Finally living for myself and it feels fantastic

Had my first anxiety attack tonight in almost three years, I wish I knew my trigger but I honestly have no inclination of what it could be.

I've been unhappy for so long that I've forgotten how to be happy, I've mastered how to fake it though.

a year without you allowed my mind to become more open than happy months spent with you ever could.

Jesus...what are we going to do now

I'm happy to say that my inability to fall asleep at a normal hour was an issue for me long before you showed up

I'm too young to be this sad, ****

The only downfall to music is the places it takes you.

...I thought I was over you, then your favorite song came on.

Nothing makes me feel more alive than music

When someone keeps pushing you down and challenging you at what point do you stop pushing because I'm starting to feel tired

Some things just take time

I need to visit the beach soon..something about the sound of the waves and the chill of the breeze has a way of silently telling me that everything I am worried about right now just isn't that important.

I love music, and I don't just mean I like listening to it. I love music in a different way than I've loved anything else in my life. I don't love music like I love breathing or eating. Music is apart of me. Music is a part of my identity. I feel as though whenever my writing is at a weak point I can simply use music and feel like every word I ever wanted to say is being shouted in the perfect audience's face. I love music, music makes me feel free. Free of my anxieties, free of my waves of sadness, confusion, music is there for me even when I'm too stubborn to let it in.

School makes me so happy,

Planning out my classes, thinking about all that I'm gonna absorb..

just being at school all day is going to be so refreshing and uplifting, I can hardly wait.

I just want to know when it's gonna be right for me

Losing a boy in my 20's isn't so bad, the real tragedy is me thinking that losing a boy at any time can dictate my future.

I wish I wasn't such an emotional person, I wish I didn't feel things so strongly

There's nothing sweeter than a dog lifting your hand with their nose so you can pet them