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drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
the night makes me calm
i can hear the soothing rain
it's christmas very soon
a day to look forward to
a time to celebrate
a time to start fresh
make changes in life
hoping the new year is nice
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
you said
i was crazy
but that
it was good
you said
you loved me
for crazy me

why did it have to change?
i know people change
and things re-arrange
but we fall apart
so much
along
the
way
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
18 years of age
already on edge
suicide on my mind
death in my thoughts
i'm wasting my time
but i can't die
people need me
apparently?
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
school seems like so long ago. i miss the one i called my ''best friend''..
we sat together in every class, exchanged notes every time we were bored,
always got told by the teachers to stop laughing and to pay attention.

everything was lovely. and then school came to an end,
and we both took a course in childcare, hoping we'd be close.

then, we drifted apart. she had her new friends..i was alone.
it's been years since i've last seen her. i miss her a lot.
things like this, you can never really forget.
i know people change and memories remain,
but it doesn't make it any less painful.

never knew i was so easy to forget...

the same thing always happens and it just hurts.
it's one of the reasons i write.
i write to feel something.

i don't write about people for no reason,
i write about them BECAUSE of them.

it's not always negativity,
sometimes it's the opposite.

sometimes, i praise them for being in my life,
and at times, i write about how they just ruined me.

poetry is meant to be full of emotion..
otherwise, it would be empty words.
basically a vent.
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
writing happy poems isn't my thing
i'm better at typing a poem
which is saddening
drunkonthoughts Oct 2013
bitter and depressed
i guess i feel empty
lost and confused
without someone
here to love me
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
i like being in bed
it makes me feel safe
keeps me out of harm's way
but i'm still stuck
with an overthinking head

still, can't be worse
than a stained face
mascara panda eyes
or something else
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
cold English day
same as any other
no sun in the sky
today
the days
just get
colder
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
the night is a cold one
makes you feel alone
10w
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
it takes all my strength
to bear a smile
on my face

my heart hurts
my mind aches
too many thoughts
too many flaws

no one loves me
i feel so empty

no one appreciates me
makes me feel lonely
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
i remember december
of last year
your words, warmer
than the summer
of that year
you were so warm
and now you're cold
you still display charm
even when cold as ice
it seems like a
lesson learned
makes me
think twice
when i come
into contact
with a
loving
spirit
a lover of life
a believer of hope
makes me want to reach high
in order to achieve as much
your strength inspires me
it always has done
it's quite tragic
how things
change
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
sticking by you
is what i'll do
even if it means
that i break in two

it's all for you
this poem is true
my love is for you
my heart is yours to keep
hold it in your hands
please feel for me
what i feel for you

don't fall in love
with a fragile poet
if you're going
to break their heart
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
i shouldn't write about you
i shouldn't miss you
i shouldn't love you
i shouldn't need you

but...a part of me always will
only time will tell
if i let go
if i can give up
on what meant the most
we'll see tomorrow

as much as i say
that i hate you
a part of me
******* loves you
it suffocates me
knowing that
you're happy
because of someone else
that person gets you
and i don't
that person gets to hold you
and i can't
that person sees you
and i cannot
distance kinda broke us
and our connection apart

you'll never see this
or know of it's existence
but just know
that my heart
is yours
even though
it truly hurts
to see you loving
someone else

you have pictures of me
saved on your phone
i wonder why though
because you don't love me
although i was stupid to believe
that someone so gorgeous
would ever take a chance
with an ugly disgrace
like me, myself and i
i was so blind
by your light
that now i cry
because you broke me
and i
have only myself to blame
i let my guard down
and now i am
drowning in pain
not sure if this rhymes well or if it's good but whatever...poetry is poetry
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
drunken creativity
alcohol shapes me
all of this honesty
is beyond crazy
but it's what happens
whenever i raise a glass
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
it's all in the smile
it's all in the eyes
dancing in the dark
feeding the lies
dwelling on us
on dear love
drunkonthoughts Oct 2013
broken and damaged
repairs are expensive
the pain is hard to manage
just too painful to swallow
no amount of bandage
can fix this heart of mine
the damage has been done
and this is what i have become
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
nothing hurts more
than knowing
that you
stopped
caring

