Emma S

Emma S Nov 2013

Someone will love you, I promise. Maybe.

You didn't cut my skin
I did
You didn't tell me that I'm fat
I did
You didn't tell me to give even if I have nothing
I did
You didn't tell me that I'm weak
I did
You didn't keep me from getting close to you
I did
You didn't ask me to smile even if I'm empty
I did
You didn't say it'd be good idea to **** myself
I did
You didn't tell me that I'm worthless
I did
You didn't say that you don't love me
I did

So darling don't worry
Not now, not ever
Because if I can promise you one thing
It's this

You didn't break me
I broke myself

Emma S Nov 2013

PLASTIC DOLL

If I was a little skinnier, prettier, funnier
Would you want me then?
If I was smarter, cuter, fitter
Would you look at me then?

Six days a week I stand in that gym
Working so hard to make you see me
To look at me and not feel disgusted
To make you look at me and want me

If I just get a flat stomach, nice arms and skinny legs
Will you find me beautiful then?
Or will I need to buy more make up, new nail polishes and cuter outfits
To make you think about me?

Or should I just stop
Just crush the mirror that's laughing at me and watch the glass fly
Should I just stop breathing...
Would you think about me then?

Emma S Oct 2013

Do you deserve to be happy?

I don't have to see your face all the time
But honestly I never do that when I'm at home either

To know that you hate me so much that you can't even
Look at me

To know that you hate me so much that you can't even
Stop yourself from screaming whenever you decide to say something

There is no point in staying here
But no point in going home either

Wouldn't it just be easier
If I didn't do any of it

If I had a gun
Would I dare to pull the trigger to make you happy?

Do you think you deserve to be happy?
Do you truly think that you deserve to be happy after everything you put me through?

Emma S Oct 2013

Don't let other people feel like that because of you.

What is wrong with the world?
Why is it that we all do things
We end up regretting
But we still keep doing them
Over
And
Over?

Will we ever learn that what we do or say
Can change someone's way of
Thinking
When they see us everyday?
That we hurt the ones we love
Only because of our own minds playing
Tricks on us

Why is it that we only face other people's
Mistakes
And just overlook our own?
We don't want to feel worse than we already do
So why is it okay to make someone
Feel like that too?

Emma S Oct 2013

Be careful what you wish for

I haven't written much since I met you
Because I've had no reason to
Most people including myself write when they are sad, angry, depressed, confused.
Since I met you I haven't felt any of that
I was thinking about the fact that I miss writing
Even though it's never anything good
Or anything even worth reading
But I miss it
And just like that
You gave me a reason to write again
So... Thank you?

haha... I knew that this, you, wasn't a good idea.
Why do I always try to fool myself?
Nobody likes you, stupid!

Emma S Oct 2013

No future, no present, no past, just me.

.

Emma S Sep 2013

H A P P Y

We don't care about love
We don't care about names
We don't care about age

Tonight we only care about the feeling
Of complete happiness
Of seeing someones pretty smile with adorable dimples

We don't care about the past
We don't care about the future
We live tonight and maybe no longer than tonight

If you die tomorrow why wouldn't you kiss his pretty smile?
Tonight we don't care
And I love it