Are my tears forced or real?
Are my emotions truly what I feel?
Or do I just stand and wait?
As if to say my heart will take any plain, old bait
As if the only happiness I will ever see is that of others,
The ones with a happy mom and dad, a sister and of cause those annoying brothers.

The ones who haven’t felt this level of pain,
Maybe the kind that the earth feels when hit by the rain,
But not the kind to make a notebook and pen become a best friend.
Not the kind to make solitude the only thing you’d defend.

No, not the kind to make you feel lonely in a crowded room.
Not the kind to take your reason to life away with a great, big boom.

I envy those that have what I do not,
I hate those that can love what I can not,
I miss those that left me behind…
I wish those memories wouldn’t haunt my mind.

The memories of walking into my first stage of hell,
Tears that could overflow a bottomless well,
Screams of help that could make a deaf person cringe
And teardrops so acidic they could cause my skin to singe

All apart what I am, both strong and weak.
Parts of the past that will always cause a tear to roll down my cheek

And you ask if I’m doing well?
If you must know.. I’m in my second stage of hell.
Seven more to go from here
I’ll let you know if I ever get back to where my heart is near.

- E. A. F

I played games when we never knew each other
The me who I thought I was, would now stutter
I didn't know what it felt like to fall for someone
I always thought that they'd hear my story and run

But then you didn't at first. You held my hand
You took me to a happy never never land
You said my I'm okay could become truthful
But that opinion soon became neutral.

Where the games were once fun for you
It soon became too much for you too
You never thought you'd have to save a life
You backed away to save yourself the strife.

I've been found out on all the games I've played
Each one was just another brick I've laid
To build my walls higher for my own safety
I tried to lock them away but you found the key

Was I meant to understand the repercussions
That each turn would lead to these discussions
That with every act i once did would undoubtedly
Lead to the moment where we're no longer a we

- EAF

As the cherry blossoms reached for one another
A lady filtered through her memories of yesterday
From her first concert to her very first lover
To the first time she was forced into the fray.

As the winds blew and the leaves danced
Her memories became something of the past
Faces became a blur and unrecognizable at a glance
And all she felt was hidden behind a sorrowful mask

Everything she once knew was fading out.
Replacing confidence with a fearful doubt
Each step, each corner changed in a haste
Each word, each breath became a waste.

No one to help her anymore
All she could do was change her window to a door

- E.A.F

I want my life filled with a feeling of happiness,
a feeling that replaces this loneliness
A feeling that makes me awaken with a smile
A feeling that shows up and stays for a long while

But even if it so happens that it won't last
Because of our twisted past
I would at least know that it was true
Because of what you did and felt too

I know I'm asking for more
Than I've ever asked before
But when do I ever ask for any assistance?
Never,
So now I'm just hoping this will make a difference

I'm not asking for perfection
I'm asking for protection
I'm not asking for a knight for my arm
I'm asking for a person who is my good luck charm

Just for someone who loves me
Someone to set my mind free
A person that's worth loving
A person that deserved all my hugging

- E.A.F

I find myself sitting here
Wondering what’s over there
And the only answer is nothing
When it should be something.

Because I’ve seen lives handed out,
And some being thrown out.
Yet we just sit by waiting for the next one…
Not sure if they’ve lost or won.

’cause to be freed from here,
We know, could be the only cure
A cure to the disease we’ve spread
Its the only thing our planet has been fed

Pollution, greed, destruction and more.
Its plenty more than what we hoped for.
We hoped to recreate this world
But our intentions have be swirled

We fought for our lives
Yet we destroy what is left to revive
We fought for our humanity
Yet we destroy it in pointless vanity

We’ve walked through the moments
But I refuse to ignore these events
Not sensing the countless mishaps
I keep thinking
“Perhaps..”

Perhaps someone will hear this truth
Not take it as a lie but as proof
That we need to change our ways
If not soon, then we’ll say good bye to our yesterdays

“Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot,
Nothing is going to get better. Its not.”

- E.A.F

I see no need for this violence
Its crazy, stupid and senseless
It turns the capable to powerless
And the strong to defenseless

It screams are the killings from the merciless
The shots in the air are the shells becoming a known emptiness
The cold bodies in the mud, left lifeless
And the wounded left homeless

And I can’t begin to pretend to be sightless
I can’t turn a blind eye and fake righteousness
And I won’t sit by ideally and say I’m fearless
When, if I were, I would be out there do something to priceless…

If I were I would be saving the lives of those left behind
And I would search for what generations before us could never find.
Peace.

