I would like
To witness you in another habitat,
And childishly pester you at work,
And awkwardly make pointless conversation-
Just enough to keep you wondering
If I came to see you or not.

I would like
To delicately undress your mind,
And walk up out of nowhere,
And playfully invite with a coy little smile-
To discuss your philosophy
Under the mundane guise of “coffee”.

I would like
To introduce my spirit to yours,
And let them circle each other in the park,
And sniff out each other’s aetherous attributes-
Perhaps initiating a game of fetch
Between two nervous systems.

I would like
To steal a busy night away,
And show you all my mundane wonders,
And see what you have to say-
Could you ascend truths in my walls
Unbeknownst even to me?

I would like
To be perfectly forward,
And say “You sparkle and intrigue me,
And I would like to get to know you better,” -
Do people do that?
I would like to.

I couldn't remember anything about particle physics or lucid dreams when I was the sky. I could only be, I could only swirl across the great paradox of everything and nothing. I could only watch the things that happened within me. It was like a beautiful symphony, one that needed me but operated without me, one that defined me without taking a single chisel to my being.

So what was it like to be the sun? You changed me daily. You let my core revolve around you and you helped me spin. You let me see new places, you clouded me and cleared me, you cut through me and reached in deep and redecorated my insides with barely a word. But when you cracked, when you went supernova on this little quiet galaxy, you burned right through me and exposed my insides to the elements. My outer glow was gone, my inner self was singed, and what I thought I was, I wasn't. It was like watching a plane crash. It was like I was a passenger who learned he was a pilot but couldn't stop the fall.

So what was it like to be the tiny crack that tore the engine off?

I know I'll never know what you were thinking, but I know I'll always wonder. I know I'll wake up and it will all have been a crazy dream, but I know I'll never shake this feeling that we're all not quite here. We're all shedding skins. We've all died in our sleep and we've all opened our eyes on the other side. We're all living on another new day, thousands of years from the last one. We'll never know the difference every time that the world ends. Here we are again. Where are we again?

Wherever you are today, whoever you are today, remember that we start again each morning and you're the one dreaming this up, so make it a good one, yeah? Do it for me, because I still remember the day you were the sun and the day I was the sky, and you owe me one, love, for letting you go. Whoever I am, whoever you are, let's get going before we all start all over again. Alright?

Alright.

Okay?

Okay.

[Aug. 9, 2011]

Are we thinking or are we just doing?
Did you mean what you said, or were you only fooling?
What we had wasn't just a game to me
In case you were wondering, you murdered me.

You shot down my happiness and destroyed everything I knew
If only you had held on a little longer, then maybe I'd still be with you
But instead you gave up, you stopped in your tracks
You threw it all away, and I'll never have you back

Why did you care about what everyone else wanted?
The choice was ours, and now it's left haunted
How we felt should've been the only thing that mattered
Where did we go wrong, why is my heart shattered?

I don't know what your intentions were, why did you change your mind?
Was everything we went through all just a waste of time?
What if we started over, would you **** me once again?
Or maybe forget our shot at love, would you still be my friend?

Was it all just a dream that has become a nightmare?
Will I see you again or were you never there?
If I close my eyes tightly, will you still be standing there?
Or will I open them to see nothing, but my own tears?

As they run down my face, I will realize the truth in this
I will never hold your hand, feel your touch or receive your kiss
I can forgive you for the pain I'm in, but I will never forget
The way you made me feel and all the sweet things that you said

Sands of time
Falling in space
Never seeming to reach their destination

An eternal love
Grapping for freedom
In a cold uncaring cauldron

Time caught in a warp
Never seeming
To move forward
Holding them frozen
In a state of wanting

Two lost souls
Magnetically intertwined
Kept apart
By the apathy of the clock

Distorted measure
Holding them hostage
Until the grains fall
Through the oppressive ooze
As they keep pulling against
The tyrannical forces
That keep them distant

And the longing for the day
Grows ever stronger
Ever dynamic
So vigorous in nature
That it sweeps them away

To a place where they belong
Together in perfection
Across the metaphysical plane
Until the time comes