as the darkness of the
dreadful nights storm
fades into early morning
the City lays before me in ruins
trees lay sullen and forlorn
like fallen soldiers,
never to see their families again
glass from feeble house's
scatter the ground like dangerous seeds
catching in the bottom of my feet
small whips of winds push back
my soft red hair, as I stand and stare
as the city rebuilds
from the darkness back into the light

The ink settling in place
Forever it sits and sings
The tale of me,
The sweet melody of
Twists and Patterns
To a point when
Life is mixed with a
Bit of our fantasy
When real life becomes
With my imagination
All dancing around
On the skin
That sings my
bittersweet story

Your heart races
As he holds your hand
You watch the ground
Waiting for something to Spark
That spark you are desperate to ignite
Small glanced up at him
His lips curl into a
Soothing smile
I mimic him and look up
I feel him squeeze my hand
I look at him
Into his eyes
Into his intentions
Soon his mouth
Had found mine
My mind explodes into
A joyous dance
He kissed me
For the first time
My body sings his praise
As everything heightens
Because of his kiss

You expect me to
Sit here and take it
I sat there for years
Waiting for you
To grow up in some way
To be the man I needed you to be
You yell and scream
At the smallest infractions
You steal away my hope for you
Locking it in a box with your malice
Your love for me
Is gagged by the hate I feel
I know it’s there
Somewhere
But not here
Not now
So yell and scream
I just won’t listen
Anymore

Watch those people you don’t understand
Never be evil and make accusations
Because that person
The one you put under the microscope
They may be just like you
Scared, alone, nervous
Let them be Watch them
Befriend them and maybe
One day you will find that thing
That thing they were meant to do
Watch make sure you know them
Because you
Can’t judge a book by looking at the cover
Because the cover just shows you
Their defenses
The words could move you
The words can change you
Just open the cover
And read for a while

Beat down your door
As I scream your name
You left me alone
You left me with my shame
How could you expect
This would be okay
Change my life
Then leave it in shambles
Tear my heart out
And smash it to pieces
Stomp on my insecurities
Keeping me in painful silence
My mouth sewn shut
Keeping our old love secret
I sit here and see you laugh
At the women you left
A sobbing child
I stumble over
Every step forward
While you sit an
Blow away life’s problems
I am stuck in the muck
While you watch me
Sink farther
Into nothingness

As the pages turn
Words breathe new life
In the confines of my mind
Pretty ladies dance and
Hero’s battle fearsome beasts
I run among them
Losing myself in their wonder
I prance like the Nymphs
Dance with Mr. Darcy and
Fly the skies with the Raven
I party with Dorian Gray
Until,  
I am called back to my room
With the plain cream walls
With my real world problems
And there they are
With all my books
Sitting in a pretty
Row
Like toys ready for Christmas
Their pages loose
From my nimble fingers
Their covers ripped from love
Their stories beating hearts
Bleed as their
all silently waiting
For me to come and
Greet them again.

I had that dream again
where I die in the tunnel
I am driving even though I don’t drive,
the car varies,
the bigger the fight
the larger the car:
My Mom, my best friend,
my Dad
the country side is blank
like a postcard I bought in Chicago when I was 5
in the tunnel I’m all alone,
like those nights my Mom had to work late
those nights when I feared she wouldn’t be back
I start to panic, and my palms start to sweat
I get so close to the end,
then a loud CRACK,
releases the water from its cage
I run and try to escape
with every step I am pushed back 5
I start to swim, and I still get nowhere
I beg, in my head, for someone to help me
yet no one is there
the water rises to the top
I take my last gasp of air
I plunge into the dark limitless water
close my eyes and pray
even thought I haven't prayed for years
I feel guilty, I abandoned my faith
now I will die and I am a sinner
I ask for life, but beg for forgiveness
then I see Him
the dark man looking at me
I’m not scared just curious
we lock eyes
He smiles
I feel safe
He is dressed in cultured dress
and His hair is cut short
His face like a road map,
aged like wine
His eyes tell you more
then a greek storyteller
no judgement
no fear just love
in His great big brown eyes
the grandpa I never knew
smiled at me
I felt safe an opened my mouth
water rushed desperate to be a part of me
I wake up
my lungs ache
my arms and legs are sore
and I can’t take my eyes off my ceiling
looking for cracks and drops of water

Sit back and Watch
The magic of Deaths Dance
The ladies skirts
Sway while as they walk
All the men stare as
They draw closer
Soon they clash in an
Airborne romance
Twirling around
Way up high
The night sky
Welcoming them back
Swinging and Bowing
Their shoes tell their stories
Till light breaks
The dance is over
They bid each other
Sweet goodbye
Tomorrow they will be back
To dance and play forever more

Bare your teeth
Keep feeling hidden
Bury them beneath
Away from prying eyes
Plead to be free
From the harmful cries

You reach out
Sticking your claws in
That rips me apart
Tear me to shreds
I worry about you
Which you thrive on
I care about you
Which you need to survive
The attention
You consume
Overload on high
The stress overflows
As you talk to me
About your problems
In your near perfect life
You talk and talk
At some point I stopped
Listening
You expect me to stay here
To take this ****
To think it’s okay
It’s not and
I am done

Ever seen those high school girlfriends
Playing with their hair
Smacking their lips at their boys
Calling them near
They smile a devilish smile
As the boys fall in line
One after another,
Make them all mine
Short skirts
Tight shirts
Skinny jeans
Cleavage please
We watch you squirm
Under our gaze
Wiggle like worms
Forgotten as we play
High school girlfriends
Hold the power
Yet we melt
With the stupid flower

You fake death, while we
Lay bleeding, you think you’re cool
While you’re not breathing

You get away with ******, while
We take blow after blow, standing together
On the corner listening to you groan

Take your hand and grab a knife
Pounce around all through the night
Yell and scream, try and make us believe you

Open up and take a handful
Lay there silently heaving
Fingers down your throat

Again you scream and yell
But now no one hears you
Now it’s real and no one believes you

You die, while we watch
Seething, you thought you were cool
While you were still breathing