Broken hearted all alone,
Numbness, tiredness , all commonly known.
Too much too often, well worn out,
Tears, cold and sadness I want to shout.

No one to blame, no one but me,
Not only knowing the solution is me.
Only myself can pick me up,
Must keep going cannot stop.

Jamie and Hannah to think of, at times I wonder why?
Would they not both be better off if I would simply die.

I'm here in the present, and I know I've made the right choice,
There is no longer tenderness in your touch or love in your voice.
All the hurt and pain I'd gone through before,
Felt nothing compared to my numb body and mind so sore.

I can't take anymore, I promised I wouldn't,
I'm sure you weren''t capable and hoped that you couldn't.

Wrong once again , unpredictable and confused,
It has always been strange what kept you amused.

Hurt openly and apologise and then hurt again,
I must shut you out of my life if I am to remain sane.

His shadow glides past the window, and door opens wide,
That welcoming invitation to join him by his side.
The walk around is relaxed and warm,
The security and reassurance I'll come to no harm.

A week full of tension, all now in the past,
An hour to express, relax and sit fast.
I walk out the door my conscience now clear,
A smile on my face and no sign of a tear.

I'm happy I made the phone call and happier still,
another week, another visit and there will be several more ..there will .

Friends forever we will always be,
But in a relationship there is no room for three.
The time is not right, although we hoped it was.
Another time further on is reserved for us.

The hurt I no longer want to feel,
If you are not there it is no longer real.
The hurt, the lonliness, the emptiness is back,
But it is only I , I need keep in tack.

One day maybe ! how soon I do not know,
Right here, right now I MUST let you go...Love You

Oh little baby child of mine,
Not just in my body, but in my mind.
I won't ask for forgiveness , where would I start,
One day we'll be re-united, I place my hand on my heart.
They say you cannot love what you do not yet know,
But, you are a little person with a right to live and grow.
Had things been different the situation more clear,
I'd let nobody harm you or even get near.
As I place my hand on my tummy I say 'good-bye',
I won't lose the pain from my heart or the tears from my eyes.

The end of an era, the end of the pain,
A promise made to each other that we will smile again.

Our love will live in each others heart forever,
But it's not enough anymore to keep us togehter.

Ten years have passed and we are hurting each other more,
Weak minds and bodies our hearts both sore.

Here's to the future and I hope this is the right choice,
I'll miss the tenderness of your touch and the love in your voice.

I stand by your grave and watch your smiling face,
My eyes weep and my heart does race.
I say you are lucky to have left it all behind,
In my heart I search for an answer to find.
...why it doesn't matter anymore, only now you are happy and no longer sore.

My tears they have not stopped flowing the pain it has not gone,
Those words they echo in my mind..'He's DEAD..your brother John'.

I know one day I'll meet you, how soon I do not know,
Waiting patiently for the call that says... 'It's time to go'.