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1.4k · Aug 2012
The Flight of Our Train
Emanuel Martinez Aug 2012
If the echoes in my head subside

When the train finally halts
And I look all around
Wonder if you will be there
Will my heart still yearn for you

My mind flying high in your sky
Will it ever stop
When it finally descends
Moving forward, but moving on?

Can we derail, decelerate the pace of a loving heart
Some weaker, semblance of fuel, my engine's funneling
Will I ever fly the same without your gravitational pull

When the train finally halts
And I look all around
Wonder if you will be there
Will my heart sill call your name

Dirt and debris hitting the surface
You were the cleanse keeping **** out
Will anyone else give me your wonderful phrases

Keeping me lighter like I would amount
Healing my wings, always keeping them fearless
I never knew I needed you to fly
Now I wonder if my heart can start
When your no longer there

Keeping my engine safe and strong for war
The new ware of my flight
Will it ever resemble the speed or freedom your sky gave
When I'm no longer holstered up by the tracks of your love
Will your traces really fade away

When the train finally halts
And I look all around
Wonder if you will be there
Will my hearts still holler your name

Will it hold on in vain
Even if I'm in my grave
Will it move on, see you, and manage
Knowing our love could be gone
August 24, 2012
Emanuel Martinez Aug 2011
The depthness of the soul manages to reach
A richness that breathes something good.
That is when the hurt seems to run away.

The soul must just constantly quiet the mind.
Quiet, quiet - my shield. Everything is alright.
You must stop pestering the heart for you are not being rational
And that is driving the heart to dysfunction beyond repair.

Take my pain up to the heavens above and let it flee to nonexistence.
Place the coldness of my thoughts.
How have we all come to this point where we all are full of pain.

Crying only seems to relieve the hurt
But the depthness of the crisis is only widening.

Sometimes separation and isolation
Is the best strategy for a stronger resolution
To such matters as the ruptured, wounded heart.

There is no reconciliation between
What has happened and what it no longer is.
Stepping out of the soul is the only way.
June 2, 2011
www.endorsinglife.blogspot.com
1.4k · Aug 2011
War Lords
Emanuel Martinez Aug 2011
Twirling the world
Glass hearts shattering

Tears as brutal as bullets
Down to the ground, thundering

Wounds hungering
For pain and suffering

Armored boys and girls warring
Adults, too afraid, we're cowering
Faltering, the future is wavering

Water colors merely disappearing
Only mud drooping, and smearing
As we watch it engulf our mired territory
August 12, 2011
www.endorsinglife.blogspot.com
1.3k · Aug 2011
Human Freight
Emanuel Martinez Aug 2011
Cosmos’ in line
Trying times are hanging up
Harrowing efforts
Are disappearing from the host

Flying through concrete
The gold trap is deepening
Pant pockets are disappearing

Frayed lives are whimpering
Too much whispering
Richness is changing our living

Galaxies full of notion and time
In our mind they harbor
Asteroids driving our madness
To the core of the emptiness inside

Ticketing our ride home
The rail blurts its bias for us to be gone
So we fall asleep with its subdued sounds
Until we’re out and about
On our own two vehicles

Blasting tasting racketeering tricksters
Devine, sane, and holly men
No one is the same but we’re falling in
Forces are at a tug of war
We’re just the pawns in between
August 5, 2011
http://endorsinglife.blogspot.com/
1.3k · Jan 2013
Real Restless Revolution
Emanuel Martinez Jan 2013
We're social bandits because we will not be bought and sold
We might be tortured and we might die
But our ideas, our actions, our movement will not cease

We're growing restless, oppression pushing us to the edge
How much pain will we bare?
Will you sale out the masses to save your own soul?

Too afraid, so you obey your masters, till you're on the chopping block
Thinking you could become one of them
And you could become one of them...but not everyone

Revolution is knocking, blood-stained power structures are cracking
It's okay if I'm not individually happy, because we're not all free
We the revolutionaries, we're peacefully building the army

We'll sleep, at night, easily knowing we're challenging the powers that be
January 5, 2013
1.3k · Jan 2013
Young Seekers
Emanuel Martinez Jan 2013
Feeling weirdness and warmth
Tingling, everywhere inside
Like something's being born

Just one kiss like a spark
Igniting young hearts' hope
A joy, a desire, a new need

This is young love

Me hugging my pillow
Wishing it was you

You holding me once
For me to wish
I'd be in your arms forever

Being wild and free
Just one kiss
And I've fallen in
January 4, 2013
1.3k · Oct 2013
Everyone the Best
Emanuel Martinez Oct 2013
No home, no less
No ruse, no truce, no stress
Just kind of mindless

Children playing in the wild west
Ain't no army, no fighting there
Only slides, swing sets, starring our best

No fear, no less
No lies, no cries, no sadness
Just the tireless

Kid president makes his address
Ain't no nations, no half-breeds
Only humans, planet earth
Where everyone the best
September 19, 2013
1.3k · Jun 2011
Contemplating Night
Emanuel Martinez Jun 2011
Riding on the moon
My name is heard
Trying not be blue

