Hello hello
A brand new friend
How do you do
My brand new friend
I like your hair
Pretty and long
You call me Pig
We now belong
Together us two
We're peas in a pod
Hand in hand
Our smiles quite odd

Hello hello
My best friend
How do you do
My best friend
Tell me your troubles
We've been friends long enough
Hand be your burdens
When things get tough
I'm that friend
With a gentle smile
Who will walk with you
For thousands of miles

Hello hello
My closest friend
How do you do
My closest friend
Your weight is heavy
And so is mine
We pull some harder
Then break our lines
I know less and less
Of your life's great war
Suddenly we're strangers
Again once more

Hello hello
My faraway friend
How do you do
My faraway friend
You've gone far away
And left me behind
No traces of you
You've left me to find
My heart, it aches
But I must pretend
That when I think of you
You're still my friend

I touch this skin so pale,
Afraid that it will shatter
But if it broke into a thousand shards,
Then I ask, to whom does it matter?

The glass that lay upon the floor
Covered in blood of mine
Only tells of days gone by,
A single life suspended in time

For no on touches broken glass
In fear of hurt and pain
"Be sure not to touch that blood," They say,
"It leaves a nasty stain"

But those few who saw this shower of pain
Quickly come and see
Through the wreckage of many tears
If I could still be me

So they put me back together again,
Like a Humpty-Dumpty that fell
Hoping the pieces still fit together
And I'll turn out just swell


Together once more, but not for long,
Everyone sighs relief
They go back to their days of nothing
As I silently drown in grief

They smile at me as though I was there,
They see but a pile of glass
My rims too sharp to love and embrace
I'm sure this glue won't last


But now I look to your wisdom,
With my eyes a little teary
Hoping you'll see I'm more
Than just run-down and weary


Oh, friend, why can't they see?
This mirror is only a reflection of me?

My chest is a cage
Constricting
Concealing
Holding back
And keeping away
A place where I hide
From my deepest of fears
But this prison
Is where my fears are held
Tucked away
In a
Not-so-safe hiding place
Because it is all too easy
For me to reach inside
And ponder them
Until they
Grow
Expand
Metastasize
To the point where they consume
My chest
My shoulders
My arms
My fingers
Through my legs
Into my toes
Until these fears finally fall
Down
Down
Down
Into the pit of my stomach
Where they stay
Until in the dark of the morning
When I can finally throw them out
Through way of mouth
In fits of
Coughs
and
Words
Of the unflowered kind
Because what I am spitting out
Is of the unflowered kind
And yet there are survivors
Who dangle
And play
Amongst my heartstrings
And the air in my chest
Until another
Bad Day
When they can consume my head
And constrict my chest
With the overbearing weight
Of
Everything

I am in love
But also at a fault
For I want to write poetry
But seem I can not

When you are in love
With a boy, the sky,
Or typewriters
You should write poetry
About eyes, clouds,
Or late-night novel writers

So what do I do
When I can't do what I do?
I write, silly,
A poem about you

I wanted to write a poem
But sat outside and watched
The leafs grow
And the children swing
And the flowers dance
Instead

I wanted to write a poem
But read a book
And thought about adventures
And hoped for one myself
Instead

I wanted to write a poem
But called up a friend
And told a joke
And made them laugh aloud
Instead

I wanted to write a poem
But listened to music
And the sound of your voice
And the house settling at night
Instead

I wanted to write a poem
But always find myself
Doing other things
Instead

But if you think about it
It's kind of like writing a poem
Anyways

Your life is a journey
To be taken step-by-step
A book to be written,
A memory to be left

Remember where you've gone,
Where your feet have taken you
The soft fields your soles traveled
And on rocks without shoes

Think of the storms
And the days full of song
Think of all the faces
The hearts and the arms

But do not turn around
To see where you have been
To see the horrors of days gone by
And the sadness that dwells within

Do not think of hours of darkness
For they were years ago
You passed them by miles on back,
They matter not to you anymore

Instead, take a look around
See the ground where you stand
It's good and solid and reliable
Unlike quick-moving sand

It's good to take pleasure
In how far you've gone
And recognize the person
Whom you have become

But do not ponder much too long
On the present and material things
For in the trees, just up ahead,
There a sweet bird sings

He sings for you so that you know
There is more than this to come
More than money, ***, and drugs,
Or a shiny car and gun

There is something grande, something new,
Just around the bend
But you may have to fight a war
And your castle you must defend

But do not worry, you'll make it through
The hero always survives
He must to keep the story going,
And yours is one that thrives

