Sometimes I feel,
I have it all planned out,
Then it's as if my hairs falling out.

Sometimes it's like,
Everything's right,
Then my chest gets way too tight.

Sometimes I know,
Exactly what I feel,
Then I feel like I'm in a hamster's wheel.

Sometimes I get,
Which way I should go,
But then I panic.
I, just, don't, know,

The buildings stand high like mountains,
except more defined,
countless floors down,
I stand, blind.

The cars creep past,
a continuous stream,
whilst I wait to cross,
forever it seems.

Times square shines bright,
but all I see,
is the homeless man,
made bed next to me.

I stand in my anorak,
curly hair holding the smell,
how long shall I stay?
only time will tell.

I jangle my few cents,
in my trouser pocket,
I repeat the name,
as if I forgot it.

I left all I knew,
just for you,

my little English home,
and exquisite British tea,
all for you to fall in love with me.

I stick out like a strand of grey hair,
among all the hustle,
of times square.

The hurse crept through in a thick haze,
I'd been holding this off for so many days,
The black turned the innocent white to grey slush,
The people gathered in gentle rush,
They wore flashes of colour teamed with monochrome,
A painted smile on ladies face,
Men had grown stubble,
Miles now seemed so so close,
The donations box rattled with loose change,
The crematorium seats squeaked,
My grandma held my hand,
My aunt held my back,
As I held myself together with sticky tack,
I walked by the coffin,
Death lay inside,
This small wooden box,
Didn't seem capable of life,
A phone rattled in the back,
Lively again, somebody was in demand.
Funny anecdotes were shared,
False smiles grew,
I looked at the coffin,
That's when I knew,
That the body in the coffin wasn't really you.
You were someone who would chase monsters away,
A man who would hold my troubles at bay,
Brush my hair the way no one else could,
Make all the evil no longer seem bad,
For that fragile body in those sides,
Will never be my dad,
Not when it's ashes,
Churned by the sea,
In my heart, you shall forever be.

I want want want,
I need need need,
A love that will let me bleed,
To seep into his thoughts,
Flounder in his bed,
Be all the locked up secrets
In his jumbled head,

Want need want,
Someone to hold me so tight,
When all I desire is to fight,

Need want need
This terrible disease.

I miss what you used to be,
know what you are,
for this mythical being has depart.

you've left my heart,
exiting my brain,
no longer my eternity.

I'm lost in translation
Without inspiration
**** this lonely nation
This god forsaken generation.

I write and I sketch
All to forget
How wrong I was about this bet

I press the keys of my instrument
Just to neglect
My naïve intellect.

All this works for some time
Until it comes in reflex
And bites me in the neck

When he said 'I love you'
His skin turned from dark
To white.

For he had now seen the light.

When he said 'I love you'
The foreign words tied his guts,
his mind.

For this had left him blind.

When he said 'I love you'
Everything was put right,
Except in his world.

He was gone on the next flight.

whether you're listening to music,
or watching TV,
being somewhere else
is the best place to be.

have your head in a book,
or closing your eyes,
being somewhere else,
will always be wise.

You're my heart body and soul,
The four strings to my rock n roll.

The bandana that is stuck in my hair,
You're what I take everywhere.

The thud in my temple,
Making my life simple.

The warmth in my hand,
You give me more than just a One
Man
Band.