Elizabeth Halaas

Elizabeth Halaas Dec 2011

The world
Or him

Choose between
A safe, calm, ignorant life
And the
Right life for me

My parents' ideals
Or mine

Give in, give up this pain
And forever lose him

My heart breaks at this
Choice

I've given up my
Friends, comfort, dreams,
Nearly everything
For him
And now this

I wish it wasn't so hard, but
It's still worth the pain
If you have true love
If you have salvation
If you have a happy life
Why would you give it all up?
For a faulty marriage,
Damnation, and a lifetime
Of regrets

I won't
I refuse to let this go

They can hurt me,
Take everything away from me,
But they can't change this
And if they can't accept it
I'll leave

Elizabeth Halaas Dec 2011

Once

High
Up on top of cloud nine
If I sing I'll jump
An octave or more

I feel like smiling
Like laughing and running
No, not running away
Running to you!
Running into your arms,
Laughing as we
Embrace
Once more

This won't last forever
So I'll hold on
To this joy that I
Feel like nothing is wrong

It all comes back
To You

Without you I'd be
Nothing

I can't see life
Without your words
Your life means so much

I can hide nothing
From you
Nor do I want to

With each boundry
We cross
The more confident
I grow,
That we will have
Forever; of course, to this
I won't admit, that
*You're the one

Elizabeth Halaas Dec 2011

Two Worlds in Darkness

The city sleeps
A moment in time

As every shadow grows
The light in my eyes grows farther

Lights, far and distant
Glowing perpetually as the sky
Clouded over from rain

A message, but it is no more
Than a wish

Soft, wet sprinkles of life
Fall upon my hard fingertips

A door, a small flash

I try so hard to see,
To see only that I wish not to see

A gentle breath across my face
Ice cool against my pulsing flesh

The night grows deep blue at one side
The far country of the east
The orange sky to the west is the city

Quiet and calm
Pulsing and constant
Both joyous and calming

A light goes out,
Though I never saw it on

A door, once again

This ever-present light
Separates me
But my love is equal
In both worlds

The city sleeps

Elizabeth Halaas Dec 2011

My Baby

Beautiful child

Soul of my soul

                                        Oh, how I long to touch you,

  To teach you, to heal you,
  To help you, to reach you

  To feel you   g r o w i n g   inside of me
  To *know so much more than I now can see

*Baby, my baby

                           To have my own family

                                          I long for a child of my own

Elizabeth Halaas Dec 2011

Daddy

Daddy, I miss you
Why are you gone?
Because I have dreams to fulfill

Daddy, I need you
Why are you gone?
Because you have others to guide you

Daddy, I hate you
Why are you gone?
Because my own life needs me now

Daddy, I love you
Why are you gone?
The silence is so hard to fill.

Elizabeth Halaas Dec 2011

To A Stranger

I cannot see you now.
I cannot hear you call me Angel,
Nor can I taste your lips on mine,
I cannot tell you the truth.
I remember.
Us.
I recall everything.
The music, the magic, the love,
It's all still inside me, and there is it alone.
For no one can say it is right to hold on,
So long after you and I are gone.
But the me that I was
Remembers the us
That cannot exist anymore.

Do you recall any of this?
Would you say you care or miss
The days we had when we were young?
I know it is right for us to move on,
But sometimes when I'm lonely
And sometimes when I'm glad
I think of all the time we had

And how you used to hold me
And how you used to love me
And how I had to hurt you to set you free
And above all, I hope you forgive me
Because I did what I needed to do
To help you move on and to draw some boundries
And in another life I would take it back
In a life where you're meant for me
But you're not
So all I can say is
I'm Sorry

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