I dream of having you as mine
I dream of claiming your lips under light
I dream of having each touch of yours
I dream of searing the memory of you in my mind
I dream of having spent a day with only you
I dream of creating a life with you

But these dreams are mine
       And these dreams are fictional
       They will not come true

You will not be mine
        I will not have you
        And life as I know it
                Will always have the upperhand

I will be deprived of your touch
                                 Starved of your taste
                          Blinded by the sight of nothingness
             And I will shed tears like no other

                                     As they rip you from my soul
                               Just so they can feel the anguish
                                          The pain
   The darkness
                                                                           The loneliness
                     And the suffering

That only comes from living in a world

Devoid of you

              Devoid of your smile
                    Devoid of your laugh
                           Devoid of your warmth
                                  Devoid of your heartbeat

And as you die
                             I will die
As will I live
                         And only spend my days
                         All my remaining hours


                                   Loving you


                                                                       And only you


For the ****** only have that
       The ****** have nothing else
                                         But the love they once had
                    And the memories that they keep

But eventually
                           That will be forgotten
                                                 The emotions will run dry

And I would have spent an eternity
      

                            In absolute nothingness

Music an escape from reality
A release from pain
A simple chorus
Brings the depression
To an ease

But instead of music doing
That to me
You do .

You make me hold on
Just a little bit
Longer

But it makes me wonder..

When you leave me
Broken and shattered like
A mirror
Will you to have bad luck
Because of me
Or do you believe in
Superstitions like the
Rest of the naive world?

Ever since you left
You gave me hope
Something to grasp on

Now I'm free falling from a
Man with god like hands
To the depressions down
In hell.

I'm left here guessing
How someone so strong
So loving and caring
Could drop someone
With a fragile heart
To fend on their own

Honestly you make me
Question my own existence
And you made
All that my trust was
And will ever be
Evaporate.

Now
I am
Nothing but a fool.

Sometimes,
I open my mouth,
And you come out,
All of my teeth follow you,
Sometimes,
I turn my eyes,
And I see a picture of you
My heart sleeps in my stomach,
Sometimes,
I wake up,
And all of my fingers just fall off

I've caught myself standing in the rain with paper dreams of you.
I try to sprint through puddles, but I'm in concrete shoes.
Burdened by the sun, she hides her shame of me.
Clouds cover her warmth, she hides her shame of me.
Droplets resemble needles to the tender heart.
Thunder rumbles along with that blackened spark.
Cleanse my soul and set me free.
The sun, she hides her shame of me.

I hate this time of year ,It's a time of tears, Because years ago my family faced it's biggest fear. We lost her smile, we lost her eyes, we eventually all said our goodbye's. But each year it never fails this day appears and it's always hard to bear. We talk about those days back than that make us laugh and for a moment it brings her back to life. We miss her everyday not just this time of year but, It seems to hit you in the face cause suddenly the days arrive. We celebrate her life each November 5...We send her all our thoughts and wishes within balloons we've bought. Then we hold each other, wishing she was here and cry. We tell her that we love her as the balloons just fly. We send our hearts to heaven and again say our goodbyes. Each year she consumes us no matter how hard we try because she is the reason we all hate to say goodbye. We never will forget her she's something that we keep with us everyday of our lives.
I miss you Mary I miss you more than word can desribe. You are the light I use to find my my way out of the dark when life tries to hide. I just remember you are at the end of this ride and then there won't be no more goodbyes. I hold your words in my mind so your always by my side . I may not be able to embrae you or see you beautiful smile but I know you always there helping me get by.Thank you for always loving me and staying by my side..kisses and hugs We are TOGETHER FOREVER because with SISTER'S you never say goodbye.....