This may not be a fairy tale,
With a princess in a tower
It may be a tragic comedy
With a ****** war among flowers

But do not worry about the genre,
And of the ending, don't fear,
For the next chapter is not yet written,
The finale is nowhere near

You'll make it to the end
And such an ending it will be,
The series good and long,
You'll have to wait and see


Just travel your journey,
Take it step-by-step
Write in your own chapters
Make them a memory to be left

Plant a seed of happiness,
Wonder, dreams, and smiles
And up grows a lovely flower
Whose beauty shines for miles

Plant a seed of angry rage,
Hatred, lies, and snarls
And up grows a wicked vine
In skin those thorns will burrow

A butterfly
The ballerina danced
Amidst the forest of people
Who swayed back and forth
In laughter and awe
As she flapped her wings
And flew towards the sky
For she had her heart set
On the moon
She flew so far
She no longer heard
The praises of her success
Forever lost
In the echoes of trees

Lay out a quilt
Spread it with love
Then lay down beside me
To ponder the mysteries above

The stars in the sky
The dreams that don't quit
The fantasies that fly
The worlds that split

We watch an infinity
Unravel from the ground
As we fill our minds
And our hearts with sound

We whisper our knowledge
Of those stars way out there
And when we run out of knowledge
We don't seem to care

We start making things up
Stories from sleepy heads
As we drown in this abyss
Of thoughts never said

And we reach out with our fingers
With a desire to tickle
The stars falling around us
Leaving a tingle and prickle

As we watch the adventures
Swim in the galaxies above
We somehow miss
The adventure of love

For there is so much adventure
And many places so new
Locked away in our hearts
If only we knew

And I looked at you
Desiring those stars
Completely unaware
Of the galaxy in my heart

I am a wall
Tall and sleek
Covered in layers of paint
What you do not know
Is what's underneath
This white isn't such a saint
I'm rotting and bruised
With holes and nails
And insects that crawl between
My old colors are faded
Now old shells
Never again to be seen
I've had paper with flowers
Cover me up
From window to floor to hell
Paper with bunnies
And plates with cups
A mask that always fell
But now I'm white
Sincere as can be
Unnoticed and watching you all
And I know you don't look
Because, well it's just me
I'm nothing but "that **wall"

I'm growing growing up and down
Arms going up up the wall
And feet going
Down
Down
Down into the ground
Below my toes
Which have popped out of
My old Chuck Taylors
And burrowed into the brown dirt
And spread themselves to the ocean
Where my soul can be free and I can dance
And sing with all the wrong notes without a care
Because I will be higher than the clouds way way up in the sky
Kissing Jupiter
And laughing laughing on my long fall
Back to Earth
Where I will burrow myself
Into your eyes
Which I have left a little more than teary
And make you laugh in that way
That you HATE HATE HATE
But I love love
And I will bring you with me the next time
That I decide to grow and grow
Because I am sorry that I left you behind
As I grew
Because I left you behind
While you shrunk
So so small
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Forever
Beneath me

To let a scratch heal
You leave it alone
You don't pick, don't scratch
Let it bleed on its own
Until the blood runs out
Or a new scar forms
You just leave it alone
Let the cold blood warm

This about scratches, bruises, or scars
Everyone knows it's true
Then why, I ask, must you bother my own?
When these scratches were caused by you?

You've seen the blood
And the pain on my face
You've heard my cries
For a sort of embrace
But instead you pick
And poke and scratch
You make the bad worse
In my throat the tears catch

So my scratches keep bleeding
And new scars seem mundane
While old scars keep waiting
To bleed once again

But looking at these scars,
The scratches on my heart
I ask you a question
One to be asked at the start

Is it better or worse,
Or does it matter not,
To cut a new wound
Or have an old one sought?

"What are you thinking about?"
You whispered in my ear
As I stared at the
White clouds in the
******* sky speckled with
Splashes of white dots
And curly X's

"Clouds, Stars, and Falling"
I replied with a sigh

I've spoken of excitement and joy
I've talked of love and heartbreak
I've listened to words of wisdom
I've made a decision, for my own sake

It's been a long day
Of constant conversations
So it's the kind of afternoon
To sit with my malfunctions
And make it
Just peppermint tea
And me

I wake up in the morning,
Smile at the sky
Run around with smiles,
Never tell a lie

I stand to hug the day,
A very happy child
Run, dance, sing, be glad,
My love could stretch a mile

Talk, talk, talk,
All day long
Never thought or worried
If I ever quite belonged

But then I began to grow,
I grew to be so tall
And that's when it began,
My worries weren't so small

