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5.0k · Sep 2011
Mistress
Elouise Roux Sep 2011
Each day she grows stronger.

All physical functions
require acute concentration
unwavering vigilance.

Her invisible shackle's bind me.

Tornadoes my conscience
weakens muscles, bruises skin
Splinters the soul.

Her outstanding weapon?
Relentless emotional chaos!
3.3k · Oct 2011
obsession
Elouise Roux Oct 2011
Unfocused vision
Blurry images of you
Torment my consience.
2.7k · Jul 2011
Jogging.
Elouise Roux Jul 2011
Earphones pumping rhythms to keep apace to.
Relaxed, steady, determined one leg at a time.
Hedgerows gliding past, forever long.

Blood pumping, harder stronger faster.
Chest is heaving, struggling gasping.
Back is tense, muscles constantly contracted.

Focussing on anything else but breathing
Impossible,yet it is lovely.
Like an old friend, thoughtlessness embraces me.
Caressing and Familiar.
1.5k · Jul 2011
Cricket.
Elouise Roux Jul 2011
Here we go again
Insistent chirping
All night long

Does weariness
Not chase you?
If not I will.

Brandishing a
Wok!
Brief moment of annoyance. Not supposed to be good.
1.5k · Aug 2011
My Idol
Elouise Roux Aug 2011
I would cling to your side happily content to be with you.
So strong nothing could touch me, your comforting words.
I had no reason to ever doubt them, you were never wrong.

My perfect idol so confident funny and independent.
Always fighting a cause of some kind, always winning.
Everything about you was something I admired.

I was so young blinded by my love for you, foolish.
All the confidence and humour was just a shield.
To protect the depression and insecurity's you faced.

Now I understand, my admiration has only grown for you.
That you kept up that façade constantly not faltering once.
All of it to provide a childhood for me, You are selfless perfect.
1.4k · Jun 2011
Escapism
Elouise Roux Jun 2011
I sit alone, with a thousand friends
Each is silent, but screaming.

I struggle hard.

Shouting
Begging
Pleading
Each is silent, but screaming.

I crave to respond,
Tho realitys clutch is tight.

Summoning
Appealing
Demanding
Each is silent, but screaming.

I fill with desire, yerning.
His grasp on me is slipping.

Come on!
We're Here!
NOW!
Each is silent, but screaming.

I evade his last restraint.

Embraced by each with pleasure.
Addicted, I stay in hiding.

Reality gone.
So am I.
1.3k · Jul 2011
Awake.
Elouise Roux Jul 2011
Sleep, evading me.
Torturing agony, Please!
Awake, immobile.
1.3k · Nov 2011
Taboo?
Elouise Roux Nov 2011
Such a taboo
it was never discussed
that forbidden topic
so how
how?
was I to identify
understand
accept what I felt
that tender age
Gay!
negatively tossed
about playgrounds
freely
pushing that thorn
ever deeper inside
burying
those give-away's
convincing myself otherwise
moulding
to average for the
ignorants acceptance
why?
so not to feel those
terrifying branding
labelling
Eyes.
1.3k · Aug 2011
Temper
Elouise Roux Aug 2011
Knucles cracking hard
Skin split bruised, enemy wall
Frustration released.
1.3k · Nov 2011
Back then
Elouise Roux Nov 2011
So young was I,
Back then.

Tight buns with tutus,
An undefined fuchsia on that stage.
Curtseying along for the applause,
Branded by spotlights.

Typically oblivious,
Like others prancing in the herd.
What shackeld influence had,
Diluted our impressionable
Selves.

A petals detail grown
On such feeble foundations.
Stemed from those early teachings,
Of the parents own unachieved
Dreams.

So young I was
  Back then.
1.2k · Sep 2011
Marionette
Elouise Roux Sep 2011
You wait patiently for them
To pull on those limp strings
Make you dance, sing, laugh
Just as they had before.

When you were new shiny
Your paint glossy and bright,
Infectous grinning eyes and
Cheerful wooden chatter.

They played with you daily
For their entertainment,
softened heart with attention
You performed on cue.

Left used and forgotten
Slumped in a dusty corner
Paint chipped and frowning,
Strings tangled with confusion.