The tide of life is high
Sounds of rationality become drowned
By the thoughts of disbelief

Beauty is really overwhelming
Dreaming is a tool for living
Surviving is merely all that is possible

Tonight the breeze of the night
Will cradle the thoughts of my pain
Beauty of the moon will transfix this being
All that will remain is solemness and calm

The shallowness of the frame
Now a day the gray cannot forget the crime
Ease of mind, for that there is time
1.3k · Dec 2010
Peace Will Reign
Emanuel Martinez Dec 2010
Peace will reign
Peace will reign
Peace will reign

When clouds cover the sun
And cold is what you feel
Inside and out
Rays of light
Will sweep in
And make you warm

When hatred seems to be all around
And hearts deteriorate with pain
love will come restore them all

Peace will reign
Peace will reign
Peace will reign

When ignoring the signs
And he calls your name
You will find Him
In your own life, all along

When selfish beings
Leading short sad lives
will realize that living
for everyone but themselves
Will fill that void
And elongate their days

Peace will reign
Peace will reign
Peace will reign
1.3k · Dec 2012
Looking Up To You
Emanuel Martinez Dec 2012
Looking up to you
I was a tiny light
Choosing to show you
How bright I could shine

Every spark through the laughter
Every tear through the pain
I shared with you
Not knowing you could change me

Like two pebbles in a stream
We never meant to
But we flowed through together
Two friends arm in arm

Not afraid of where
Our paths would take us
Your love like a compass
Keeping me confident

And if we go through war
If my memory somehow fails
If we get lost, and you perish without me knowing
I'll be consoled knowing in my life
You have helped me grow

Looking up to you
I was a tiny light
Choosing to show you
How bright I could shine

You held me up, eye to eye
"Don't shy away from who you are"
In his eyes, I was who I was meant to be
Relying on my strength to be alright

Could you ever imagine
The ways our lives would change
How large were the ripples you made
Encouraging someone like me to be bold

Looking up to you
I was a tiny light
Choosing to show you
How bright I could shine
December 15, 2012
1.3k · Jun 2011
The Way You Make Me Feel
Emanuel Martinez Jun 2011
You make me feel vulnerable
Don’t know if I can trust myself with you
But I want to be there for you
So I will bring down my guard
Just hope you don’t break me from within

We’re both alone and we need someone
Life is not certain and I may not be for you
But I need to put myself out there for you

Feelings are not always well defined
More often their blurry and hard to find
But maybe with you they will become clear

The world is waiting for me to fight
And I need someone to help me try
Maybe you can help me through it

If life takes us different ways
It’s quite alright
But I can’t live with myself
If I don’t try this once with you

My heart is guarded by politics of the mind
My feelings struggle with rational thoughts
I should portray a certain image to everyone
So I can’t really show you how I feel
Though when around you I feel like holding you close
And not let time pass because I feel at ease

I feel you need someone
To be there to catch you
When you fall down hard
I want to be that person
A pillar that holds you
And builds you up

I feel that yearning in your soul
You think you’re self sufficient
But why don’t you rely on me
I want you to know
I want to be there for you

It’s okay to let yourself go
The world is not perfect
And some say you may fall
If you don’t prepare yourself
But there is beauty
In seeing the good of mankind

If your heart really seeks it
Then you will find someone
Whom you can rely on
It may not be me, but it could be me
My heart yearns to fill your void

I come without hidden agendas
And I want you to be complete within
I don’t know what you want
If you want me at all

I offer you a fort of solitude in my heart
And even if we stay only friends
I want to be there for you

And I cannot articulate a perfect way how to say
You inspire me and you empower me
I feel inadequate in your eyes
And I want to be so much better for you
Just being next to you I feel can bring about growth

I don’t know if our futures intertwine
But you are one special person that confounds me
October 27, 2010
Emanuel Martinez Oct 2011
Crawling inside the depths
are fears of inadequacy and lose of hope...hopelessness.

Senselessness becomes rational where before it had no place.

Often when the spirit is momentarily uplifted
panic abounds of the ensuing crashing down by a broken heart.
Despite this familiar thought, right now this is not the concern.

Joy and harmony must rob the soul
of hurt, anger, and a shattered heart.

The tides of time do not stop for no one stone.
Take your stride soul; be as powerful as you can be.

Spirit be not afraid to kidnap this being
from self inhalation through self-inflicted pain.
Mend the leakage of this being's punctured heart.
June 2, 2011

endorsinglife.blogspot.com
1.2k · Jul 2011
Get Ready to Ramble
Emanuel Martinez Jul 2011
Get ready to ramble no time to scramble.
Fumble, stumble, or tumble and you will crumble.
Stand stable and be the probable trouble.

Get ready to ramble no time to scramble.
Cradle the brothel and blood you will satchel.
Straddle the mantle of ease and squeeze.
It will handle the pressure before you flee.

Get ready to ramble no time to scramble.
Stop the babble and label the cards on the table.
Look at yourself and separate the feeble from the able.
Prove you're trouble, disable the fable.

