One
You were the first boy I let touch me and that's all it ever was.

Two
I learned how I didn't want to be treated from you.
I can't even remember how you ****** me.
It's almost like it never happened.

Three
I was so in love with you but you didn't care.
Every time you came I hoped you'd love me a little more.
But I was just another faceless place to put your ****.

Four
I felt as though I'd known you my whole life.
You were my best friend.
You still are and I don't know what that means.

Five
It was an accident and never should have happened.
We should have stayed friends without benefits.

Six
There was something about you.
If only things had been different.
You probably could have been more than just my boss.

Seven
We never talked about it back then.
We were just friends that had *** when you were drunk.
Years later, we didn't need to keep it a secret from each other.

Eight
I wish I had never met you.
I can't even remember those two years.
You ruined them.

Nine
I loved you, but you loved your wife more.
*******. **** her. **** Arizona.

Ten
We could have been great friends.
We dated instead.
I like to ****.
You like to ******* in the shower.
We barely had anything in common.

Eleven
We needed each other.
You seemed to think I was such a good person.
So good that you had to get away fast.

Twelve
It was fun and I didn't have to love you.

Thirteen
The fantasy of you was so much better than the real thing.

Fourteen
I could have loved you.
You never wanted that.
Everything you said was probably a lie.
I don't even know if that's true.

The sky is violet and no one knows.
It's the purple that purple was meant to be.
Brighter than plum and more perfect than grape.
It's violet like the way it feels for that person to touch you.
Light can come from their fingertips and shock your skin.
That kind of purple.
It holds a softness more beautiful than silk.
It's so royal and lovely that you know it's going to destroy us all.

Always beneath
Certain days end forever
Geniuses hold idioms
Just **** lamentations
Many normal old people
Question reason
Still, tomorrow usually varies
Whether xenon yields zeniths.

"Don't," was all she could say.

Love: the way to destroy someone.

What if he never comes back?

You've no idea who we are.

I never meant to love you.

He ****** her with a vengeance.

We're in a waiting room.
It's dark and chairs line the walls.
There are five other people.
We're all sitting on the floor.
Two men come in.
They both have guns.
Without hesitation,
One of them shoots a girl in the head.
I scream and you held me.
I start crying and the man shoots
Everyone else, one by one.
The other man just stands there.
Never speaking or moving.
The shooter steps over the five bodies.
He stands in front of us.
I sob into your shoulder.
You look up at him.
He says,
"Do you see how easy it is
To end someone's life?"
He turns and they leave,
Shutting the door behind them.

Oh Becca, dear Becca
Your sunrise hair makes me happy
I love how weird you are
Using your glasses to hold things
You make me laugh
You listen
I see your beauty
Inside and out
In your child
Life without you would be the worst
You're my rock
My best friend
I'm so glad Dan got you high

Fin.