such a shame
you were everything
a friend i trusted
a girl i cherished
a girl i loved

above all
you gave me hope
it just *****
that it was false
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
some songs are unbearable to hear
they remind me of you
when you loved me
the previous year

some movies are hard to watch
they remind of the romance
we once used to have

some poems are hard to read
they remind me
of the one
i used to call mine
the one
who ultimately
left me to grieve
the loss of us

the few things that used to bring me happiness
they now seem to bring me pain
all i do is cry tears
again and again

people say your name
and it's like a bullet
through my brain

people call you my 'lover'
and it makes me want
to dig myself a grave
6ft under

it hurts thinking of you
it hurts dreaming of you
it kills me thinking of you
loving someone else
because that girl
or that guy
has no idea
just how blessed
their heart is
to be loved
by the one
i love the most
the one
who left me
hanging on
like a ghost
too afraid
to enter
the afterlife
because of the one
they didn't want to leave behind
this is more like, a short story than it is a poem. idk...
personally this is my favorite piece of writing so far.
it has a message, a meaning behind the words.
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
can't get you out of my mind
i feel so ridiculous, so blind
you've got this hold on me
and i don't want to be set free
this love is worth the pain
hope there's something to gain
apart from a torn heart
scattered all over the place
trying to create a new start
hoping it's worth all this
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
fragile like a tea cup
5w
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
i am a girl of many flaws
but above all
i had the
tendency
to over-love

i tend to think
of others
before
myself

it was something
that ruined my health

i feel so ill
poisoned
by my mind

overload of thoughts

what consumes my mind
is tearing apart my life
but it's not like
i ever truly lived

i am forced to breathe
my body won't **** me
it will not let me
use a blade
to set myself free
it will not let my heart
lose touch with it's beat
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
i read old messages for endless hours
why? because i miss what was ours
you were my very best friend
you were my soulmate
i hate how we let it all
simply go to waste
haven't met you
in the flesh
but i want to
next year
i want to see your face
and hope feelings re-appear
i want to feel your warmth
and just see you smile
it would make me glad
even for just a while
you are the one i see
when i look at the stars
you are the one i seek
every single night
i always wrap up
in a blanket
wishing it was you
holding me
instead of it
every night
same old thing
i miss your texts
i miss your everything
i miss you and i miss your love
you still fit me like a glove
people ask what is happiness to me, and I say your name...
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
all i want is to travel the world
be someone's special girl
experience different places
meet new faces
always change
destinations

one day
i'm here
the next
i'm there
that's what i want
a change of scenery
always and constantly

i want to eat different foods
with the one i travel with
the one i call my love
oh, life would be good
if i could travel the world
and feel happy for once
just grab my stuff and run
take a risk, take a chance
find someone and grab their hand
plan our future
as well as our romance
go out on dates
kiss all night
look in each other's eyes
it all sounds so perfect
right?

yes, it does
that's my idea
of a perfect love
of a perfect relationship
A neverending vacation
full of promise and life
it's what i've been imagining
since i was in my early teens

i wanted my teenage years
to be exactly like that
but all i have is sadness
but i wanted to experience it
the wonder of the world
the wonder of love
it's all i think about
but until then
in my sadness
i will drown

just wanted a nice life
and a love to match
we all want that
but some people
kinda destroy us
and the picture
we created
in our heads
of a nice life
in the sun
away from rain
away from worries
away from pain

there is so much
i would like to do
there's so much
i'd like to know
but nobody
and i mean nobody
wants to show me
how good life could be
This is a poem I'm proud of. Wrote it just now. It's a lot more positive than most of my work.
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
you're like a religion
not being devoted to you
would feel like a sin
in you, i see faith
in you, i find hope
you help me smile
you help me cope
you are my sun
you are my moon
you are my world

i love you
like a religion
with you
i am smitten
devoted
and committed
with such a passion
i love you too much, but i really can't help it.
you showed me how to love but not how to stop.
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
a part of me wants to hurt you
break your heart in two
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
saying goodbye will sting
because feelings are alive
as hard as forgetting seems
no love is worth the burn

don't fall in love
you will drown
it's not worth
the intense pain

your heart is yours
keep it that way
love is lies
all a lie

it's love suicide
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
my tears stopped
the day i realized
how much
i was
worth

if i can't be your world
then you don't deserve
to receive my love

my loving heart
has a lot to give
but unless
you prove
that you can
take care
of it

then...

