i can’t fall for another
i can’t commit this crime again
i can’t love someone; more than myself
why do i do this to myself
over and over again

once again i find myself
in the same situation
loving someone; who doesn’t love me back
or won’t
what is it really?
my appearance
my character
my voice
my heart

it’s dark; everything
i need to love myself
before i allow someone else to do it
but that’s not a problem
my story does not end in love

i’m sorry
i don’t want to do this
but i have to
i can’t live like this
i can’t do this to you
i know you care
as do i
and sometimes the ones you care about
hurts you the most
i’m so sorry
this shall be done
i’ll cut down on our words
i’ll hide my emotions
i won’t tell you how my day has been
i won’t tell you i haven’t been eating properly, sleeping probably
i won’t tell you the pain i’m enduring
i won’t tell you what’s on my mind
i’m tired of finding the positive in every aspect
im sorry it’s all too draining
i guess my ****’s better with me
you’re better off without knowing it
i’ll save you the displeasure
as i care for you
far more than you do for me