My dad, he saved a child
Almost two summers ago
Beat on his lifeless chest
Until he got up and started breathing on his own
Whilst I, in this empty house
Make promises I cant keep
And feed my blood to sharp razor blades
Because I know its a luxury to weep
I wanted to be the one to tell them
That Grandpa died
To summon up human reaction
But as soon as I watched their faces crumple
I wanted to take it back and say "I lied"
Just like how he battled to keep that kid alive
I wanted to stop him, shake him, say
"Dad, leave it, hes better off, you see this world is a filthy filthy place,
its a ******* ***** world daddy, you'd be doing him a favour.
So Save your breath
Save his grace."
But I didn't, I stood and watched and felt
nothing
While his mother pounded on my fathers back
Screaming words like "God" and "Please" and "Son."
As if there are such things
As I, in this empty house
Carve my wrists
And paint ****** pictures on
white hairless canvases
and think about that little boy
That my father saved