It's not often that I let myself be
alone with my self and my time.
It feels easy at first, but then
I begin to scratch.
I scratch the same sores on my hands
as I scratch when I am stressed,
when I am worried,
when I am scared.
So I'm not sure
why I'm scratching now?

What is so stressful,
so worrying,
so scary about being alone?
Is it just that I am not used to it,
always seeking people out
or found by them?
That when, at last,
I have my self to myself,
I don't quite know what to do?

What would happen if
I just sat with that
for a moment?
Stopped scratching,
to just sit and breathe.
No one will come
and save me from this.
*Why do I feel like
I need to be saved?