Double the effort, don't be too noble.
Hackle the pain, insecurity shackle it too.

Get ready to ramble no time to scramble.
Fortune or doom be weapon not wound.
July 30, 2011
Emanuel Martinez Dec 2012
***** water lilies
Fiery wondering thoughts
Precise eagle eyes

Ego, they guard

Mankind better run
Material eating; nature
Purifying souls

Change's gaining ground
Man you're going down
Always thinking weaponize

Raising minds' vice
Fast blind downfall

Self-inflection; death's allure

Trapped man
Life's insecure

Hunting own kind
Fools reigning mad
Blood drenched rule

Cycle mind around
Sense losing force
Just ****** man

No blink, grant death
Leave fellow man
Only one win

Mankind better run
Material eating, nature
Purifying souls

Change's gaining ground
Man you're going down
Always thinking weaponize

Human demise
You canonize
Only trivial

Mankind better run
Man you're going down

Child keep up
For you, we're waiting on
December 14, 2012
1.2k · Aug 2011
Young Boy
Emanuel Martinez Aug 2011
Young boy.
Till the sun's down.
There's no time to weep.
Love will come around.
Troubled heart let beauty seep in.

Cute boy.
Stop feeling insecure.
The world loves you.
But they can't tell if you don't smile.
Follow happiness even, through tough times.

Good boy.
You've done nothing wrong.
Lift up those eyes and seek
Adventure through the wilderness.
Let your own guilt fade away.

Strong boy.
Stop being so afraid.
Just when you feel too weak.
An arm will be there to keep you up.
Take your share and be
The stronghold you know you are.

Sweet boy.
Don't let troubles passing your eyes sour your words.
Grab it, run with it, cherish it, and share it.
Show it to everyone, don't hide your love.

Young boy.
Till the sun's down.
There's no time to weep.
Love will come around.
Just hold on tightly for the ride.
August 7, 2011
http://endorsinglife.blogspot.com/
1.2k · Aug 2012
(Us) We'll Be Long Gone
Emanuel Martinez Aug 2012
When I die alone
When you finally come home
There will be no point
(Us) We'll be long gone

As kids we thought we could
So we left each other behind
Surely someone else would enter our mind

The pain we've pinned to the wall
But our love we said it wasn't real, we let it fall
Cowardly, debased we withdrew

All the while salvation we knew, not
Disappearing from each other
Can we alone hold over?

When I die alone
When you finally come home
There will be no point
(Us) We'll be long gone

Emaciated by our hunger and our fear
We forgot how to bare, how to fight
How to fly in love not in fear

Our gears were disengaged
When we lost our mind
Our lovely thoughts were caged

Moving froward, our past is lost
How much did our insecurities cost?

When my love has lost its host
And your mind, my heart's trust

Then I will die alone
When you finally come home
There will be no point
(Us) We'll be long gone
08/14/12
Emanuel Martinez Dec 2012
In our life, time won't matter
Ooh don't you worry baby
I'll be right here waiting for you

In our future, I see we'll be together
Ooh don't you fret baby
Right now, we might be too young to settle

In our world, there will be no trouble
Ooh don't you get scared baby
You'll be alright till I come safe you

In our thoughts, there will be no words of sorrow
Ooh don't you think too hard baby
My lips will one day capture you

In our hearts, appropriations will be on loan
Ooh don't be too quick to sell out baby
When I come around, you'll be mine forever

Ooh don't you worry about me baby
Stop thinking about me, until the time is right
I'll always be here for you

Until that day, to have loved you
Is what I'll be proud of, Is what I hope for
Even if I don't know who you are

Till that moment when I know you are
I'll be ready; happy knowing you exist
December 11, 2012
1.1k · Sep 2012
There Was A Day
Emanuel Martinez Sep 2012
There was a day
When you confessed
That you could have loved me

There was a time and a place
When you finally expressed
Everything that you thought of me

Your words finally unleashing
Feelings your heart was too afraid to tell
Wondering if I would take them in vain

You finally gave me a chance
To hear everything you had to say
Even if it was too late

There was a day
When you confessed
That you could have loved me

There was a time and a place
When you finally expressed
Everything that you thought of me

The experiment was done
So you let everything out
Because you wanted me to know...

How much you really did care
How there were hidden words
How much you really admired the ways that I loved you

There was a day
When you confessed
That you could have loved me

There was a time and a place
When you finally expressed
Everything that you thought of me

Ooh, how only if someone took their time with me
They would see what you saw in me
And I would be unafraid

There was a day
When you confessed
That you could have loved me

There was a time and a place
When you finally expressed
Everything that you thought of me

How I was caring, thoughtful, romantic
Unlike anyone one else, very loyal
How intelligent, supportive, and fearless

There was a day
When you confessed
That you could have loved me

There was a time and a place
When you finally expressed
Everything that you thought of me

That I could have made you complete
And know I think
That you could have made me complete

