His love for me was more smoke then flame

If I could change the past and take back what I said/did I would. But “if,”, “would,” and “could” are things I could only hope for. I’ve already tried to mend the damage that I have done now I can only hope that you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I can promise you that I won’t ever recklessly misplace your love and affection again. It was wrong, stupid, and immature of me to do what I did. And now that I see how much my actions have hurt you, I know that I can’t bear to see you unhappy. Words will never suffice as the only apology for what I have done but I sincerely wish that it could start the healing process.....  Treat me like the monster you claim I am if it makes you so proud.. . and happy it feels good inside doesn't it....

Cant be broken

From others am annoyed
because of them am destroyed
so them i avoid
smiling i pretend
about me they talk and offend
indirectly ugly words to me they send
am hurt but i won't let them see
they can't see whats inside me
my mind am keeping clear
walking into the darkness with no fear
avoiding everyone not letting them come near
and my mind i open
my happiness was taken
but my words won't be stolen
even tho my heart is broken
my words were written
of sad memories i m letting go
when ever the freedom wind blows
my feelings in a poem flows
cause no matter how long
am staying strong
they can say all they want because am proving them wrong.
friends
Believe it i am lonely by myself
believe me am invisible in a giant world am an elf
you say u can see me
but why cant u believe me
i am lonely
on my only
have nobody by my side
and if i talk to anyone i'd only lose my pride
i am so lost and broken inside
can u tell me
can u answer me
can u look and see
can u really be
a FRIEND
can u stand still with me till the end
wont u let me lonely like a stone in deserts sand
can u help me and give me ur hand
can u be honest with me and never pretend..
I fly
~~~

In the night i fly
so far and high
up in the dark blue sky
my fear is to die
my sadness is when my parents cry
to keep them happy i try
am so honest i dont lie
~
feelings i get when i be sad
feelings i get when someone's dead
laying down on my clouds bed
cleaning bad thoughts off my head
how much does it hurt when u remember out there people cant find anything to eat not even bread
the story of sadness in their eyes i read
~
am now feeling angry and mad
people dying hungry and none of us for them is feeling bad
you don't have enough money to give them u said?
Tell me how much money u had?
yes right mister fred
how many people could u have fed..
But u chose to buy fancy things instead..
~
darkness in people's eyes i see
how much hard their stone hearts can be
so from this cruel world i tried to flee
oh how much i wish to feel happy and free
joy i'd feel when i see
poor children shouting of glee
~
we wake up to the beautiful sound of birds
others to the sound of bombs and its the last thing most of them hears
then their hope disappears
and fire of the enemy appears
~
falling asleep with tears flowing down my cheek
and suddenly the stars take a peek
and they sparkle like if they are playing with me hide and seek
~
goodnight stars goodnight sky
its the time for me to dream and fly

Draw them in like the butterfly to trap them like the spider

I'm one, Lies truly deep within her mind
The idea that left her to wonder
Coming of age, to full grown dressed in a night gown
To the dearly hour of midnight do her sorrows seed themselves
Low pitch somberly if you listen close, you would hear her cries
Within her room lit by the eternal darkness,
Nothing truly clear, incisive it may appear life to you a metaphor    
Love she sought robbed her blind,
Took her self-esteem stole all personal freedoms
Faith you had settle into him was dully, misplaced
But none of these things she lost were the reason love hurts
She was the one who opened up to vulnerability
It wasn’t love that stole from you, it was possession, obsession, manipulation and infatuation not love

She cast down her own thoughts of life’s pitiful dwell
Amongst frightful tales    
The truth was revealed
Deep in the dark upon the shadows you will find him
Hiding along a world tangled in her toils
The darkness his dear old friend, has a mark leaving its toll
For his loving devotion was strung into your heart
When played it sang a sad tune
Enduring the unthinkable it seems
As he came back from the depths of hell
She caressingly asked don’t leave, I need you to stay,
Be god and hold me, my savoir, my one and only    
If there shall be no morrow where you’re with me
Then my life will have lost its true meaning

You have no lover as far as the eye can see, raging like a tidal wave within you haven't got a clue... what you want from yourself or anyone you pursue... you feel alone but however you push anyone who's waves crash upon you... your simply a island nobody wants to be stranded upon