Just a puppet, nothing more
They took your voice , dance
and soul, Without them
A dented lost old toy.
1.1k · Aug 2011
Masked
Elouise Roux Aug 2011
So arrogant and selfish
Only your opinion counts
What makes you perfect
There is no certificate
I want proof evidence
You are no better than me
Just different cowardly
That's what bothers you
My ideals are my own
As yours are those of others
Tiptoeing between guidelines
Peeping through that mask
Blinkered by conformity
It must be so simple
To judge others from afar
Hiding your honest self
For the sake of acceptance
Don't you sweat behind it?
Just a Random rant that came to me.
1.0k · Nov 2011
Window gazing.
Elouise Roux Nov 2011
Cheshires gleaming grin
Shines lopsided on midnights
Ebony canvas.
1.0k · Dec 2012
Take it.
Elouise Roux Dec 2012
Running wild like a galloping stallion
Inappropriate amazing arousing
Leaving one breathless paralysed
Yearning both for its end and power
She jumps in gives and takes it all
Any Strength I Had I'm willing take it
Take me away here now.
1.0k · Jul 2011
What am I?
Elouise Roux Jul 2011
Tears should be stinging my eyes
Yet nothing brews there.

Am I incapable of such emotions?

Fear
Sadness
Love
Anger

All I can muster is Numbness.
Is it a safety reflex?

To prevent me from facing what I truly feel.
From years of consoling others.

I remain robotic, incapable.
981 · Jul 2011
Daybreak
Elouise Roux Jul 2011
Morning arrives without invitation
Crisp light pierce's the gap in the curtain
Blinding like a floodlight, targeting and harsh.
Songs of birds filter through sickeningly sweet
It is to pure, the day has yet to be tainted
With unnatural urgency and false anxiety's.
They remain unaware of this bliss, sleeping
As I should be, awake with uncertainty's quiz
I bare witness to this blank page, untouched.
Waiting patiently for today's inscription.
966 · Jun 2011
Verbotene Liebe
Elouise Roux Jun 2011
Our hands entwined, expressing feelings no words can describe.
Fingertips reading every emotion with exact precision.
A new language fully mastered, due to necessity.

Sun, exaggerating our expressions for others to witness.
Penetrating the wall of friendship we are hidden behind.
Eyes asking the questions their mouths don't dare to utter.

Not in daylight public, that's against the unwritten rules.
Glares are probing, scolding, scrutinising and disgusted.
We are exposed to this criticism daily, without argument.

It is pointless, for they cannot hear our words.
Worthless is explanation, their small minds are made.
Creatures we are, unholy a different species entirely.

They preach mercy, forgiveness, and understanding.
Yet they do not practise it.
Unworthy of acceptance, is it that much to ask?
955 · Feb 2013
Before my time.
Elouise Roux Feb 2013
Did you hear?
Did you see?
Do you enjoy a cup of tea?

Why yes extremely loud.
Of course its hardly missed.
Indeed i do, multiple as the case may be.

What about the quiet?
What about the young?

Its a pleasing luxury rarely available.
Intolerable rude disrespectful.

Are you aware?

Of what my dear?

The colour of your hair.
951 · Jul 2011
Wine
Elouise Roux Jul 2011
You attack me when I am weak, helpless powerless to defend.

Why?

Simply because you can!

Everything becomes a joke, nothing is meant or meaningful.
Not with you.

Words are spilt, not spoken.

Sense, Reason, Purpose.
None of these describe you.
I crave that escape.

Hate and Love collide, become one.
I no longer exist, you embody me now.

Still aware, you grant me with memory.

Why?

Because you can, simple!
942 · Aug 2011
Temporary Guest.
Elouise Roux Aug 2011
You arrived without warning or reason
Buying your way into our lives
I am a fool for not questioning it.

You joked smiled dished out compliments
Gullible tired I failed to notice the motive
I see it now clear as day, but its to late.

You are beyond helpful and sweet
It's sickening most of its an act
Another one of your deceitful tools.

You are better than the rest of them?
It's your eyes they are blank glassy
Impossible to read, just that stare.

You got what you wanted easily
Fitted in like a lost puzzle piece
Enough for her, that compatibility.