But I thank you for declaring everything to me
For making me realize
That love is meant to belong to me
September 21, 2012
1.1k · Nov 2010
El Ultimo Petalo
Emanuel Martinez Nov 2010
Tengo un petalo
De la primera vez que te vi
Una sola flor te di
Todo lo que degaste
Fue el auroma de gardenias
Y unos petalos que con el viento
Volaron y flotaron hacia mi

Y el tiempo paso
Pero tu no regresabas a mi
Nadamas sostenia los petalos
Pensando ala mejor podria sentirte a ti
Y tu fragancia regresaba por ahi
En ese momento con nostalgia
Pensaba por que tu no estas aqui

Y el tiempo paso
Los petalos se secaron y volaron lejos
Por desasos como tu memoria
Corrieron sin poderlos rescatar

Y ahora tengo un solo petalo
De la primera vez que te vi
Es el ultimo que quedo
Los demas el viento llevo

Ultimo petalo tambien
Casi desaparecio con tu memoria
Pero inevitable mi corazon
Nunca olvidara to fragrancia
Siempre te conservara
Cuando un petalo caiga cerca de mi
Emanuel Martinez Jul 2011
Aiming to lay claim to light.
But hiding under the cove.
A landslide is between darkness and light.
Probably can make it.
But there's a chance rocks will threaten the attempt.
Making the brave fall prey to fate.

Prime is time for crime.
Capture lucidity before insanity takes toll.
No rules or laws searching for something good.

Victims try your lives at discord.
Climb out before debris covers the only way out.
Pray light may stay at bay.
Back out the stark dark before you lack heart.
Bright light might right your plight.

Aiming to lay claim to light.
But hiding under the cove.
A landslide is between darkness and light.

Attempting to leave thoughts in the deep.
Clinging to your feet.
They struggle and you pain in the fight out.

Cunning memories come hunt you out of the darkness.
Don't give up thoughts of better days.
Tying wailing thoughts to the walls.
Run, heave them, leave them to save one.
You
July 29, 2011
1.1k · Sep 2012
Our Bodies Floundering
Emanuel Martinez Sep 2012
How hidden, how high
How low we search without
Fear or nerve; enamored we scout

Not withstanding our falling out
Every impossibility we seek out positively

No scandals, no scoundrels
We're faced with yearning, grand dreaming; how lavishing

Pouring out every word, every feeling, every tear, every melody
Here theres no melancholy, only harmony

Counting every day, every hour, every minute
Listening to sweet musings
The chords are thundering

We've been lost, no longer wondering; we're hollering
Leaving the world swirling

How crazy we are, not suffocating
Blind, falling we're mindless faltering
But we're mindless just humming happily
August 8, 2012
1.1k · Jul 2011
To Find A Bond
Emanuel Martinez Jul 2011
Gasping for missing air.
Trailing a tittering dream.
Reality of independence shattering.

No longer on my own.
Loneliness is settling down.
We're moving on.
But I never learned how to survive on my own.

Rose buds refusing to bloom without a sliver of blood.
Shaping diamonds like land mines dangerous to forge.
The true wealth of our friendship is fine and fair.
Just got to thread it without breaking the silk.
July 26, 2011
1.1k · Aug 2015
Red Clay
Emanuel Martinez Aug 2015
I am red clay
I am not lost
Because everywhere, I am
Stretching out to you
To keep me grounded
So I myself won't be eroded
By whitewashing
August 27, 2015
1.1k · Jul 2011
Harmonium
Emanuel Martinez Jul 2011
No hoot, mute the flute.
No sweet music oozing out of the muse.
Orchestra is playing another tune.

Desperate sounds are coming out the pipes.
Chasing a different melody we can't sing.

Vocal chords are broken.
The voice of angels unrecognizable.
The ***** is missing keys.

Instruments are rusty and old.
We can't hear but whimpering is in the air.
For their struggling to push their share.

Been broken for far too long.
Don't know when the chaos of sound will come undone.
Disappeared harmonium is merely impossible to rescue.
July 30, 2011
1.0k · Jun 2011
True Love
Emanuel Martinez Jun 2011
True love is innocent
True love is beautiful

It's a touch without malice
A caress like velvet
Illustrating only true emotions

True love is innocent
True love is full of joy and happiness
When eyes glimmer brightly
And there are no false pretenses
Hidden in their soul
But Only pure intentions
June 24, 2010
988 · Sep 2011
Tear Colored Memories
Emanuel Martinez Sep 2011
Tear colored memories
Lovely hanging melodies
Chanting the wrong pleas

Oceans of stars are washing ashore
The sky is falling apart
While together at last

Candles are lighting the way
Through the rain and the storm
Mine is all but a trail of smoke

Counting the hours, the minutes
We are left here to wait
The sand is not sinking in

As he walks down the beach
I smile and he looks at me
I blush and look away

Tear colored memories
Lovely hanging melodies
Chanting the wrong pleas

How can it be that you left so soon?
You dropped one grain of your heart
Through promenades keeping our hands warm

It must have been so easy
You breaching my heart
Letting the breeze leave love on my skin

Wondering like fools oceans apart
I ran away, too afraid to feel
So you left your hand out a thousand miles away

For me to come to you
Whenever the time was right
You left that warm welcome in your arms

