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drunkonthoughts Oct 2013
would love to stare
death
in the face

yes please.
10w
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
reading messages from January
how great we were
in all our young glory

now look at us
we're like an old book
which has been
collecting dust

a fairytale
which ended
with a twist
when a
tragedy
struck
and the lover
was killed off
drunkonthoughts Oct 2013
you stole my heart
you know you did
i feel so ****
knowing you
love me
and hate it
i feel so disgusting
and worthless
a soul wasted
breathless
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
honestly, i want to travel the world with a lover
or a friend, maybe fall in love along the way?
i want to take pictures and explore
i want to spend nights and days
with the person i love the most
maybe look at the sunset together
and look at the moon as it shines
into the beautiful night
i want a cute relationship
someone to call mine forever
someone who makes me smile
someone who makes me feel beautiful
a person who keeps me positive
someone who treats me like a princess
a person i can be best friends with
as well as more than that
i wish for that all the time
just want to feel like love is real
that's all i have ever wanted
a soulmate, a best friend
a husband maybe?
fairytales do exist
if we find the right one
that's what people say
hoping my wish comes true
and i find someone
who doesn't take me for granted
who loves me with all their heart
someone who makes me feel secure
as well as safe and happy
someone who puts my doubts at rest
someone who melts my insecurities away
a person who keeps my anxiety at bay
a person who stays with me no matter what
and doesn't give up when things get tough
someone who will do anything to make ''us'' work

just someone i can share my life with
a person i can share my happiness with

i mean, that's not too much to ask for...is it?
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
i have an incredible urge to write
not sure what to talk about
whether i should talk
about your face
or the way
you make
my emotions
run all over
the place

or about your eyes
how they make
me smile
when i am down

maybe i should write
about how much
i despise the love
i have for you
because all you do
is not love me
and that makes me sad
very much so
because you are
the bright star i see
in the sky at night
when i can't sleep
you are the touch
i feel in my dreams
you are the angel
that makes me well
when i am under
a troubling spell

i guess i could write
about how sick
it is to feel so
traumatized
by the quick fix
i found in your love
you are a drug
the only one
i'll take
no questions
asked
i will take
even if it takes
my last breath
you're worth it
i guess
you are
my weakness
you are
my goddess

epic feel in my veins
are you in there, babe?
gosh, i swear
you were here
not so long ago
hello, hello
miss stranger
who i love so

rambling on
about your love
even though
you're gone
it's been so long
since i've had
this creative buzz
i used to think
i would sink
without your heart
caressing mine
darling valentine
nah
but you were mine
once upon a time
unless that was a lie

what am i even writing?

oh yes

a letter to the one
i love
who's gone

she won't be reading
this letter of mine
it'll be here
where
she won't find

she's moved on
i'm still here
rambling on

poetry?
short story?
i don't know
but i do know
that i love her so
i can't let her go
my heart bleeds for her
to repair all the tears
and damages
all the wounds
old and new
fix me
like i
fixed you
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
nothing is the same
changes are mean
your love is everything
don't let it all fade
this has meaning

you are my best friend
well, you once were
we used to be
free spirited kids
who thought
we ruled the world
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
i bet you're ready
to give up on me
but i'm sorry
i can't leave
you mean too much to me
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
heart was broken on the ground, sanity was nowhere to be found, the girl who tried so hard to love was now lost and confused, from all the energy she lost, all the time she spent, trying to heal someone else, who eventually didn't need her help and said goodbye to her there and then. but, no one realized her pain because the smile she had on her face covered what was wrong and helped her sustain a solid alibi and she never showed signs of strain, of heartbreak, she tried to mend herself the only way she knew how: writing stories about life as it never was. after a while, it worked. but as soon as she met someone new, it was back to that same old page, that same chapter she once tried to escape. it all happened again. she fell in love with a heart that didn't belong to her. oh, she felt her own heart break in two.
I was trying to write a story but this was all I bothered typing.
not sure if this is good or not, but, thought I'd post anyway..
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
a night never goes by
where i don't think
of your blue eyes
or the way i fell
for that smile

my heart ran a mile
trying not to fall
but i fell hard
after all
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
my poetry lacks genius
not as good as yours
but i try my best
to make sure
you relate
to it
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
tragically smitten
love, forbidden
feelings, kept
tight under wraps
because rejection
is something i can't face
you make me feel out of place
dazed, confused, in love with you
smitten, lost, broken in two
baby, you're deadly
baby, why don't you love me?
i gave you my heart so willingly
hoping you'd give me yours too
thought you did, at least thought
baby, you, i am blinded by
but my feelings for you
i'll never be able to deny
because i've loved you
for so many days and nights
that i can't help but write
and to express my undying love
just hoping you'll feel this too
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
maybe it's good that we have never met
so i don't have to face the fact
that you're not mine, you never were
my heart made me feel so absurd
you left me longing for you
as i did so, i fell on the ground
all messed up, in the dirt
all because i
wanted you
to love me too
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
happiness is what i lack
5w
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
writing about you yet again
it's all i ever do
it feels like a sin
to be so devoted
to someone i can't have
my mind is a bit scattered
but you are what matters
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
her existence is a blessing
her smile is everything
her beauty is eternal
her face is beautiful

haven't met you
but i'd love to
not sure how i'd feel
being right next to you though
because i get quite anxious
during our phone calls
but you're so stunning
your love is blinding

your blue eyes shine
brighter than the sun
your personality glows
brighter than the moon
if only you could be mine
maybe my life
would be worth
the struggles
that i've faced
maybe life
would be sweet
and somehow
complete
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
being a writer
is the best
thing ever

let's not waste
precious words
make them count

oh, writing is such a thrill
it keeps my spirit alive

i would probably collapse
if i was forbidden to write
and express my darkest
and sweetest thoughts
drunkonthoughts Nov 2013
i need to stop writing
about the one
who keeps me
hurting
drunkonthoughts Dec 2013
you were the diamond
found with a bunch of rocks
you were the emerald
found with the ashes
of someone you loved

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