You are the stranger I met once
The charming temporary guest
Still to this day, You never left.
927 · Nov 2011
Let it out!
Elouise Roux Nov 2011
Overwhelming pride
Radiates ecstatically
Towards those relieved.
895 · Aug 2011
Shadow demon.
Elouise Roux Aug 2011
We are one in the same
Observing quietly unseen
Hidden in the corners
Sometimes in plain sight
We are misjudged
That irrational fear
Paralysing and frightful
Mistaken for evil
We are the saviours
More so than angels
Our appearance though
Induces hatred and terror
We remain shadows
Ever watchful and protecting.
889 · Oct 2012
desire.
Elouise Roux Oct 2012
I'm
Bored
Chase me
Throw me down
Bind my arms legs
Let the wax drip burn
I'm tired of this control
Take it from me If you can
A Passion so demanding
Make me scream
Clear loud
Please!
863 · Jul 2011
Readers.
Elouise Roux Jul 2011
Eyes devouring each sentence
Savouring every word
Tasting thoughts, feelings
So carelessly served
Before such judging critiques
Scrutinising and harsh.
859 · Jul 2011
Last Goodbye
Elouise Roux Jul 2011
You failed to warn me
It was easier, better that way
For you maybe.

Time was your enemy
Stolen thoughtlessly
It continues to bully me.

Youthful memories fade
Becoming cloudy, unclear
Just splintered fragments.

I did not understand
You were fast asleep
Told to say goodbye.

They done the same
With tears streaming
Gave you my last kiss with a child's ignorance.
858 · Dec 2011
Snakes & Ladders
Elouise Roux Dec 2011
My counter sits patiently
as always on that square
waiting!

For chance of your die
to land you on a merciful
ladder.

I have risked my way
now just before the finish
No. 99

Slid down those reptiles
Escaped their constrictions
fought.

It wasn't easy, what is?
I understand your reserve
Honestly.

My game was easier
I had a more forgiving
Board.

Whispered once before
I will always be there, still plays
True.

Only together will I brave
No. 100, so my counter stays
Roll.
828 · Jun 2011
Friday Night Fling.
Elouise Roux Jun 2011
Never unexpected, never planned.
Fuel'd by a liquid confidence.
Cheesy chat up lines slurred at the bar.

Flattered by attention, cheeks flush.
Speedy check up in the powder room.
Touched up, Taxi's dial'd.

Time enough for a lucky shot.
Address? unprepared, both are given.
Eyes are rolled in the rear view mirror.

Payments made hastily, no change wanted.
Front door provides a challenge.
Stumbling through in an awkward embrace.

Side lamps smashed as shoes kicked off.
Collapsing with satisfaction, gyration begins.
Clumsy, inexperienced.  Oh God

Knotted stomach, dry tongue and self loathing.
Clothes gathered in utter silence.
Taxi dial'd, coffee craved in want of a new identity.
780 · Jun 2011
Pulse
Elouise Roux Jun 2011
Scared, eyes are heavy.
Adrenaline pumping fast.
Horror excites me.
Watching a horror film at the time.
775 · Feb 2013
Smokey senses.
Elouise Roux Feb 2013
If only it was so
to grasp claim bottle
delete
What is so
evasisive yet direct
as those mesmorising swirls
of memmory
such a sizable spectrum
shifting softly
drematically
caused by so simple
a trigger
Invading that grey
ensareing
A
previously lost
Sense.
773 · Jan 2012
I wasn't prepared.
Elouise Roux Jan 2012
Injured? far from it,
Such acute intensity
Emits, it's longing.
761 · Dec 2012
Cracklin' Rosie
Elouise Roux Dec 2012
Filled with such glee
A grinning idiot
Fuel'd by nothing more
Than a nostalgic tune.
This song holds such happy memories that i found myself grinning :)
757 · Dec 2011
Confused Tides
Elouise Roux Dec 2011
Treading waters deep
Gorgeous stunning dangerous
Anxious for a float.
738 · Oct 2012
scared.
Elouise Roux Oct 2012
Can't escape from here
A cage without bars, doors, keys
Free but terrified.
734 · Jul 2011
Art.
Elouise Roux Jul 2011
It comes from inspiration
Of life's constant brutality
Filling us to the brim it
Spills uncontrollably
Some outrageous
Daring all of it beautiful
Flaunting originality
Pushing society's boundaries
Influential and necessary
Never will it die.
726 · Jul 2011
Intoxication.
Elouise Roux Jul 2011
Apologies are all I can offer
I didn't intend to lead you on
Sorry for what I have caused.

It was the result of intoxication
So don't make more of it than that
You knew this deep down.

I feel for someone, but not you
We were both lonely
Just craving that attention.