Tear colored memories
Lovely hanging melodies
Chanting the wrong pleas

Every once in a while
You come back to remind me of you
Giggles echoes have taken away
Come back rushing in

You place your hand softly on my cheek
And I suddenly feel your lovely touch again
It’s no longer me, once more, its truly you

Memory of love I’ve never had
Is filling my soul with hope and fear
That tomorrow only good will come
September 15, 2011
endorsinglife.blogspot.com
980 · Dec 2012
From Our Sky
Emanuel Martinez Dec 2012
No, ashes no longer fall
From the sky

Those diamonds are precious
Between your thighs

And that pounding in your chest
Fossil fuel, so indespensable
Can keep someone like me full

I'm a minner ready to fall
Into you, most valuable ore

The mere thought of you
Can warm me more
Than coal or wood

You can heat my heart,
Set my body ablaze
A thousand degrees higher
Then lava consuming land

No, ashes no longer fall
From this sky

You must have come
To save me

How brave we,
Knowing love is dangerous
Knowing it can fail,
Trying with no fear or avail

My manifestation of love,
You rise from the shadows
Letting me know I can be yours

Like warm water dew drops
I see you trying to attempt
To hydrate, fortify this force of nature

No, ashes no longer fall
From our sky

Taking it one precious step at time
If our paths allows us
Like two cells engineering one being
Living one life knowing we have each other
December 28, 2012
922 · Nov 2010
Beautiful life
Emanuel Martinez Nov 2010
Beautiful life
Is not appreciated
By those who live it

Abundant freedom
Is overrated
By those who’ve always had it

Reigning Peace
Is overlooked
By those who wage a war to keep it intact

True Love
Is degraded
By cheaters and liars

But those who suffer through the horrors of the world
Cherish every small beautiful moment
Thinking that such incidents are scarce

Those who don’t have a say in the outcome of their live
Yearn to be released from their chains
While, others conformed but unhappy
Fail to know the full meaning of freedom

Those who live in oppression and fear
Wish it could be over, but some have never felt peace

Those who need someone to love them
Are left alone, trying not to give up the fight
But they just can’t seem to love themselves

Beautiful life
Beautiful life
Let them have a beautiful life.
921 · Dec 2012
Our Mingling Lips
Emanuel Martinez Dec 2012
Hey there! There's no time to worry
Sure I shoulda kissed you
Coulda held you, shoulda shown you
How right I was for you
                  
How shy was I, how loud were you  
All the trouble it coulda caused us
To lock our lips together
No, no problem, just endless possibilities

Couldn't gift my kisses, to your lips
Our bodies having trouble
Staying close, hip to hip
Without your lips cooing in my ear

My lips quivering, sensing
You inching toward me
Fell off balance, off center
Giggling till you backed away    
                          
Guess it wasnt meant to be  
Because having had given
First kiss away, it wasn't you
Still it filled a good part of me

And after this kiss, we're both sill alright
Still friends, sill fond, still moving on,
But living on
December 14, 2012
907 · Aug 2011
The Incredible Façade
Emanuel Martinez Aug 2011
Smiles and eyes, and hi’s
You take them so lightly
But they’re not really there
Though you perceive their presence

Amicable eyes,
Positive semblance of a frame
You take it a smile to the self
But that’s just part of a
Structure twisting and falling apart

But if it suits you
Fall in the false appearance
For that’s not what's being transmitted

Only a distorted face trying
To dislocate phrases and thoughts
July 16, 2011
877 · Dec 2010
Girl
Emanuel Martinez Dec 2010
You're pretty
You're pretty awesome
Girl you glow

You're pretty
You're pretty cool
Girl everyone wants you around

You're pretty
You're pretty smart
Girl you'll make it far

No,  no one compares
You're special to me
No one compares
2010
862 · Jul 2011
The Beautiful Lane
Emanuel Martinez Jul 2011
Its the end of the road.
We built bridges in our minds.
Conspiring aspirations like foundations.
Smashing walls, wallowing dreams down.
Be not afraid of the future.
Its no promenade walking down the beautiful lane.

Trying to claim aim to pain.
Not aloud but in silence.
We're not insane trying to fain happiness and fear.
Confusing misery with living we lose the beautiful lane.

Not dying, crying, just trying lying.
Until we truly feel like laying praying for peace.
Tears, the fears of years, conceal these eyes.
Imagination creation in hibernation.
Our thoughts are starting to wonder how to spiral.
Faded, jaded, weathered and tired we traded
Our solid ground for the soundness of the beautiful lane.
July 25, 2011
854 · Nov 2010
The Target
Emanuel Martinez Nov 2010
My love is the stone
And your heart is the target

I aim at it fast
But you dodge it

I throw, I throw and I miss
You giggle, you laugh and you tease

The stone keeps hitting the ground
It keeps falling before you all around
Brazen arrow keeps shooting
I stop and my heart is oozing
June 1 2009
847 · Aug 2011
Time After Crime
Emanuel Martinez Aug 2011
Blood in the thoughts
Destruction and abyss
Antithetical to nurture and growth
The bleakness has become real
There’s no excuse,
Muse, but still you will loose

