You arrived without warning or reason
Buying your way into our lives
I am a fool for not questioning it.

You joked smiled dished out compliments
Gullible tired I failed to notice the motive
I see it now clear as day, but its to late.

You are beyond helpful and sweet
It's sickening most of its an act
Another one of your deceitful tools.

You are better than the rest of them?
It's your eyes they are blank glassy
Impossible to read, just that stare.

You got what you wanted easily
Fitted in like a lost puzzle piece
Enough for her, that compatibility.

You are the stranger I met once
The charming temporary guest
Still to this day, You never left.

So arrogant and selfish
Only your opinion counts
What makes you perfect
There is no certificate
I want proof evidence
You are no better than me
Just different cowardly
That's what bothers you
My ideals are my own
As yours are those of others
Tiptoeing between guidelines
Peeping through that mask
Blinkered by conformity
It must be so simple
To judge others from afar
Hiding your honest self
For the sake of acceptance
Don't you sweat behind it?

It comes from inspiration
Of life's constant brutality
Filling us to the brim it
Spills uncontrollably
Some outrageous
Daring all of it beautiful
Flaunting originality
Pushing society's boundaries
Influential and necessary
Never will it die.

Eyes devouring each sentence
Savouring every word
Tasting thoughts, feelings
So carelessly served
Before such judging critiques
Scrutinising and harsh.

Morning arrives without invitation
Crisp light pierce's the gap in the curtain
Blinding like a floodlight, targeting and harsh.
Songs of birds filter through sickeningly sweet
It is to pure, the day has yet to be tainted
With unnatural urgency and false anxiety's.
They remain unaware of this bliss, sleeping
As I should be, awake with uncertainty's quiz
I bare witness to this blank page, untouched.
Waiting patiently for today's inscription.

You failed to warn me
It was easier, better that way
For you maybe.

Time was your enemy
Stolen thoughtlessly
It continues to bully me.

Youthful memories fade
Becoming cloudy, unclear
Just splintered fragments.

I did not understand
You were fast asleep
Told to say goodbye.

They done the same
With tears streaming
Gave you my last kiss with a child's ignorance.

Apologies are all I can offer
I didn't intend to lead you on
Sorry for what I have caused.

It was the result of intoxication
So don't make more of it than that
You knew this deep down.

I feel for someone, but not you
We were both lonely
Just craving that attention.

What you want is not me
But the comfort of companionship
I wont give you that, for its a lie.