EJ Aghassi

EJ Aghassi Oct 2013

fading

a nuisance
a temporary thrill
staying transparent

do what you will

soon enough
you will grow ill
of he, yourself

do what you will

foreseen in dreams
soon to be real
quiet demise

do what you will

and foolishly you'll
be on my mind still
but I'll trudge onward as

you do your will

EJ Aghassi Oct 2013

repeat

Again
Again
Again

My soul
Is

Riddled with
The sin

Of once more
Never giving in

To what
My
Conscious
Apprehends

But it makes no
Sense

Nothing ever does

There is no
Innocence

There's hardly
Love

But I still hold
On

When pushes shove

I still hold on when
Pushes shove

I still grip tightly
To what I think
Is what I need
And I can't see
It's just what I want
and it won't be
But it still
Hovers over me

But at this point
There is no point

To keep running circles
And appoint

A role to someone who'll
never know

The way
They make
Time
run
painfully slow

EJ Aghassi Oct 2013

nightmares

far from sleep
i feel it now

the blind reach
the forced tender hand
stroking my hair

making me feel
like you cared

that arch in you brow
the way you
looked completely
through me
cut
to the core
and how it sent
feral waves down my spine

those oceans
i saw me swimming in

without feeling
automatic
planned out
exactly how
they told you to

your smooth
skin

painfully perfect

and the way
it curved
so seamlessly
as

your feet floated
barely gracing the earth

the scent
the odor
whatever you
want to call it
that
awoke
the primal instinct

and how
i so desperately
yearned for your
lips

both sets

oh, the horror
the absolute horror

heaven
in hell on earth

i've slipped

i'm so drunk i've slipped

i drank so much
i accidentally miss you

EJ Aghassi Oct 2013

ambiguity

this can be the bottle

this can be the fix

this can be a flower

this can be a fist

the nicotine, the thc
opiates or amphetamines

a lonely night
staggering drunk

keeping hopes high
with no such luck

but it's fate
it's fear
of reality
escape from
mortality

a reminder of
unpleansantries

reviving those
long dead to me

it can be
whatever you need

but be wary of
what that may bring

even with head held
high valiantly

no one admires you
while you're drowning

EJ Aghassi Oct 2013

variation

what a heart bleeding
what a man's man
you'll soon have her eating
out the palm of your hand

your words are aimless
but what difference does it make
because her eyes are senseless
and locked on your face

soon to reap the reward
of your wordplay and "wit"
your clever aim towards
the slit 'tween her hips

what a bleeding heart, what an obvious plan
what a load of ****, soon you'll too understand

EJ Aghassi Oct 2013

regular

in a torrent of faces
names
and movement

i stay
enthralled
enamored
by the way that
you do it

this sentiment
is usually
saved for
the much more fluid

thoughts
that run rampant
those nights where
the moon hits

but i can't help but
see
out of all those
that surround
me

the flash of
perfection
that sets &
wrecks
beautifully

and maybe soon
i'll ask you your name

and you'll remember
throughout
all the drunken games

and as i watch
subserviently

in the water,
in mindless
chattering

perhaps to be
more than a wave
in the
sea

maybe
you will
notice me

EJ Aghassi Oct 2013

nosedive

to see you brings great
comfort

like i see you
right now in mind

surrounded by strangers

in a
heart-stopping
nosedive

held in place
vertically

shaking
with fear
& morbid anticipation

alone together
headed straight for
nothingness

maybe you'll smile
in the face of your end

pretend there is
some spine in you

what more could you
possibly do?

but realistically
you will be
haunted by memories
of all the things
you regret and have seen

and how it has been short

not much more of a mark
left on the lives you've touched

other than dismay

but the unhappiness &
pain

won't be reciprocated
in your end

fortunately/unfortunately

and who knows?
maybe in those final moments
i'll be smiling too

with you