you clearly don't deserve
to hold it
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
******* up
to the one
who made me hurt
who made me bleed out
all of my love and life
kissing you goodbye
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
sadness is a numbing sensation
leaves you emotionally frozen
you never know where you start
you never know where you end

it makes you lose touch
with yourself

it drains you so much
of everything you love

as if self-destruction
wasn't enough
it makes you crave
to bleed out
all of the
bitterness
inside

scars remain
on your skin

love remains
on your lips

memories stain
and leave a trail
of where they
were last seen
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
you can't be tamed
you will never change
but i wish you would
maybe you'd love
maybe you'd see
that you're the one
for me, honey
but you are blind
lost out of your head
left my heart for dead
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
i write about you
for days on end
although it's pointless
i think you're worth it

i can't sit and hide
what i feel inside
so i'll let myself write
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
i may not be perfect
i may not be smart
i may not be talented
i may not have the greatest heart
but ****, i am the best you'll never get

i gave you my heart
i gave you my world
but all you did was abuse it
what is wrong with you, girl?

i wrote you letters
i bought you flowers
but hell, i am done
being run over
by the one
i love

you say we're friends
but what the hell is this?
you ruined our friendship
took it for granted
honey, you left it

i am so done being pushed
way over the breaking point
all you did was leave me scarred
now i'm left with a broken heart

this is me venting
this is me hurting
this is me saying
i'm done with
the games
and the lies

friends are for life
aren't they?
no, lies
they take everything
and then throw you away

i am done pretending
that you mean nothing
because you are everything

would have posted this
on my facebook
but you'd read it
i don't want you to
you'd just comment
or like it

haven't you caused
enough damage?

spent years trying to love you
but now i am through
say goodbye to me
we are nothing
but history

no more tears at night
no more scars made
no more trying to mend
our friendship is done
you ruined it this time

longest poem of my life
and it's based on us
the tragedy which was our love
our memories, our time
our years, our hearts

you ignored my text
saying i missed your face
how did you think i'd react?
not in a way that's nice

my heart is bleeding for you
all the **** you put me through
how could you do this to me?
i did nothing but love
ever so gently

you're a heartless body
i deserve better
than to be dismembered
by a love who didn't love me

take your love, take my heart too
it means nothing anymore
you already broke me
there's nothing i can say
there's nothing i can do
except feel sadness
over the fact
that i have to
leave you

i need to let go
before i die of this pain
i won't be your friend tomorrow
it would sicken me to death
and **** me inside again

holding back tears
as i write this
never thought
i'd say these words

my heart is breaking
wait, it's already broken

i apologize to myself
for all this
never should have loved
but we all deserve
to feel like we're worth
the world
i usually never vent but i am so destroyed. i could cry a river.
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
all i ever talk about is you
the way you shake me
and tear me in two

all i ever write about
is how i fall under
whenever you talk

your words are sweet
sometimes bitter
but it's heaven on earth
you make me feel like
bliss can be forever

i sound like a lovesick mess
but that's because i am
i just love you so much
and there is no shame

you're flawless in my eyes
even though it's lies
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
saying you broke me would be harsh
but you did make adjustments
to me, myself and my heart
might add more later, idk yet
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
distance makes no difference
it can't make me love you less
if anything, i love you more
than i would have done
if you lived close
you are captivating
from miles away
my heart is melting
when i hear your voice
on the phone late at night
your existence
makes me feel
so much more
alive than i
ever could
have imagined
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
next year, I won't be there
to speak to you when
you're utterly bored
I won't be there
sending you messages
only to be ignored

next year, I'm breaking free
going to try and find
a love that's right
a love that is worth
all my time
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
next year, i'll have no valentine
i'll be all alone, again
i will have to witness
guys buying roses
for their girls
and ladies
buying gifts
for special guys
i like being alone but i hate feeling lonely
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
the night is my dearest friend
it helps me breathe but then
4am draws closer in
and the buzz ends

the thrill of the night
it always seems to fade
as the morning dawns
makes my earlier bliss
made it feel like a charade

thoughts consume my brain
they affect my days
as well as my nights
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
friends don't understand
family don't give a ****
i am always alone
with my mind

always left
behind
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
security is something
my heart lacks
there's no
rewinding
back
10w
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
my back is aching
my eyes are hurting
my throat is burning

maybe i'm getting sick
but i already was
of the love sickness
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
open relationships are pointless
like since when do you date
your friends?
i know i was one of them
but come on
since when
did you like her?
seeing your
relationship status
is quite bizarre
out of all the ones
you could choose
you chose her?

