chill in the stars
and the brightness
in the air

cloudy skies
clouded vision
cluttered thoughts
and inhibition

surrendered
to the ascetic force

guiding my
shaking hand
to-and-from
the ashtray

& in the smoke
and the doubt

mind and soul
became one

rationality resists
fantasy but
coalesces into
lust

and on this night
so black and white

You stood;
serene and from a dream

casting over
every ray of light

You
lovely
merciless
enamoring
thing

a nuisance
a temporary thrill
staying transparent

do what you will

soon enough
you will grow ill
of he, yourself

do what you will

foreseen in dreams
soon to be real
quiet demise

do what you will

and foolishly you'll
be on my mind still
but I'll trudge onward as

you do your will

far from sleep
i feel it now

the blind reach
the forced tender hand
stroking my hair

making me feel
like you cared

that arch in you brow
the way you
looked completely
through me
cut
to the core
and how it sent
feral waves down my spine

those oceans
i saw me swimming in

without feeling
automatic
planned out
exactly how
they told you to

your smooth
skin

painfully perfect

and the way
it curved
so seamlessly
as

your feet floated
barely gracing the earth

the scent
the odor
whatever you
want to call it
that
awoke
the primal instinct

and how
i so desperately
yearned for your
lips

both sets

oh, the horror
the absolute horror

heaven
in hell on earth

i've slipped

i'm so drunk i've slipped

i drank so much
i accidentally miss you