What you want is not me
But the comfort of companionship
I wont give you that, for its a lie.
703 · Jan 2012
Relief/ Grief?
Elouise Roux Jan 2012
I would be lying to say i'll miss you
For to truly miss someone
It requires more
Than a few
Shadowy memmories
A shared bloodline
Family name.

Does this make me cold heartless
The lack of tears
I have shed
For the news of your passing?
It has long been my responsibility
To provide a shoulder
Comforting words
Tissue's.

To those that are close to me
Who held stronger bonds
With you
Their painful loss expressed
So passionately
Reliving nostalgic moments
From childhood visits
Spent in your home.

You had been gone for a while
Altzeimers
Stole the person they once knew
Also made them stranger's
Despite the desperate reminders
"Mum I am your daughter"
For one glimpse
Any slight recognition
A brief act of yourself.

You are peaceful now
No more broken memmory
Living for being alive
Just a merciful sleep
Complete at rest
With
A loving family
To honour
Your fulfilled life
Memmory.

Is it wrong to feel relief
Instead of grief?
674 · Oct 2011
TM
Elouise Roux Oct 2011
TM
Each one
Creates a wave
Larger than the last
Butterflys deeper and teasing
Control composure lost, tossed aside
Intense wanting bullied by that separation.
673 · Nov 2012
Goodbye My Lover
Elouise Roux Nov 2012
She was swallowed up without
Appriciation
Taste
Love
Poured into that
Heartless
Ceramic
Bowl
Before her time
Drunken
Tears
Shed
Accompanied with frequent
Episodes
of
Hysteria.
Oh the memories XD
662 · Dec 2011
A long game.
Elouise Roux Dec 2011
Again in limbo
Rallying loves confessions
Settling for deuce?
658 · Jan 2013
swimming salvation.
Elouise Roux Jan 2013
Water is safety
It is comfort, clarity
A transparent friend.
657 · Oct 2012
one step further
Elouise Roux Oct 2012
Miles
We have
Made together
Light and darkness
The latter bothered you
Not me for I ate my carrots
Cleaner feels the air still comforting
If our attire was less concealing
Challenge more would I
Not without you ever
Roads stretching
Far from
Here.
653 · Jun 2011
Day to Day
Elouise Roux Jun 2011
Is this all, everything?

Mistrust is easy, safe.
Love is torturing.

Pain is refreshing, expected.
Silence is deafening.

Darkness is soothing, complete.
Light is blinding.

Longing is natural, common.
Happiness is teasing.

Hate is power, strength.
Normailty is dreaming.

Is this all, everything?
I haven't written poetry for a while, so don't take this to seriously thanks.
638 · Jul 2011
Distance.
Elouise Roux Jul 2011
Missing you daily.
Thoughts seeping in, caressing.
Wanting, constantly.
637 · Apr 2012
Crying Tree
Elouise Roux Apr 2012
I'm not evergreen
Roots have changed, I still stand tall
My leaves however, fall.
573 · Dec 2012
What do i want?
Elouise Roux Dec 2012
What I want is not apparent to me.
Is it to others written on my face?
They seem to know better than I
Or is that I know but refuse to vocalise?
Of course, life is only as complicated as we make it.
So why don't we act change what is needed?
Simple, lazy cowardice.
572 · Nov 2011
Glass wings
Elouise Roux Nov 2011
Forced it to lie dormant
and non existent
for it crippled me before
that feeling
I had for you
like an addiction though
my heart wasn't in it
not for a second
did that feeling fade
magnificently
fragile as a glass wing
butterfly
Is love.
551 · Jan 2012
Whats not said.
Elouise Roux Jan 2012
It's all there
Floating delicately
Ripples of hurt disturbing
The tranquil pool's of sleepy eye's
With invisible waves of secret honesty
Truthfully portraying what choaked words can't
Everything's been seen and told, just hold me close.
542 · Jun 2011
Interpretation.
Elouise Roux Jun 2011
Word's cutting me deep.
Not physical pain, But worse!
Misinterpreted.
531 · Nov 2011
It should be easy.
Elouise Roux Nov 2011
So many questions
I do not dare verbalise
Fearful I'm frozen.
521 · Jul 2011
Stuck in the middle.
Elouise Roux Jul 2011
Wanting, waiting, asking.
Expecting what cannot be given.
Youthful and inexperienced.

Yet they do not acknowledge this.
Told blatantly, ignorance is chosen.
Truth is not accepted.

Despite how it is needed.
False security, lies are wanted.
They will not receive it.

Not from me.
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