There’s no one to blame this time
Take it how you will but it’s not the world
Its just you

You broke the world and you didn’t even know
Trust and worthiness was left wrapped in your arms
But you rapped them both without a doubt
Now you realized what you did and it’s too far-gone

The only dove in the world was entrusted in your arms
And you shot it because your veins were raging with blood
So you lost your judgment and your sight
Don’t blame the sky for being too blue
At the moment you knew what you were shooting
And you took your aim

Now the peace has been shattered down to the ground
Even if you repair the wound there will always be a scar
And you have just tainted peace a little bit more
Instead of protecting it from the same danger
Like you promised all along

A pact between ocean and the stone that fell
Just remembrance, for the pain and joy was being dragged
To the depths of the dark hidden ocean floor
But it could not stay down forever as it washed ashore
Before it disappeared again into volumes of blue

But the moon is not forgiving for it pinches the ocean
And the stone gets spat out for the pain to be seen on the beach
How can it be destroyed before more damage is reached

Even the tides of time are having a difficult obstruction
In the dissolution of the stone for it keeps building form
Every time it comes back to the surface
Meanwhile the ocean is fighting to suppress it
Make it disappear with only but a trace

And the mess you made
Better do something with it before its too late
Don’t let it drag you away
Before you lose the way you’ve made

Oceans disturbed, doves broken, and entrustments ruptured
There’s no turning back but only looking forward
To salvaging what has been kept you moving along
If only a treasure you cared not to care
So you damaged it deliberately because you were desperate with desire

Now take what you will and detach the stone from your ocean
Save the dove for the voyage but don’t take from it what is not yours
And rescue the entrustments for it will carry you both
July 16, 2011
841 · Aug 2011
Love Has Friends
Emanuel Martinez Aug 2011
A lost love incapable of being found
****** into air, rain is washing it away

Chained to a world of final fantasy
Reality is mad trying to liberate it

To dispel love of this world
Sourcing all the happiness
From a vessel that is destined to be full

Life is scaring it away
Every time only capturing an essence
But losing its lasting presence

Errors constructed by fears of emotions
One which will take you
To the depths of the ocean
Where love has shed its skin
And taken on a new beginning

Falling down fast to the surface of the heart
Love is searching through the darkness

The bottom of the ocean tries
To will its pressure to shatter its quest

But love has friends
The journey never ends
August 8, 2011
In collaboration with Saul Grullon
www.endorsinglife.blogspot.com
838 · Jun 2011
The Soul of Our Lives
Emanuel Martinez Jun 2011
My heart painless
My soul boundless

Life no longer waiting on me
Ready to run
Ready to fall in love endlessly

Joy awaits at every corner
And I am ready to find it

Laughter's tune in my mind
A perfect melody
Soothing sound to the soul
No other sound brings more joy

Peace crawls in around me
Wild vine it surrounds me

Fragrance of happiness
Its trace confines me

Soul begs to be released

Life is a passage full of thirst
and soul refuses to be an empty basin

Give it love, give it hope, give it life
And it will sore
2010
828 · Jun 2011
The Depth of Loneliness
Emanuel Martinez Jun 2011
You are all alone
No one to return to

There's an endless hole
And you just dug your own place

There's no way to trace
True pride and joy from anyone for you

Mistakes like permanent ink
No lifetime can truly rid their stain

Genuine caress is hard to find
For the one you had propriety over
You ran away from and gave up for free

Now, the only rock you cling to
Seems to be in faulty ground

At times streams of tears rushing through
Seem to threaten the holding on

Trying to be careful not to fall
You become numb, afraid of change
Yet falling seems like the only comfort
for landing is always assured
June 13, 2011
Emanuel Martinez Dec 2010
God don't leave me behind

I'm not a ******
And I'm no thief

You show me love
Through every way
You know how

And ignore you, all the same
I don't acknowledge you as much as I should
Yet you bless me

I try to mend broken hearts
I care for those who don't care about themselves
I strive to make this world a better place

Isn't that enough to hear at least a word

I wished I loved you as much as my lover does
But I don't want to love you because I'm afraid my lover will eventually leave me if I soon don't

Although not loud enough to drown my praise and love for you
Small thoughts linger in my mind wondering if there's anyone out there hearing my pleas

I want to edify people's lives
But what good am I without you
But all the same I ain't no saint or priest

Can I deal with not believing in you?
If not you, than who or what

I'm distraught, and falling apart
Yet when I forget to remember you are there
I seem to be alright

What if I get to the point where you completely leave my mind
Nonsense, hope I fear not that thought

Strip me down and take me bare
Take everything away from me
And give it to someone who deserves it more
Perhaps my lover is overdue for your bliss

I know I ain't no one to demand you show yourself to me

Make me miserable and take me on a search
Trouble me until you show me light or let me die

I don't want to be voluntary to your love
You must force me to focus my love on you and no one else

How can this burning love and pain for humanity
Be randomly in my soul
Surely, there's something that's pushing me there
And that has to be you