I started to wake up
From my very happy dream
Where every princess had an ending
But what did "happy" mean

I was told to grow up strong,
Beautiful and smart
But instead I like those T-shirts,
Video games and art

I've been told to go so far,
Find places and things so new
But over the years of hopes and fears,
I've learned a thing or two

Your whole future is laid out in front,
Your wishes, hopes, and dreams
So don't become who you aren't,
That's what this poem means

There once was a prince
On a planet far away
A prince who liked to think
Of flying far away
He liked very much
To think of places so new
Of places with color
Like red, purple, or blue
Worlds with emotions
And rolling hills that sang
Stars who laughed
Or cried where they hang
Where ballerinas clapped
As the mundane people danced
Where enemies were friends
And lovers entranced
There only would be happy thoughts
And even Kings were never mad
Where at night there were celebrations
For the moon not being sad
And the prince just sat
On his planet alone
Thinking up worlds
He would never come to know
For the prince only sat
And he would only think
And never leave his planet
Except for when he blinked

I wanted to write a poem for you
But all that I made was a doodley-doo
I wanted to make it so perfect for two
I suppose this rhyme will have to do

Follow me, small child,
To the ends of the Earth
Follow me, blind child,
I'll teach you of hurt

I'll show you the sick,
The broken devils of hate
I'll show you the drugged
For whom help came too late
I'll show you the people
Who have done many wrongs
And I'll show you these people
Have been lied to all along
The people with scars
And tongues of barbed wire
The people with bitter
And ****** hearts of liar
I'll show you the sad,
The angry, the lost
And I'll show how their place
That came with a cost

These people so sad
Once wore different shoes
Be warned, small child,
They once were you

You were there
In the cold of afternoon
And you were there
When I dozed off too soon
You were in my dream
Of parties and smoke
You were in my dream
And in it you spoke
You told how you'd been
And you stood a little close
A felt your lips on mine
As you slowly spoke
And I wanted to kiss
But listened instead
As you whispered and joked
About crazy in the head
For I knew you before
When you smiled quite sane
But then, I knew you before
You ever spoke with disdain
But then I got mad
As I slowly realized
That all the boys I have loved
Don't carry real eyes
For their eyes were all fake
With a bright shine of star
That hid their sad madness
Unless you looked from afar
And as I awoke
I knew the truth to be
All the "sane" boys I've loved
Are all crazies in my dreams

Sing me song of love and faith
Sing a song of hope
Then leave me now to cry your tears
I'll watch you as you cope

For your songs, they do not speak of truth
They do not speak your thought
You ponder only on Hells so great,
But a liar to me you're not

You sing your songs of innocence gone by,
A childhood lost in stars
Of hopes and dreams that drifted between love,
Now drift between fresh scars

Fingers dance
And crickets hum
Stars twinkle bright
As thumbs strum along
You sit with me
And we sing a song
Summer at last
Has finally come

There is a fire in me
It burns in my soul
It gives me passion and energy
And a drive to go
Inside of my lungs
It crackles and burns
It ignites my mind
As my stomach turns and turns
It heats up my head
So I cry out hot tears
To cool down I breath in
But I breath out my fears
It is growing, I feel it
It spreads through my chest
It laughs and dances
Wishing never to rest
So I'll drink some iced water
And lie down for a while
In the case that my fire
Might burn love for miles

What if stars were candle lights
Burning away
The flame so bright

What if love was post-it notes
Left scattered about
Quick thoughts of hope

What if dreams were floating clouds
Changing shape
Pure and proud

What if thoughts were old snail letters
Happy moments
Of cards and cursive letters

What if rain drops were butterflies
Falling gently
Wearing dresses and ties

What if Mondays were a lively ball
Flowing long dresses
With men standing tall

What if the wind were a music box
Whispering songs
Without any talk

But what if stars were candle lights
Burning away
Their flames so bright

My boys, my boys
In the palm of my hand
Wrapped around my finger
By my side they both stand

Daniel was first
Sweet as can be
But Daniel, my Daniel
He cheated on me
He gave me the stars,
The moon and the sun
But when I woke from my dream
My first kiss was gone

Ryan was next
With a kiss of surprise
Loving me right
With those calm, gentle eyes
But he kissed me softly
Then went away
And much like Daniel
He will lead me astray

My heart aches and cries
For one of them again
Wanting their kiss
And their hand in my hand

