I smoke my cigarettes
like I want to die
I keep my secrets
buried in my spine
your name still falls from my lips
I can't eclipse it
I can't eclipse it
people ask questions
what can I say
I'm okay ay ay
empty bed
cold sheets
nobody laying next to me
restless dreams
torn seams
from all the love I have
leaking away
if you want my thoughts
crawl through my ears
before I disappear

I've taken falls for all the wrong people
I've broken walls but there is no equal
to tearing down my own
to tearing down my own

I left Barnes and Noble in tears
when the words swam through the in store speakers
through my ears,
into my skull
to my heart, and opened
the box in my soul labeled
Things I never told my dad before he left.
I was with him at the last bus stop
There in that cozy white room where
All that was left was to wait.
If I closed my eyes
I could imagine the sound of
An idling engine waiting
I could almost see
An impatient  agelict cabbie
Fussing over the meter.
I don’t know suzzane
Nor what plans put an end to her,
But I know what it means
To hide in the hulking fuselage
Of the dream you thought
Would fly you to where
you wanted to be.
And I know how it feels
When the veil is taken down
And you think of
all the times
You didn’t say
I love you.

To be alone is not so tragic,
to be alone, and yet at peace is magic
but oh to be alone with you
That my love is magic meant for two,
For in this life are many troubles,
we both have more than just a few
but when I see the love that lies behind your eyes
My troubles fade from view
And my world is born anew.