i mean, she's nice
like, i'm even friends
with her on facebook
and some place else
but still i'm
not sure
how to feel
i know my ex gets bored easily, but an open relationship? really? wow.
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
there was this guy
who inspired me
once upon a time
he was the reason
i even wrote
my first ever
love poem
and at first
it was serious
and then it all
turned into dust
but i was stunned
infatuated for a long time
now he's no longer in my life
and i'm over the thought
of ever needing his embrace
or his face to kiss
met him 4 years ago
september 2009
fell in love
but turned him away
because love was a no-go
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
cried myself to sleep for so many nights
knowing you'd never hear my cries
spent so long trying to move on
but my guard always seemed to weaken

you caused a lot of damage and so did i
but the love was so powerful
it made us both so blind
despite all of the distance
i guess i believe in us
i believe we'll find love
where we thought
it all had ended

you are a lifeline
that i always take
because i know
that you'll be here
even when my heart
it starts to ache
i know you'll find me
and mend my hurt

i believe in the impossible
you and i were a perfect fit
even though we always fought
i knew a spark did exist
i will never give up
searching for that
i'm hoping we'll find
our love when
it comes down
to exactly this

we are not perfect
but our hearts fit
like two pieces
separated
from their
rightful place
i know you
try not to care
but please look
inside your heart
and tell me
the love is here
we just need to find it
and make it all clear
take away those doubts
that drove us apart
and connect
the pieces
of our hearts
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
there's something truly nice with writing long, poetic notes
it makes the baggage easier to carry and manage
keeps you from further damage
to what is already broken beneath
and underneath the beautiful surface
as a poet, i've experienced a lot
as a young girl, i grew up fast
my childhood didn't last
had to be an adult
before the appropriate age
had to feel heartbreak
and sadness all over the place
i could feel an ache in my bones
a sense of sadness when alone
cried my eyes out at home
and hid the pain away
taking showers
to disguise my tears
hoping sadness would fade
wrote about love for hours
dreamt of you and my fears
destroyed myself to cope
pain changed my view on life
and the relationships i'd had
thoughts are like knives
stabbing me deeper
each and every time
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
my mood is like a rollercoaster
sometimes i am happier
sometimes i am sadder
drunkonthoughts Oct 2013
i am never good enough
a feeling i have begun
to accept, which *****

i am not smart
i am not anything
i'm the piece of a pie
left to rot
and die

i will never be
your everything
but you will always be mine
drunkonthoughts Oct 2013
that girl captivates me so bad
i wonder why though
she hates loving me
it hurts her head

she's so beautiful
hot is an understatement
so charming yet evil
but her love is worth it
if i'll ever get it
with the amount
of attention
from her
in which
i am lacking

there's nothing between us
except a broken kind of love
truly gives me butterflies
like an angel from above

she makes me smile
but can make me cry
she makes me weak
but can also make me strong
she can be the best
but also the worst

but...i love her
drunkonthoughts Jul 2013
there's something about the way we are
that makes me want to explore further more
just to see where the future will take us
whether our love is truly precious
as well as sealed tight, important
if it's been worth the stress
the sleepless nights
the endless days
of day dreaming
and everlasting lust
whether my lips
really want to touch
every part of your body
and whether or not
you're perfect for me
if our love fits right

i am sure its's been worth the fight
just to be in that bliss mode every night
to think of, want, need that feeling of lust
and everlasting, soothing, intense love

never felt so alive in my entire life
i think this might just be it
i've found my soulmate
the one love
i want to keep
in my thoughts
in my dreams
until the end
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
no words can possibly express
how much i love you
someone which
i should hate
but i can't
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