This isn't just a poem
It isn't art
It's a cry

It's quite something
when all the
lies come out

One by one.

Slowly
they bite at you
and try to numb your mind...

And then you inhale
the smell of truth.
The comedy of it all.
What a fool you were
and what a fool he is.

Oh, all your lies, baby,
they'll come out
soon enough
for the world to see

You engulfed me
Inside you
In your effervescent heart

I think What's important
Is to make these beautiful memories
With fantastic people
Who make you feel better inside
Who make you happy
Who bring out the better side of you
People who heal your brokeness

Dear Damian

You're an alcoholic

I'm starting to feel
Nothing at all
When I see your
Latest photos
I think I'm moving on...

The beach has a tone
Of romance
Of suffocating brilliance
Crystal salt glistens on the beach
And you walk beside me
My pillar of strength
My Man of God
I love you...

We stand
The ocean breeze in my hair
And my hand in yours
Firm and strong
To keep me safe

There's something about the ocean
The beach
Something that makes me buzz

I gave myself to you this morning...
All of me
Every part of me is yours

I love you

You are mine
And I am Yours
Your bride to be...
As you say,
You can't wait
Until you can whisper
"My wife, my love..."

I gave my body to you
I give you my soul
I give you my heart
I give you my life

I am Yours and You are mine

As I say, there's something mystical about the beach
I'm glad it happened here
With the sound of waves crashing in my ears  
As you crashed into me...
Loving me ever so softly
Gently

Oh what a lover You are

I love you

Tell me
That I was more
More than just
An object to toy with
More than...
An object
Of ***.

I hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself

All I do is cause havoc
That's all I am
I'm nothing

"Take you thoughts
And go shove them into a poem."
Thanks babe
How I ever dated you, I don't know what I was thinking
If you can mock what is dear to me
If you can treat me like trash
If you can break me down without a care
You are nothing to me

Dear Damian

You emotionally abused me

And you were on the verge of physical
Abuse

Especially one day when you punched your hand
Right next to my face

I hope you heal

Oh God
Please don't let it be
Don't let his mouth touch the bottle again
O God
I know it's bound to happen
But I want to pray for him
Even after all the hurt he put me through
All the pain
God, I want to pray for him
I pray that alcohol does not become his only vice
The only mouth to listen to his pleas
God, be with him
God please

You weren't yourself tonight
Why does everything change
When
You
Lust?

Everyone keeps telling me there's something wrong with me
Do you think they're right?

He told me
I make him
Want to commit suicide

I hate myself
I hate me so much

Why are you the centre of our fights
You're out of my life
But yet you're still here
Haunting my dreams
Breaking me
Wrecking my current relationship
With the demons you left inside me
Tormenting me

I hate you damian
I hate you
You don't know how much you ******* me up

I dreamt of you again...
I don't know why
I thought you were gone
Stupid thoughts
I'm such a mess

Am I such a ***** up to love
Is something  so wrong with me
I have standards
Is that too much
I don't want a boy
I want a man
Is that too much to ask for

You act like him sometimes
Why did I choose wrong again

I saw him today
He ignored me
He resents me
He's a coward

Damian
What's was wrong with me