being your friend
hurts me.
simple
as
that.

Holding it in
Not going to let myself go
Not going to let myself shed a tear

You know that saying,
You don't know what you got till its gone
It is 100% right

I pushed you away
I was scared
I didn't want to take the leap

But now you have her
And my chance is over

I just didnt realize it
until now
And I let myself shed a tear

I hear voices
all around me
they never stop
yelling
fighting
I just want them to stop
want you to stop
I hear everything you say
through the echoing walls of this prison
you wonder why I stay in my lonesome cell
to stay away from you
avoid you
to avoid this feeling in my stomach
it makes me want to hang myself from one of these cell bars
to make it all stop
for it to end
because maybe it would be better then
I wouldn't hear the words you spit out of your mouth
I wouldn't feel the drops of ocean dripping down my cheek
I wouldn't see your faces get blurred
I wouldn't hear anything
I wouldn't feel anything
I wouldn't see anything
I would just be in darkness