I want to tell you how I feel but don't know what to say
The cheesey lines that come to me say "colours fade to grey"
A gentle blandness hangs around but I can't work out why
I carry out the same routines that now seem dull and dry
For some reason  excitement's gone and I'm just feeling down
For a little while I'll fake a smile, paint it like a clown
I know that it will lift in time, but here the hope seems thin
Melancholy dreariness, no passion in the hymn
I trust that you will lift the fog as you have done before
Break into my apathy, and rock me to the core
For now I'll plod along the road, make sense of what is mine
And as I go, I'll sing along - A "Perfect Day For Sunshine"

You think that I don't cope
When in fact I cope all the time

But sometime I don't cope so well...

I can't seem to connect
to say what I want to
So I write to someone else,
knowing that you will hear
They say "You turn sorrow into dancing"
but I often find it hard to believe or see
But I see and feel it so clearly now
And for that I am so grateful

The laughter
the confidence
the peace
the sharing
the food
the love you gave
You are so great-full

More than my attempt at a pun could ever say

How do you do it?
When I ask for things you give me more than I could ever imagine
Or give me nothing that I asked for at all
But give me something so much better?
It blows my mind every time.
And then when the next problem comes along
I get scared and ask you for something
And get angry and hate you for something
And get sad and cry for someone
But then you do it all over again
It blows my mind every time.
How do you do it?

Only you make me dream of fireworks in the day
When I'm walking on my own my life becomes like a movie
The sound is spinning and the world moves just for me
Things become alive and dance to the sound
Of your love emanating from me like a visible glow
I want to break out in a song and a spontaneously choreographed dance
But part of me remembers where I am
And I grin at seeing myself dance down the street in my mind
It's crazy how happy your love makes me feel
Like the only person in the world
But part of the biggest family at the same time
You speak to me individually
Whilst your speaking to everyone else
Though I changed your beauty to fit my ideals
You never tried to change me
And for that I love you too

Goodbye friendships, built years ago
Once so close, now apart we grow
Shared conversations turn divisive and coarse
And we still smile together, but the smiles we force
Gone is the easiness, the jokes that ran free
Tables are turned on what was loyalty
Rumours run smoothly through the cracks in our ties
But only some know what is truth, what is lies
What used to be friendship, we cling to the ends
Now's a group of people with no other friends
Sticking togther because no others they know
Soon someone will realise it's just time to go

You're too big for my imagination
Though my imagination was made by you
You're to beautiful for my eyes to handle
But I've only seen you out the corners of my eye
In puddles and ripples, through grace in the rain
In reflections and smiles, and situations that don't make sense
If I could ask you for anything
... but I know that I can
I'd ask you to meet him and show him your freedom
and whilst you're here show it to a few others too
and my friends and my family and my friends of friends of friends
There isn't anyone I don't want to meet you
But where does it end?
If I asked you to heal everyone, is it too big an ask?
Because what I do know of you, is that your compassion is vast
There are people starving, so let them be fed
And there are people so lonely they wish they were dead
All they need is your comfort, your peace and love
Could you send it at once, like you sent the dove?
For those just surviving, send them all your strength
It can't be measured, it has no length
To those that are hurting, those with deep pain
Wash it away, with all-cleansing rain
The searching and lost
Need to know of your cost
Break the chains we see
That set us on our knees
Set us free


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