I smile
We laugh and talk of the usual things
Summer, Fall, Winter to Spring
I see you as more
You see me as well
So we're together, blossoming with love
I smile
I can't help it!
There's something in your eyes
I trust you with myself
You trust me back
We now have a bond, untouchable
I give to you, you give to me
We complete each other it seems
I smile
Doubts.
Suddenly you're leaving
Nothing to be done
I dream and pray that you'll find a way
You wonder if I'll ever betray
That's something I would *never do
Your doubts and distrust
My fears and panic
We are apart
I smile
You are not leaving, no
And even if you were, so?
Can't love break through anything?
I see that without you I am not whole
Part of me is gone
I'm lonely without you
You feel the same?
Then together again, we're glad
I smile
Now we take it one step further
You hold me, as I hold you
Never let this moment end* I pray
Then you surprise me
A kiss
So simple, yet so wonderful
Another, more, and longer
I feel the bond grow so much stronger
So strong in fact, and everlasting
I start to doubt
I smile
I feel I must, for your sake
If you detect anything amiss
You would be hurt beyond belief
But still this persistant nagging,
Too intense, too much pressure
Are you sure he loves you?
Do you really love him?
I smile
Yet you see right through it all
You know something is gone
Something is lost
You **** a little, and out comes too much
We can't be together
Living this lie
I don't love you, you don't love me
How childish do you want to be?
To believe in something you've never felt.
I see your eyes fill with tears
Of anger and distrust and sorrow
I see this pain and can no longer bear it
Anymore
I smile
For your sake
Maybe if everything seems alright to me
You will heal faster
I see you grieving, as though someone died
I want to run to you,
To hold you
To comfort and tell you I feel the same way!
....
But if I do, won't that just undo all of the
Acting,
Protecting, and
Careful avoidance of your eyes
That I've been suffering through
Only to try to help you?
So though it hurts more than words could say,
Though everything in me longs for us again,
Though all I want is your arms and heart,
I stand tall,
Act normal,
And Smile