- E. A. F

You may see me as an eagle
Soaring just above the scarlet sunset
But you don't see my inner struggle
So much so its as if we've never met

Friends in theory
Strangers in practice
My minds corrupt and scary
Yours moralized with a sense of justice

I look at you and see civilization
You look at me and think we are the same
And I know you just haven’t come to the realization
That in this tragedy I am to blame

You look at it all and still see a silver lining
But all I see is the eye of a hurricane
Even though you see a light ever so blinding
I’m struck with a swirling gust of pain

But in a perfect world
Parallel to that of our own
My hair would be naturally curled
10111 wouldn’t be set on my phone
And I would be content
I wouldn’t have to repent.

- E. A. F

What if the person you see now
Is not worth a single “wow”
What if she loves too easily
But doesn’t have that kind of loyalty

Maybe, she only cares for herself
Maybe she is emotionally wrecked
Maybe she thinks to harm herself
Maybe she shouldn’t be seen a perfect…

’cause the pressure is eating at her
And she can only think of one single cure
A way to live a happy life for good
Is for her to no longer hide under a hood..

- E.A.F

I wish reincarnation was true
So this wasn't the last version of you
You'd be born with different eyes
But have the same soul that never lies

See the colour of your hair will change
But that's just like you anyway
And we might be different in age
But we'd be the same as yesterday

To some yesterday isn't a lot of time
But you were in so many yesterday's of mine

Its as simple as that
Its the down to earth fact
That I only have 3 words
To make all the birds
Go chirpidy-chirp

To make all those nerds
Crumble at your feet
With their pocket protectors, awaiting every meet

These three words
Cause all of my sighs
And the regret to those goodbyes
The butterflies to the sweet hellos
Cause your not like all the other fellows

These three words have been held inside me
Unsure of what will be
Unable to set them lose
Afraid I’d being chasing a goose

But with every word you’ve said
A truthful smile followed suit
With a kiss upon your forehead
And something cute

And when things became clear as day
I just wanted to say
Something that close to me and true
I love you

- E. A. F

Rooms of multiple emotions
Each step taken with my inhibitions
A breath of stale air
Lead to feelings I couldn’t bare

A flash of memory and hope
Only to be shot through a snipers scope
The past and future were probably dead
This only caused the fire to b feed

Each room was over flowed
Some dark, others glowed
Unable to see right from wrong
Not knowing when to be strong
Or how to be weak
And let that tear run down my cheek

You see, in the mist of these nightmares,
I wondered if anyone truly cared
Fore I sat alone in that corridor
And asked for something more

Something to cause me glee
Instead of an instinct to flee
Then a hand appeared in mid-air
I looked and wondered how it got there

And then a saw a beaut
She was as young as I
But as we locked eyes
She morphed, she aged
She shifted and changed

To someone who never lies
To someone who saved me from my own demise
And despite all the trouble
Refused to let me crumble

My rooms now glow with all my pain gone
That’s the reason I call you my Mom !!

- E. A. F

We’ve shared moments I couldn’t explain
Some of love, some of joy and even pain
You were my comfort during the lonely nights
Even if you went crazy everytime you saw lights

You and I were the best of buds from day one
Some found your craziness to be a lose, I was convinced I had won
’cause what came with your weirdness
Was a heart that was never emotionless

You waited for me everyday after school
You may have even acted like the biggest fool
And maybe you were in some ways
But I loved you any ways

So I’ll try not to be too sad that you left
And I’ll try not to consider your hold on my heart as theft
Because you were there when I was in need of love
I guess I just can’t handle that you’re now living in the sky above….

- E.A.F

Don’t let them get you down
Just turn away and look around
You know how hard life is
So don’t let them do this

You should know you’re more than average
You’re got that spark in need of a stage
You’ve got a voice in need of a mic
If you get that, what’s not to like?

Do you understand what you are?
You’re a wish made upon a shooting star

You’ve got the courage of a lion
So don’t let them get you crying
You’ve got the heart of a saint
So don’t you dare think to faint

You’re stronger than the big mighty shark
Even though you’re scared of the dark
You’re louder than the great typhoon
Yet you don’t get up before noon

Don’t you see what you could be?
You could be the one and only
The one to set the world a light
Not with flames but with your might

- E.A.F