It isnt easy
not knowing if someone will
return the favor of love.

How embarrassing it would be
to wake up to them leaving
knowing that your lack
of understanding of their needs
forced them away.

You be best off to just laugh and pretend
you were just kidding
and you didnt care, or love
even though your crushed.

Words cannot bring to life my sorrow
I mourn not only your repect
but also my future
I didnt mean for things to turn out this way
if i could go back to that day
i would .
and I would use my brain and mot my heart
I can only say I am sorry , and one
day i hope you can forgive me
no rush
you have 6 months
i think he can change your mind
change mine .

little one
inside me growing
taking little pieces of who I am
making them into who you'll be
leave some love so I can drench you in it
leave the pain so I can save you from it
leave the lies , there no good on the soul
but take the wisdom that I earned in these few years,
you'll need it little one .

Those times we share like that one last night
makes me feel like busting, and i just might
love would sling across the ceiling
I'm so enthralled I'm literally beaming
It's just when im with you happiness consumes me
and for days i have to listen to the plea
of my heart because she wants more
and you want me , I am sure
its hard to walk away when ive tickled you since noon
under the entire , glowing moon
that allowed you to see the details of my body.
there you found my secrets and the key
to my heart that I hid just for you
so in our river of passion you could use your canoe.

We decided ...well i guess i decided, it would be better if we waited ...bc our relationship just wasn't ready.

but that didn't stop you.
I know you were scared because i could feel your heart as you tried to learn the angle your fingers could come inside( which hurt by the way ).

convinced this was happening i took my own shirt off , it was up to my neck anyways.
the look you gave me when you pulled at my pants ill never forget . you didnt say a word but i knew every thought in your head.
in silent glances i reassured you ,i was ready.
and on you went .
and on
and on.
i couldn't help but laugh when you asked me how to put the ****** on , being silly as always i replied "idk ive never had a ***** "
i love you .
we made out the entire time (my lip went numb )
and then you had to leave , we kissed ,we promised we wouldn't tell, and we realized we shared something special .

You were my first.and I , yours. That's special to me .

You came back
you really came back
and you didn't even ask for forgiveness
but it doesn't matter because your back
and you may have missed my body
or maybe you just got bored
but how can i not rejoice when my lover has returned
this is scary
because you can leave just as quick as you returned
but
I guess that's  the
price of love.

You pushed me to my breaking point
like a ruler i snapped
i am of no use to you now

so goodbye.
It will hurt
, to be broken
always does,
but
one day ill will be ok.




it just wont be today.