rj: Favorites

Jun 2013 rj

Emma S

Fat
Ugly
Weak

Those are the things
I don't want to be

Beautiful
Fit
Strong

Those are all the things
Girls are in the songs

Worthless
Insecure

I can't figure out
What for
I don't know how much more
Of this I can take

I want to be
Beautiful
Like the girls in magazines
But how much is it worth
If they only get hurt

I start to slowly float away
I don't know what belongs to
Today
Yesterday
Or
Tomorrow

So why do I feel this
Sorrow?

Jun 2013 rj

Why can't I be?

Jun 2013 rj

Kelsey

Why can't I be?

Flowers are so,
                          elegant
                                         pretty
                                                     extravagant
                                                                            lovely
                                        why can't I be
a flower?

Jun 2013 rj

A Night Alone

Jun 2013 rj

Sam

A Night Alone

I'm in a pursuit of sadness,
Living a normal life, but wishing I had pain.
I crave that feeling yet again,
And cry for the times I once had
With you, my friend.
Now as I sit here alone in my room,
I feel the creeping monster inside me.
I scream.
Yet in this cat chase for the past,
I would rather be comforted by insanity,
Than defeated by death.

Jun 2013 rj

~ recovery ~

Jun 2013 rj

palekiss

~ recovery ~

She heads home
        and without a word
she heads to the
           bathroom.
She’s tired of being alive,
     of breathing,
of fighting.
       But no-one knows.
                She misses the feeling,
        that made her
                                   pain
                                          disappear.
          Even if it was just for a while,
                  it was that time
that she didn't have to spend,
          fighting.

Jun 2013 rj

Failure

Jun 2013 rj

palekiss

Failure

Another cut,
             another scar,
                       another burn
Her mum is not far,
      she cries
                   and cries
                              and cries
looking at the cuts on her thighs.
     She feels like a failure,
                  mumbling "i must of been blind"
     a flashback of the abuse
                     entered her mind.
       Was it all my fault?
Could I of stopped the first kiss?
             or was this fate?
                      no.
                              I
                                    deserved
                                                       this.

Jun 2013 rj

You

Jun 2013 rj

The Habits of My Heart

You

Someday,
                                                                   I hope  you  feel  the  way  I  felt
                                                               about  you,  I  hope  you  love  the  way
                                                              I loved  you,  I  hope    you  fall  the  way
I fell  for  you,  I  hope
  you  ache  the  way  I  ache  for  you,  I  hope  you  cry
                                                     the  way  I  cried  for  you,
Someday, I  hope  you
                                                               remember  the  way  I  remember
                                                                                        you.

What goes around comes around.

Jun 2013 rj

Scared

Jun 2013 rj

Giovanna

Scared

im scared.
im scared to hug you
im scared to hold hands
im scared to go places with you
because theres always that possibility,
that i will fall in love.
so i hide.
i hide behind my wall.
i have built it very tall.
i fear by trying to block you out,
and push you away,
i have made you just want to stay.
that scares me.
because i think i have,
scared myself,
into loving you.