im craving something
amatory
it takes over my being
if you help me so kindly
i will return the favor

I want you
Now
Is it to late
Do you want me anymore?
It scares me
Having these feelings for you
I haven't felt like this
For someone like you, in a while
I don't know if I truly want you
Or just want someone there
To comfort me
Be my rock
I want to be a fair to you
But I don't know how to be
Do I like you
Or do I like the idea of you
The idea of being in a relationship
With you
I can't get you off of my mind

i felt cold
without someone there
without you there
so i found someone
a random
to make myself feel better
to forget
or at least
to try
now im here
alone
cold
and still without you

im loosing it
you
us
were we even an us
i thought so
where have you gone
i have been
replaced
you mean more to me
that i do to you
i want to give you everything
but no
you dont see
understand
this is more than a friendship
for me
i want us
together
i love you
come back
please
i need you
what
do
i
do
i cant be alone

something you would never imagine happening to you
happens
you never thought it would ever matter to you
what other people say
think
whisper
but when its part of who you are
and people try and say they know you
understand it?
when they don't
judge it?
you don't know me
who i am
what i go through
what my back round is
we live in a world of judgement
i dont have control over it
neither do you
dont make assumptions about who i am
without knowing me
it hurts to get pushed into something
releasing something of yourself
that you might not realize yourself completely
it got taken out of me
almost like my entire life being put on display
did i ever think it would happen
no
did it
yes
i am proud of who i am
that doesnt give you the right to push me to a place im not at yet
a place i dont feel comfortable yet
a small little comment
travled your world in one night
you all know me
as a build board sign
not as who i am
you pushed me there
to that point
im out

I see you sitting there
That look on your face
The look that says
"fix me. make me feel better"
If I could
I would
I would get up
walk over to you
Take your face in my hands and make it all better
But that would ruin everything
But would it
I let my mind go in circles thinking about it
To love you
or to not love you
Like a little kid picking the petals off a flower
As if that one small flower can tell
Can tell you that that person
that makes you go higher than any piece of grass
loves you or doesnt
but the tiniest fear
that the person that makes you heat up in that one spot
that no one else has even had an affect on
is what makes me sit back down
and i comfort you from a far
hoping that one day
you might give a hint that i heat that spot up for you
but i have little faith