i
Probibly not
Im done with this
Foster kid crap
I wanna be normal

This might sound rude
    But right now im not in the mood
Listening to little kids as a mother sings her babys to sleep
     Talking to my boy as hes sayen hes about to leave
   Im just sayen im not in the best mood
My body isent funtioning in the way id like
And id rather not be sober on this ok night
   Id rather be doing something
    Somthing other then miss you
My father
    Your name
Well thats easy its chad
Your postion
Was a father
A husband
A listener
A provider
And the best part of chad
You made the choice to love and take care of me when you dident have to
    You wer a great dad
And i miss you dearly
You were the best person iv ever known
    My hart longs for you
        Chad
I had just started calling you dad
The day you passed
All o wanted was for you to stay home
To ride bikes with me but insted you had to work
   You had to leave
My daddy i miss you  
I just wanna hear your voice

Society
    Its a joke
With woman walking around
  Half naked
Were did the modesty go
   When we got guys attention
Not by are body but by our mind?
      What happened to the gentlemen
Who held the door open wether it be a car or a house
      Girls....
Do you really enjoy being used
    Because last time i checked
I know i dont
    Guys....
Do you really enjoy lusting over multiple girls and I'm bi so i can say thats something i still cant get my head around
      What happened to dedication
To a society that cared
       When people helped people
When we understood a hard time
       Were did that all go  
Its as if a plug ha been pulled
     And every one brain washed
As if no one can realize that the true you
    Is better then that you walking around
    With a mask one saying yea im ok
But are  you really ok
      Or do you go home an cry yourself to sleep
  Or wonder why this has happened to you?  
        Lets fix this world
Put it back how it was were girls were covered
And guys were nice
      And were we all helped eachother
Instead of pretending like we dont exist at all
    Lets stop ignoring the problems <3
And start facing them now.

It's 1:11
  I still haven't gone to sleep
Thoughts going Thro my mind
As if its a ride
     As I look at the time I think
I should be asleep
    But thin the thoughts
They come right back
Like sleep you don't need that
     It's kinda cheep
They say time is $
But I say time is memory
    Looking at my little brothers
All I could think is...
That's a good age to have
Nothing to be scared of
To not see how cruel the world really is
I have to say I miss that stage
     Were I was able to be load
And make messes
Magically be put in my bed
    Or were the tooth fair was real
Santa claws too
Now it's just a thing
     I go along with
Hoping it'll last as long as it can
Because these are the good days
   We're imagination runs wild
And being you isn't hard <3

Be yourself always
~Emo kitty~