He lived in a town where the children grew up up up

And like the population, the graves went down down down

He went to school where rumors were made up up up

So he always kept his head, his eyes down down down

His teachers told him to listen up up up

But after class they would put him down down down

The kids at school beat him up up up

They would trash his things and throw them down down down

The price of the drugs went up up up

The money in his pocket went down down down

His detention time went up up up

The councilor told him to stop being so down down down

His dad yelled at him to bring his grades up up up

And only beat him harder when they went down down down

One day he decided to give up up up

So he made the pills go down down down

The sun kept rising up up up

As his body was buried down down down

His father never looked up up up

As the children's tears fell down down down

He died in a town where he never grew up up up

And like the graves, the population went down down down

I am so desperate for change
That sometimes
I catch my unsatisfied fingers
Playing in my pockets
In hope to find something
Something
And scraping the limits of the fabric
Only to find
Crumpled receipts
And old pieces of lint

Sometimes tears are beautiful
As they wave hello
To a smile
As they trickle down
Your cheeks

But sometimes tears are ugly
As they sneer
At the blood
That trickles down
Your arms

This heart's as fragile as they come,
Scarred and bruised so easy
It holds feelings that push against walls,
And pain that makes me queasy

It tells a story never to be heard,
It's seen sights that should never be seen
I cut it, choke it, place it in the dark,
I find it a wonder why it never becomes mean

Loose lips sink ships
Is what they all say
But tight lips, I fear,
Go the same way

When something is said,
A secret is told,
A whisper of pain,
A heart left cold,
You feel not at ease
And sense you must speak
But is this dark thought told
A secret to keep?

So the question lies
In the who, why, and how
Of keeping a murmur
Or speaking aloud

Have I ever told you
There's a little boy inside of me
He lives in my heart
But I wish not to see

He grabs my hand
For something to hold
But I let it go,
For I am too old

He cries at night
Because he is scared
But I won't do a thing,
I never would dare

He tries to tell me
Attempts to mention
But I am careful
Not to give him attention



But I can't help but stare
When I see my face
It used to be young
Now a man took its place

I have to be that man,
Strong and brave
To this boy in me
I can't fall a slave

So I ignore myself
Who is locked in my heart
And I pretend I'm a man,
I must play my part

But if you listen to my heart
And watch my eyes
You'll see just a boy
In a suit tying ties

There is a time
And there is a place
Where I'll sit around
And live out my days

I will be old and calm,
Watching lives go by
I will ponder my own,
And sometimes cry

Remember, I will,
The days of my life
The good like sweet nectar,
The bad like a knife

But that day is not today,
And it's surely not tomorrow
It lies a time years from now
After surviving much sorrow

But for now I'll live my life,
Without so much as a care
Whether I live my life rich,
Or leave my pockets bare

I could travel to places far,
Or stay close to home
I could love someone special,
Or remain forever alone

So many decisions to be made,
They could be decided now or later
I could be a sweet lover,
Or become a dangerous hater

Yesterday has happened,
And the future is to be decided
So I'll live through today,
And let my fears be subsided

"Oh, mom, oh look!
The Circus is in town!"

"Oh, dear, I'm sorry,
That ship has sailed."

****.

I once checked out
Of the loony bin
But now here I go
Checking back in

I wanna be tall and cool
I don't want to be Mamma's Fool
I want to run around all day
I just wanna go away
I want to drink and party late
I want to be that guy you hate
I want my knuckles bruised and sore
I don't wanna think no more

Did you ever once think
A thought of a thought
A thought where you smiled
Or maybe thought not
It's strange to think
Of thinking a thought
When one second it's there
Then the next thought not
But other times
When you think a thought
You keep thinking that thought
And forget it not

Sometimes I think
A lot about thoughts
But all I get in the end
Is a big thought knot

There is a story
Of the Chinese old
That whispers of lovers
And red strings it told
But I ask you this,
You Chinese of old
Where is my lover
And the string he holds?

Whisper me your secrets
And I'll whisper you mine
Tell me of your stories
And I'll tell you of my lies

My lies are  not deadly
Just a sheath on the blade
But the sheath of my lies
Is a deep scarlet's shade

I write to you today, my dear,
Upon this stool of toad
I write to you today, my love,
To tell of wishes owed

I wish for you to come back home,
I wish it to be soon
I wish to see your eyes again,
Shining like the moon

I wish to feel you lips on mine,
Tender skin so soft
I wish you were to lay with me,
In this drafty loft

I wish to see your body dance,
In tempo next to mine
I wish that you would write me back,
Or even send a sign

But these wishes that I wish upon
That star so way up  high
Never reach the star's bright face
And quickly fall and die