walk with me
 
tell me
your
hopes & fears
 
i want to see
your reflection
in the starry skies
 
sweet sweet melody
when you sigh
 
you called to me
specially
 
abnormally
transforming
the blackness i see
 
but i embrace
the feeling
 
the terror
 
the shaking
 
as every second of
silence
 
is a decade 
of your judgement
 
just walk with me, darling
 
life is hardly much a thing
with your desire on the shelf
 
i'll save you from your higher power
if you
keep me
from
myself

i need
someone to
tell me
just how
drunk i am

to remind me of the cruelty
i exercise in conversation

to lay around in bed
all day
& count the
breaths of
one another

to

make sure i
stay somewhat human

and to

make sure i
know that i am
someone
to somebody

i need to be called an
******* when
i am acting like
nothing less

to be embraced
in the coldness
i exhibit

though i long so
to warm you

validation
idealistic
romanticized
pessimism

i need someone to
make me feel

i


want



you

I can barely remember
how it felt;
that moment when
the blurred vibrations
set in

things make sense when
your feet don't touch the ground

reality was then a whisper
and now it is yelling in my face

reality is the cold tile floor
reality is the wildfire
reality is the car crash
reality is the hunger
reality is reaching for the pill
& the insatiable thirst for the bottle

reality is heartless
it is unforgiving

and the harder you try
to close your eyes
the more vividly you see

reality is always winning

and I'm
so very
tired
of keeping score