I never stopped loving you. I just stopped showing you. The ones we trused the most pushed us far away.... Most of all i'm sorry i gave up on us when you never did. I'm dead inside i don't even understand myself, pain changed me and ****** everything up. I'm tired of feeling like i'm ******* crazy. I have no idea what im doing. I look around and everyone knows where they're headed. Or at least they know what they want. I'm lost. Anything i do is never good enough. I could be dead in a second. Everything's so fragile. Didn't you realize that? It's like a huge punch that's been through my chest. If i could read my mind you'd be in tears. Everyday it's a struggle. Everything's so dark now. I dont wanna be alone, i'm just tired you know? ******* tired. The worst day of loving someone you lose them.... I'm ****** up. I just always say/do the wrong things. You think you know people and then they surprise you. You don't know me at all and you never will.... Everyone leaves and life is dead. I'm sorry, i'm so ******* sorry. How could i been so stupid? I just want someone to save me. I drown in myself hate dying may be painful but being dead is painless. No kid should ever feel like they deserve cuts on their wrists. You made me go crazy! I cant let this happen again i just cant. Most of the times i was just desperate, suicidal, and angry. I'm useless.... To everyone. I deserve to die.