My carnal body sins and I'm ashamed
But if you really want to show your love
Control my mind

My body ain't worth a dime
But my soul screams I want out!
There is a spirit in me and its searching for that place it belongs

The thought of a mechanism in the psychology of my mind
Faintly lingers while I research myself

Pure intentions then fight with cynicism invading the border lines

But how can man manufacture the soul
Am I being cynical for thinking maybe someone has or soon will

God is there a point in not believing in anything
Converting and finding myself in such a way is just a game

How can there be meaningfulness and purpose without faith
You have to be real but why don't I consider you in everything I do

Life is going so fast
I stray away from hearing
Music praising your name
Because I'm ashamed that I haven't prayed today

Suddenly I get annoyed
Why? Because I'm reminded to thank you for keeping me alive

You should be the center of my day
I'm sorry
In your love I want to change

And I don't want to feel guilty about being with the one I love

God don't leave me behind
December 10, 2010
820 · Jun 2011
The One
Emanuel Martinez Jun 2011
Just call me whatever
But more importantly
Can I call you
Sweetheart, lover, the one

Can I look into those eyes
call them beautiful
Stare at them with warmth

Can I put my arms around you
Hold you and embrace you
Till again I am fully recharged

Can I stand next to you
Admire you because I look up to you
and just smile when our eyes meet

Just call me whatever
But more importantly
Can I call you
Sweetheart, lover, the one

Can I tell you a silly joke
So we can share a smile
crack up with tears of joy

Can I ask you a question
So I can hear your beautiful voice
And learn something too

Can I pretend to be in trouble
So you can come to my rescue

Just call me whatever
But more importantly
Can I call you
Sweet heart, lover, the one
794 · Apr 2021
Psychobabble
Emanuel Martinez Apr 2021
Psychobabble tryna be
All da answers that we need
For da pain we got inside
tryna understand
thinkin bout our thinking
yes its powerful tool
but it's not enough

It's a cage
It's a stage
Full of rage
Its da boss
Not da wage

What's da problem
Mama was depressed
Daddy left
Anger and resentment
Always got her pressed

Medical professionals
Trained to say/ half da truth
We got truama
From our exploitation/ poverty

Tellin us:
Yo mama ****** you up
Its a pity now you growin' up
On medication
Wit so many limitations

Numb a worker/ when she's hurtin
From the bosses' system
Being okay with workers killing each other
RIpping her son's life away

Why they hold us back
From the real mental healing preparations
Cause does conversations
Mean talkin bout revolutionary confrontation
741 · Mar 2011
The Poison in My Ears
Emanuel Martinez Mar 2011
Deafening, will your voice become
Poison entering my ears
Rather make them bleed
With thundering melodies all around

For no excuses will erase
Your slithering thoughts
Trying to hide behind your mind

Gather my insecurities
And throw them in my face
Then you go play your games
Expecting me to give way
Telling me, “very be docile to my words!”

But you got me wasting time
No matter what happens,
You tell me,
“Sacrifice your time to prove your worth”

Deafening will your voice become
Poison entering my ears
Rather make them bleed
With thundering melodies all around

Master puppeteer you must be
For you got me thinking I’m insane
And I’m trembling with
Hot vile churning through my mind

Shatter every last bit of me
Take the part that belongs to you
And shred it with the sharpness of your tongue

Sickness will drown you
For being so brazen with my pain
My wounds will breathe through your rejection
Hate me for being me

Shallow waters will succumb
The heat of ignorance will make them
Fruitless and dry, and too late
You will see the springs of my heart
March 14, 2011
739 · Jun 2011
(Let Us) Suspend It In Time
Emanuel Martinez Jun 2011
Don't ruin the moment
We have a whole semester
To dismantle this ticking bomb
Surely we wont let it explode

Just smile at me and feel at ease
Don't occupy yourself with breaking my heart
There is plenty of time left to take jabs

Look at my eyes and for a moment
See the love in my soul
Don't deny me your warmth just yet
There is plenty of time to refuse my hugs

I know you'll soon be leaving my side
Is not you,is not me, its destiny tearing us apart
Even if you still loved me then
We'll be far apart

Its killing me inside
I want to be selfish for your love
Though I got to come to terms

I must let you go
But dont let me down so hard so soon
We have plenty of time to fall

Please give me
The best months of my life
And then you can leave
Make it seem like a dream
And then we can wake

Why end it so soon
When you know we'll be seeing each other
For a few months more

If we were meant to be
Than we will make it, far or near
But for now, can we please live in this happiness
Let us suspend it in time
January 8, 2011
694 · Dec 2010
Life, You Can't Take Me
Emanuel Martinez Dec 2010
Time, try and revenge me
Love, bereft me
Take control and break me

Money, try and trick me
Recognition, deceit me
Take control and addict me

I’ll be laughing
Even before you realize
You can’t take me

Anger, come try and fill me
Hatred, contend with me
Take control and blind me

Loneliness, try and consume me
Fear, run me down and corner me
Take control and weaken me

