still constantly trying
to find out if there is at all
more depth to
this mind of mine

this body
these fears
these vices

products of a
two dimensional way of life

the cause of constant
mortal strife

but I suppose if I
so
desperately want
to know

then there is hope for me yet

an ocean of being
that I float unconsciously above

driftwood that smiles

maybe there's hope for me yet

my favorite thing
to do these days

is drink at bars
torn by the way

pretty creatures
paralyze

my soul, my body
with their eyes

don't let on
my words you've read

don't let me
get it in my head

you all profoundly
tint with red

lavishly, this
dull strange life I've lead

don't let on to
that what I've been through

how I felt is now
a part of you, too

help me relax
let things be simple

there's reasons why
I can't resist you

but

please

Don't let on
My words you've read

but remember
everything I said

you make me feel
the most incredible things

thunderstorm

tidal wave,
even

when our bodies
got too close for
comfort

close for comfort
too close for comfort,
in the good way

my hands around your waist
my stomach dropping
lower than my own

alien
but so natural
so natural you
felt it too, it's
natural you see

we weren't told to
we were guided
cosmically guided

you grabbed my hair
and grew close
I could feel your breath

I closed my eyes
and could weep
but smiled instead

slightly, but the
smile was real
my body was tingling

I felt woozy
I felt your heart beat
studied your waist line

and now I'm drinking
wine too quickly
wine from a box, wine strong

and you are as you were
undaunted and
ever constant

but these walls
are covered with
every
second

pictures and pictures
of those
dragging
moments

I need a cigarette

I think we should just
keep this whole thing professional

you're so
beautiful
with your
kitty shirt

my heart is
what's for dinner
my soul soon
your dessert

begging
you to
infect me

begging
for disease

smiling,
broken down

loving
corpse at your feet

70 million ways to
remind you why you
make my skin flutter
and heart crawl

but I couldn't even begin
to put into words,
as your eyes matched mine,
In level and intensity

and
With fear of the unknown
and equally the known,
with fervor,
with yearning
with despair

eyes ignited
eyes in stasis
bruised but widened

I'm
terribly sober
but intoxicated by you
and I can talk
and talk
when I'm intoxicated

70 millions things
I'm compelled to say
but I don't know
where to begin

I just can't
though believe me
when I tell you
that I want to