Dread.
It's usually the same.
Panic and anxious breath and
dread.
     dread.
          dread.
One day, I always say, we will want something better
Something healthier
Absent of accusation and blame and misperception
Something that lifts us up beyond this hurt
Allowing us to remember why I risked everything
Why we thought it was worth what it's worth
And why we hurt people - for years
Just to be together
Fate decided to twist our guts into knots instead of granting us peace and togetherness at last
Replaced by isolation and burning tears
And now Tuesdays are those confrontations with fate
Do we spend the rest of the time we have building walls, favoring hope, or taunting hate?

It was love that you tasted
On the tip of your tongue
Your desire is not wasted
Our oldest bonds are still young
My belonging to you
Is so much more than words
Nothing has ever felt so true
Yours may as well be
The only voice
My heart has ever heard...

The night ahead lays open like a rose
I can already feel the absence of my ecstatic throes
Crushed and forgotten like discarded clothes
Without you, my heart waits in restless repose
My far away eyes trained on distant shadows
Anticipating the warmth of our many tomorrows
How effortless the effort is to be so close
To know you in a way that no one else knows

Church bells on the evening breeze
Heavy hearted, ill at ease
All I want is your precious kiss
Save me, my Love
It's your touch that I miss
Bring the smile back to my face
Escape with me from this tearful place
My emotions are tattered
Mind filled with confusion and scattered
Take away what I need to erase
Give me hope and infinite trust
Tie my wrists with blood and lust
Tell me that you'll never run
Light my way despite the dying sun

I.
Parting is such sweet sorrow
Seems an eternity until tomorrow
Just once I would wish to wake
With total absence of this ache
Time feels like a cruel master
More of it with you is what I am after
My heartbeat slows and is ill at ease
Without love's protection from disease

II.
Give me your last breath
So that nothing goes to waste
Give me your entire self
So that I may know no one else
Give me your last kiss
So that I may know its taste
Give me your soul
So that mine can become whole