I’ll be laughing
Even before you realize
You can’t take me

Life, take care of me
Take a bite out of me
And destroy me

I'll be gone
Before you can shout glory
December 9, 2010
670 · Nov 2010
Feelings' Reality
Emanuel Martinez Nov 2010
Its been years, its been years
Almost there but not nearly out
The future is left in suspense due to fears

A glass vacuum is filled with good feelings
And happiness seems to cozen time
As the mind is caught in memory's vine
The unstable balance of it threatens to falter and topple

How well will this wonder withstand
The hard hits of reality as it strike the inside over and over again
More and more cracks over time
Deepen and seep in right into the core
Threatening to bring fears in

The glass vacuum will shatter
Intoxicating good feelings with realities
And the suspension of time will be absorbed by worries
It will simply rot the stillness that remains
June 24, 2010
662 · Oct 2011
Die of Love
Emanuel Martinez Oct 2011
I think I'm going to die of love

To be loved, to be needed, to be wanted
That's all I've ever wanted

Pebbles in the sand
Moving down underneath the stream

Our lives are washing away
with every stroke of water

Wasting away, eroding like precious metal
Emotions are changing color
They're getting older, they're getting bolder

I think I'm going to die of love

Facing every border, I'm holding on for it
The release of me, to be held and worn away

Candle breathing, dripping, burning
Our souls are hanging, our souls are begging
The warmth is only dim and disappearing

No, our souls are not freezing
The cold is just teasing

The channels are still shifting
The thought of love is hurtful

Going close to the edge
We're close to faltering, we're close to falling over

We're prey to love, we're frayed by love

I think I'm going to die of love
October 26, 2011
endorsinglife.blogspot.com
653 · Dec 2010
Life and Happiness
Emanuel Martinez Dec 2010
Happiness makes my face light up and smile
Even when the days are lousy
And the skies are really cloudy
All I wanna do is smile at you

Make the music bounce
And the atmosphere loud
Laughter is what fills the perfect soul
spirit wants to shout everything is alright

Happiness makes my face
Light up and smile
Suddenly I'm at the cliff
And I'm making a free-fall for the ground
The air around me is full of joy and I breath it in!
Suddenly you think I'm nuts
Because there's a smile plastered on my face

Well life is full of little moments
Can't help but contemplate
They should be taken with a smile
And a little ease of mind
2010
650 · Nov 2010
Confliction
Emanuel Martinez Nov 2010
Sometimes got to feel
A little hopeful
But end up disappointed

Got to feel a little happy
But instead end up sour

Done a lot to date
Accomplished and recognized
You'd think that be enough

Mask up troubles
Blur them out of mind
And just be proud

But if only one could settle
Without peace of mind
2009
648 · Sep 2011
In Love With Myself
Emanuel Martinez Sep 2011
I fell in love with myself
Touching the shallow end
Of the river bank close to my heart

Trying not to feel, feeling serene and loved
Every day I walk and I take everything
Get everything off my chest for you dear

Look in the mirror and watch that smile rise
Haven’t been there to take my own hand
Waiting for someone else to always be there

Watch me as I as step out of myself
I’m finally learning after time and time after time
I’m walking away, I’m stepping aside
I’m getting away, no matter what you say

I fell in love with myself
Touching the shallow end
Of the river bank close to my heart

We’ll always love me but were drifting away
Loving is settling in, it’s becoming a part of me
Trying to frame the goodness within

Outwearing the fears of my spirit
I’m no longer afraid; I’m no longer in fear
Crying is not showing the sadness of my heart

I’m tearing out of the joy in my soul
No longer belong to anyone else but myself
Flying away from myself, I’ve settled it down

I fell in love with myself
Touching the shallow end
Of the river bank close to my heart
September 14, 2011
endorsinglife.blogspot.com
619 · Dec 2010
Friends 'Till The End?
Emanuel Martinez Dec 2010
I love you

But I don't even miss you
Known each other for years
but life has finally led us apart

Suddenly your confused
Why do I love you so much
When you're so different than I

Can this friendship withstand
The test of a passing time

We're so far apart
We enjoy a laugh with someone else
And we forget to text back
Because were having a good time

I love you, I guess
Its been so long how could I not
But I don't even miss you
When I have to go out there alone
having an adventure everyday

You're no longer there
Beside every step I take
I used to think it would be impossible
Without you being there by my side
Thought I would be lost

Truth is I'm fine going at it alone
I'm spreading my wings and we're drifting apart

But don't worry this friendship is still intact
We ain't going nowhere

And even if we cease being friends
You will always be a part of my heart
November 2, 2010
593 · Dec 2010
Trapped Within
Emanuel Martinez Dec 2010
Don't have own voice
Its much too small
But wants to shout

Skies are filled with blue
But don't really see it
Cause sight is blind to light

Emotions almost burst out
But fears keep them trapped
so their bottled up inside

Music fills the atmosphere
But don't really hear it
Cause beautiful sounds are tuned out

Love wants to shine
Though it wont be let out
Cause mind demands control

Its a jar of jumbled up treasures
All beautiful but trapped within
October 6, 2010
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