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90 · Nov 2019
Differently.
Em Nov 2019
Change is inevitable.
I tried to avoid it, to make sure we never crossed paths.
But I remember how innocent I was back then, not an ounce of sadness in my body. How did I become this? When did I change into this bitter, pessimistic thing. I tried so hard to light my way through the darkness but I forgot to bring extra matches.

         I think I have ended up so depressed because I was so happy.
87 · Jul 2019
forget it
Em Jul 2019
It's fine.
Get over it.
Forget looking into his cold blue eyes.
Turning and him looking at you with a stupid smile.
Forget how he made you feel.
Noticing things about you no one else took the time to look at.
Forget the trust.
The faith you had in him.
Forget it all.
It wasn't there for long anyway.
Em Mar 2020
Death is weird. What is it really?
A whole entire living person is there. breathing. laughing. existing.
And from one moment to the next, they disappear forever.
Never to feel their warmth again.
All those memories they felt. their deepest regrets.
all those tears they cried in secret.
are locked away for eternity.
Never to be able to look them in the eye again, how does that make sense?
I can't understand it.
My brain refuses to comprehend it no matter how hard i try.
They're with you. Then they're not.
Death is weird. What is it really?
76 · Jan 2020
without you
Em Jan 2020
i now live without you.
but i would never consider this living.
76 · Apr 2020
out
Em Apr 2020
out
I can't get out.
I need to get out.
I need to be me. To find me.
Please. Let me. Out.
72 · Nov 2019
How could I
Em Nov 2019
I am disgusted with myself.
How could I ever tell someone I love them when they are the reason I am broken on the inside.
72 · Jan 2020
i am the sun
Em Jan 2020
I am the sun. Perhaps I warm the surfaces of the rooms I walk into. I bring happiness to people who don't think about me much. But come too close to me, and I will burn you to your core. From far away, I am sobering, a reassurance to most. From far away, you will think everything is okay. But i warn you. Don't look directly at me. Otherwise you will see who I really am. You will suffer endless pain and regret the decision for the rest of your existence. I am the sun. Don't come too close.
67 · Nov 2019
you were wrong
Em Nov 2019
you would think that someone with such a sobering smile would know how to escape depression.

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