self portrait with twigs and vegetables  
 the vagueness of raisin eyes
feminine fruits convey a softness you've tried to hide - 
- small twig legs 
- seen from the distance
the shadow converges with the object from which its cast

- I told the students to paint me as they saw fit - black canvas, clown trousers, a lighthouse smashed by waves, a single cloud, 
cumulus, 
over acres of wheat 

there will always be distance between us she said

country miles and gaps in the geography
staples misplaced in the middle of the page where the silo used to be

the cheque the bank sent me slowly di
                 sin    teg
    rate
                   d

          he couldn't perform
the constant image of the black Converse trainer on the dead leg of Kurt Cobain just put him off

         modern day Moses
spammed everyone with the 10 commandments but they went I read
             lost in the junk mail
                    amongst adverts for ******* pills and serums that will give you strong
healthy hair

future kid
let's call him WMU#2b
will look at a pen in confusion
and will laugh at the concept of
metal money &
paper tokens

and my phone predicts my every word then replaces it with an image
- a

The bus drivers head resembles a badly shaven *******.

He doesn't look happy.

He has those real tiny eyes
that squint all the time.

Like he's looking into a really ******* bright light.

we feel cheated because dreams never have a natural ending

they just fade into a new day
at 2:43pm he bites his nail 
and tastes this mornings toothpaste 

and all he can think about is a stain on his carpet which gets bigger in his mind
the more he thinks about it

it just gets BIGGER till

panic sets it when and
he thinks of his death

of his kids
growing up with a name and a faint memory


people always look for the geometry in the familiar and feel confusion when the supermarket rearranges itself 


fresh fruit further to the left
26 types of tea
near frozen foods and desserts

at the check out         lurid magazines leer at you

that fear you feel when you see the security camera footage and know it's not you
         but someone playing you
in a mask
wearing a wig